The Unconsidered Fetus

Give birth

"God why don't you meet me and Rasya while I'm still good, why when I'm like this, you just meet me with a man as good as him, he said, maybe if I met him before having this child, I could choose him to be my life companion, he would be very responsible for me and would love me sincerely, she said, but now I feel like I don't deserve anyone at all." My mind kept thinking about that moment.

I just keep feeling guilty, I don't want Rasya to like me as a couple, I don't want him to get an unworthy woman like me.

Even though he said that he was sincere and could accept me for who I was, still I could not be with him, there are a lot of good women out there and it's much more feasible to be with Rasya than a woman like me who's been broken like this.

Moreover I know that there are other Rasya girl friends and they are quite close, her name is Nayla she is also my coworker she was the cafe before, we work three and from her gaze I know Nayla likes Rasya, she was also very kind to me, she helped me prepare all the needs for my baby, even though Nayla only knew that I was Rosa who was a woman left behind by my husband, but he never questioned anything to me including my true origin.

Right now, he is the one who keeps me at home every day, because she lives alone in her house and I also live alone so she always stays at my house since my womb began to grow.

Until the day my baby will be born has arrived, I could not sleep that night because I continued to feel my stomach start to feel sluggish and I could feel so clearly that the little baby was about to come out of my stomach.

Until a few minutes later, I was absolutely sure I was going to give birth and Nayla frantically contacted Rasya who was still working at the time, they quickly took me to the hospital, and she said, and accompany the process of my birth until my baby can really be born safe and healthy.

"Guard..eakk...eak..." The sound of a baby I was just born at that time.

Rasya and Nayla, who were waiting outside, were delighted when they heard my baby crying and had been born into the world.

"Welcome baby boy, he's so handsome and white like his mother." Said the nurse who helped me with my labor at the time.

They immediately cleaned my baby and put him to sleep next to me, Rasya also entered my room as well as Nayla, they look so enthusiastic to see my baby boy who is very handsome.

And when I saw the baby's face I thought back to the man named Mr. Jenson, my baby's face was very similar to his, even though I had only met her once but I still remembered her face I could not forget the face of my own son's father, even though she was very painful for me to remember.

"Bah...Rosa your baby is very handsome, look at her small and cute lips, her nose is also sharp, she will be the dream of women when they grow up." Nayla praised my baby at the time.

"Nayla you could have," I told him.

"Yes he's very handsome just like his beautiful mother is Nayla." Rasya added.

"He looks like his father." My reply made Rasya instantly speechless.

"really? You must be very lucky to have such a handsome husband, too bad he left you and your handsome son, I'm sure one day your husband will regret what he did to you and your son." Reply Nayla who did not know anything at that time.

I could only be silent about the pain in my own heart until Rasya immediately rebuked Nayla not to talk about it anymore, because she knew what I was feeling at that moment, only Rasya knows everything about me including the big secret I've been carrying around all this time.

"Asha...Nayla what you're talking about You know Rosa doesn't like her husband, you don't talk about it under these circumstances." Rasya reminded Nayla at that time to make Nayla immediately apologize.

"Yes I forgot, I'm sorry Rosa, I really didn't mean to remind you of your own wounds, I really didn't mean that." Said Nayla who immediately apologized and looked quite guilty to me at that time.

"If what you said is true, so you don't have to apologize to me, I've not been concerned about me and her father's problems this baby, I won't remember her anymore, either, I've got you guys and this little baby, I'm happy about it." Reply to him.

And Nayla immediately hugged me, she was indeed a good person even when she accidentally said that she could feel guilty to the point that it was to me.

"Baaahh...Rosa you're making me feel more guilty about you, I promise I won't talk about it again, I love you Rosa you're my best friend so far." Say her while hugging me tightly, and I return her embrace gently.

Unfortunately I will soon part ways with the two of them, after I stayed that night in the hospital for the next morning I was ready to leave. While Rasya and Nayla were still sleeping I quietly walked out of my room and finished all the hospital administration myself, I also took care of my flight abroad from long ago when I was still carrying my baby, I took the newborn baby with me, and write a farewell letter first to Nayla and Rasya I also hope they can unite.

After writing the farewell letter and I put it on the bed that I had already finished, I immediately left quickly for the airport and was about to take the earliest flight at that time.

"I'm sorry Nayla, Rasya... I just don't want to be a hindrance between the two of you and I don't want to trouble good people like you, I love you very much, but I have to go, goodbye Nayla, Rasya..." I said when I was on the plane at the time.

I really have left the country where I have been working and the country where I live has also grown so far, and left the pain I have experienced there, he said, it was as if I left a wound that made my life ever so broken before.

"Goodbye, Desi, Mike, and all the wounds that have made me suffer all this time, I hope I won't meet again with people like you." I said until the plane started flying.