The Sins of Love

Final Chapeter: GO 2

...I can't go on like this, I can't tell you the truth...

...Can't wait anymore, I'm sending you this message again...

...I'll give you your last chance...

...Ishanas...

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After making sure if his mother really had slept Ziyan then came out of Irfan and Diana's room, the sedative that Diana drank did provide a sound sleep effect. Outside Irfan's room was seen sitting in the guest room, the man seemed to be waiting for Ziyan to come out and sure enough after seeing Ziyan the man immediately got up from his seat and approached Ziyan.

"Where is your mom?" ask Irfan

"Mama is sleeping"

Irfan nodded his head to hear Ziyan's reply

"Sorry about it" Ziyan looked down not daring to look at Irfan

Irfan did not immediately respond just staring at Ziyan full of pity, pity this child he had to see his most beloved mother suffering from a mental disorder, he said, living and being raised by a mother who is not okay must have a big influence on Ziyan's life, Irfan thought.

"You don't have to apologize, you're not Zi's fault"

Ziyan still lowered her head, then Irfan patted Ziyan on the shoulder

"You were great all along you could take care of the unstable Diana very well"

Hearing Irfan Ziyan's words instantly raised his face, did Irfan know Diana's true condition?

"Om ta-u?" asked Ziyan

Irfan just nodded

"When did you know?"

"That time your mother did not accidentally leave her drugs in papa's car, at first papah was not suspicious of the drugs but after seeing Diana always take him everywhere finally papah nyari know and it turns out it's all anti-depressant drugs for bipolar sufferers"

Ziyan looked at Irfan's calm face

"Sorry mamah for not being honest with you" Ziyan felt guilty for Irfan

"It's not easy to tell people that we're sick, is it? Moreover, the problem of mental disorders, many people still think that people with psychiatric disorders must be crazy, papah knows this must be hard for you"

"Om okay?"

Irfan smiled at Ziyan's question

"What should Ziyan do?" Irfan asked back

Ziyan was silent looking at Irfan, he did not expect the man could accept his mother with unstable mental health condition, even dared to marry and build a household, it was not an easy thing, it was a very difficult situation, Ziyan then wondered what was Irfan's love for his mother?

"Please take care of your mother" Ziyan pinta wholeheartedly

"Are you sure you want to study in Canada?" asked Irfan and Ziyan just nodded

"You are sure, papah can only support whatever you want, papah and Nasha here must take care of your mother as much as we can, but promise you have to come back here again, papah, this house is now your home too"

"Thank you"

"Your room above, later above there is also a room Nasha if you need nothing you do not hesitate to ask for help Nasha or Miss Lasmi yes! mending now you rest first!"

Ziyan nodded and then left Irfan to ascend. After reaching the top Ziyan saw the door of Nasha's room that was tightly closed, for a few minutes he only looked at the door, if Ziyan could very much see Nasha who was there, and then he could only look at the door, he missed the girl so much that it felt crowded.

Meanwhile, in his room Nasha was still sitting in front of his study desk while working on math problems in his study book, most of the problems in the package book was almost filled almost entirely, even almost entirely, any sleepless Nasha will preoccupy herself with studying, filling out any textbook even if there is no PR, or, he needed something that would keep him focused so that his mind would not constantly be fixed on Ziyan and his feelings would still fall apart.

Nasha kept trying to focus on filling those questions, she really did not want to think about the words of Ziyan who said she was going to college in Canada, living a life as a half-brother with Ziyan is not easy but knowing that he will not be able to see the man again makes the pain even more gaping, why would Ziyan destroy her to this extent and leave her alone in the toughest conditions of her life? Did Nasha really mean nothing to Ziyan anymore? Thought it.

Nasha's head feels very sick, because too often can not sleep makes Nasha often feel a severe headache. The girl reached for the empty glass next to her, she brought the glass out for water, Nasha had to take medicine, she could not continue like this.

The girl went down the stairs to the kitchen, and unknowingly Ziyan who was in the next room continued to observe what Nasha was doing.

