The Unconsidered Fetus

Masalalu

But this time the damn man actually immediately appeared in front of Teguh and instead treated Teguh like a kidnapper, I hated the man even more, and I did not want to see him again.

I immediately crouched down and aligned my body with Teguh, trying to give her an explanation in a gentle way for her to trust me.

"Definitely dear, I don't know why they should come after us, even after they've taken the phone, but I think the person they want isn't really just our phone, but you, they could have been a kidnap who wanted to take you from mom, so that's why mom just held you and took you away, and the proof is they're after us, right? That means they want you, they're evil kidnappers, so we have to get away from it, especially with you, if you meet anyone out there who's suspicious you don't respond to, you have to run away and run to a crowded place or ask for help from other adults who are there, you understand?" I said to him at that moment.

Teguh's gaze was like that of an adult investigating the words I just said at length to her, I also felt afraid and anxious that she could not trust me, she said, but he believed my words and immediately gave me a hug.

"Yes mom, I get it, I promise you, I'll be more careful later." Speak to me at that moment.

I breathed a sigh of relief and just immediately invited Teguh to go home as soon as possible and I also had to stop from the previous cafe where I worked, where I also had to stop, because I was afraid that they would both come there to look for me again, especially after they found out that I worked there and often wandered around there, luckily no one knew my home address so at least I didn't have to move, just disappeared from my job and found another.

"Let's go home baby, it's almost late." I said to Teguh.

We immediately left there as soon as possible, during the trip I could not feel calm at all and just kept staring in all directions because I was afraid that Mr. Jenson was still around there, I kept my head down and had to cover my face, including Teguh who obeyed what I told her because she also believed me that she was the kidnapper who wanted to take her from me.

Luckily I came home safe, but even though I was still feeling anxious, I was just afraid that they were secretly following me back then, until I stood at the door and looked out to make sure that no one was following me home tonight.

"Mom..Why do you keep going like that, they can't possibly follow us this far right?" Speak to me at that moment.

"Yes you are right, I am relieved that we can return home safely, but from now on I want you to stay at home first, don't play outside a lot, just start playing outside.So, you need to stay at home, and you've also had a vacation you better if you want to go out just call mom, we can go together, you understand right?" I said while holding both shoulders tightly at that moment.

"Yes ma'am, I see, mother don't worry about me too much, from the beginning if I knew they were bad people and wanted to kidnap me, I'd have already warned them right then and there." Reply Strongly to me.

"Darling you know you're a genius and you know you're a smart kid, but they're both not your opponents, they're much bigger than you, so it's best not to fight them, you just need to run as fast as you can and yell for help so that the people around you can know if you're being kidnapped, so that other people will help you quickly." I said to him at that moment.

Firmly nod obediently to me, then immediately I told him to go to sleep at that time, while I still have to find job vacancies on the internet through the laptop that I have, while I still have, I don't have a smart phone anymore and only have one old phone.

The phone I never used again since I decided to start a new life in this country, but now I have to go back to using the phone and open the folder in it.

I never imagined that my future would be this bad, when I thought I might marry the man I love and the man who loves music, so that we can live together and be happy with the many fans who will support me until the end.

But the reality is inversely proportional, I'm not married, I don't have a husband, and my career just crumbled, I was poor and had nothing but my precious little son, the fruit of my blood and my labors, during my nine months of pregnancy, and risked giving birth to him without anyone's help accompany the man who has caused his existence.

Until I hated the man and didn't want to think of him as the father of Teguh, even seeing his face made me hate him so much.

It felt so sad when I accidentally shifted the photo on my old mobile album, I found a picture of me with Mike who was so close, including a picture of me with my beloved brother Desi, he said, but now they're the enemy in my blanket.

Those who have put knives on me make me like this, but they look happy out there, even now Desi has become a famous celebrity who debuted right when I was hit by bad rumors that he caused, and he also worked with Mike, he said, I thought they loved me and thought of me as a little brother really, but I was wrong, Mike wasn't really good, even my own brother was jealous and hated me behind my back all this time.

I felt myself to be very stupid because I used to trust people like them without the slightest suspicion, whereas I trusted them a hundred percent, but all I got was heartache and betrayal that hurt so much.

"Why..why are you two getting this hard on me, you're already a happy couple now aren't you? I cannot congratulate you on your relationship going well, sis ..I miss you even when I know all this could have been caused by you, even if you're that bad with me, I still think of you as my brother." I said as I continued to delete all the photos of memories inside the phone.

It's the only way I can do that I don't continue to lament over all the bad luck that has plagued my life, the most important thing now is that I can live my life without the frills of the celebrity Ros again, without a high status and without a big brother beside me, I can still live my life well with my little son Teguh.

"Papa Ros, at least you have a son as handsome as Strong and he is very genius, I am sure someday Strong who might raise my degree again, I am grateful to have a son like him." I said while wiping away the tears on my cheeks that had been soaring since.

The words continue to give me strength so that I can continue to live life better in the future and in this day and so on.

Everything I deleted, everyone's contacts on the phone I deleted also included Mr. Jenson's contacts, I deleted everything until there wasn't a single number left in the phone, I also delete my social media that I never had time to delete, I will really keep my own privacy very hidden and well.

Only then can my life be at ease, keeping out all the things that could have triggered the pain and reminding me of a past that was too dark to remember and too painful for me to remember.

"I'm sorry, but I still love all the fans out there, even though I'm not your idol anymore, thank you for idolizing me and helping me stand tall on stage." I said to a photo of the fans at the last event I attended.