Nasha filled the water into the glass she was carrying and suddenly a drop of blood dripped into the glass, Nasha touched under her nose it was the girl's nosebleed, the girl covered her nose with her hands, Ziyan who saw Nasha reflex gave a tissue and wiped Nasha's bloodied hand.

Nasha instantaneously moved away and pulled her rough hand, the girl hurriedly headed towards the sink to clean the blood from her hands and nose, she said, The worried Ziyan still followed Nasha and tried to make sure that the girl was okay.

"You sick?" ziyan looked very worried

Nasha just ignored him and now he took some tissue to wipe his wet hands and nose, the blood from Nasha's nose was still slightly out and Ziyan tried to touch Nasha again but again the girl moved away.

"You're okay, right?" ask Ziyan again

Nasha lowered the tissue that covered her nose and the white matter now had blood spots, Nasha then walked past Ziyan without answering her question. But before the girl went too far Ziyan pulled Nasha's hand to block her, Nasha tried to let go of Ziyan's hand but the man's hand had now landed on her.

"You have a fever" Ziyan sounded a little annoyed as Nasha continued to ignore him

Once again Ziyan's hand was brushed aside violently

"Don't pretend to care" Nasha replied rudely

"When did you get rich?" Ziyan blocked Nasha's hand again, they stared intently at each other

"What mean? You want me to be a good sister?"

Hearing that Ziyan let go of her check and looked at Nasha guiltily

"What more do you want from me? I've done everything you want Zi, isn't it enough?" tears began to drip down Nasha's cheeks

"You're the one who's always killing everything, as if I've never been in your life, that's why you're leaving too, right? Since I'm not something that matters to you" Nasha smiled bitterly as she said "you do as you like" Nasha looked so tired with everything, the girl lowered her face and cried

Ziyan's heart was deeply wounded seeing and hearing what Nasha said.

Ziyan did not accept the rejection, her body was squeezing Nasha more and more and her hands were now holding Nasha's face to stare at her, the man kissed Nasha's lips violently, Nasha kept trying to push Ziyan's body away but it wasn't that easy to escape Ziyan's embrace, Ziyan kept repeating her rough kiss as Nasha could dodge a bit, the girl thrashed and cried asking Ziyan to let go but Ziyan seemed deaf and continued to kiss Nasha's lips, face and neck until the girl seemed to be getting tired of fighting back.

Nasha finally resigned herself to what Ziyan was doing, her hand that had since hit Ziyan's shoulder as hard as it was now could only grip the man's t-shirt with her remaining strength, she said, Ziyan still continued to kiss Nasha's lips even bit Nasha's thin lips as if she wanted to eat the girl, all the longing and pain she had been holding was poured into a terrible kiss, Nasha who missed Ziyan was no less crazy finally returned the kiss by following Ziyan's rhythm but instantly the man released Nasha's rough body when Ziyan realized the girl gave herself up, he distanced his body from the girl who was now resigned to whatever would be done to him.

"This is what happens when I don't get away from you"

The messy Nasha could only stare blankly at Ziyan's words

"I still have one request that you have to kabulin right?" Ziyan was still staring at Nasha with a devastated look "Hate me Sha, that's my request!"

Ziyan left the barn and left Nasha who was still in disbelief with what had just happened, the girl's pajamas barely partially opened the buttons, her face was very messy and the corners of her lips were slightly bloody, her legs felt bone loss, the girl sat down and folded her legs and cried in the dark.

Ziyan took his sport bike away from Nasha's house, the man rode the bike as fast as he could.

Miss Lasmi who had been peering at what Ziyan and Nasha were doing could only cry looking at Nasha who was now walking straight up the stairs to her room. ~

The next morning Lasmi's mother found Nasha was preparing to go to school, the girl's eyes must be damp because all night she did not sleep at all.

"Non, can I come in?" ask Lasmi from outside the room

"Come on ma'am"

Miss Lasmi went into Nasha's room and saw the girl was putting some textbooks in her bag.

"Non's going to school?"

Nasha just nodded, Nasha like she was hiding her face, she certainly did not want to miss seeing my face even though without Nasha realizing it, she knew all the events that happened last night. Miss Lasmi makes sure that if their parents do not wake up and catch Nasha and Ziyan, the middle-aged woman always protects them.

"Non sure? Non-look like that? Non Nasha is okay, right?"

"I'm fine ma'am" Nasha replied with a smile

"Non rather fever loh, non Nasha rest aja yes" pinta bu Lasmi after checking Nasha's body temperature

"I went to school, ma'am" answered Nasha

"Non will be sick again do not maxain ya" Miss Lasmi grasped Nasha's hand strengthen

"But here it hurts more ma'am, it's tight" Nasha looked down to hide her tears dripping, Nasha's hands squeezing her chest that was very sick

Ms. Lasmi hugged the girl, what a pity this daughter, she had to have this one because her first love, Nasha had been left too often she must have been very devastated.

"Non strong go to school?" asked Bu lasmi again while wiping the tears on Nasha's cheek, the girl just nodded and then they went downstairs for breakfast.

The atmosphere of the morning was very strange, Nasha was gloomy as well as Diana who looked very sad because Ziyan was going to Canada tomorrow, Nasha didn't say much when she saw Diana crying at the dinner table telling her that Ziyan was sticking with her decision to go to college in Canada. If only they knew Nasha's heart was also crying and hurt because she had completely lost Ziyan, Nasha soon left for school and said goodbye to her parents.~

The day changed so quickly, this morning Nasha woke up with pain all over her body, her fever was getting higher but the girl did not care about her condition, Nasha tried to endure the pain in her heart but her body was not that strong, she said, his body said that Nasha was not capable.

When he went down to the dinner table Nasha did not find his father and stepmother there, they said they had gone to the airport since morning because Ziyan's plane left at nine. Diana did not want to lose the last moment before Ziyan left, that was why they left as early as possible in order to linger spending time with Ziyan, Tears suddenly trickled down again hearing Ziyan's departure, ms. Lasmi once again asked Nasha to rest at home but the girl remained stubborn and finally Miss Lasmi forced Nasha to take medicine before leaving.

Now Nasha is at school, trying to hold her body and heart aching by forcing herself to focus on learning but it turns out she is only strong until the end of the first lesson, Mia and Caca took her to the UKS because Nasha almost fainted in class, while lying in the UKS Nasha's bed staring at the clock hanging on the wall, nine o'clock only 40 minutes away means Ziyan's plane will take off in 40 minutes, what can Nasha do? He could only lie helplessly in the UKS bed, Nasha cursing himself in the heart. Not long after the UKS nurse asked Mia and Caca to go back to class so as not to miss a lesson, the two girls just complied. After five minutes both of her friends left Nasha asking permission to the UKS guardianship to go to the toilet, the guard offered to drop Nasha but the girl refused.

Nasha down the hallway of the school corridor which is now not clearly visible because her eyes are a little blurry, dizzy that attacks Nasha's head it feels like it can not be held back, the girl held her hand against her to avoid falling and someone suddenly supported Nasha's limp body.

Nasha looked at the man next to her who was holding her body

"Sir Ken"

"Sha lo sick? I'm taking it to the UKS, right?" asked Ken who almost saw Nasha collapsing in the corridor

The girl shook her head vigorously, then cried bitterly

"Shaaa, why are you?" Ken really pity to see Nasha now, the girl is like losing half of herself "is there a sick one?"

"Sister, help me, Ziyan leave today" Nasha cried a sigh, that day the school corridor was still quiet because the other students were still studying in the classroom

Ken still looked at the weak Nasha with pity

"Sister, anterin me to the airport yes" pinta Nasha while holding Ken's hand firmly

"Lo's sick again Sha, mending me anterin go home aja ya"

Nasha shook her head again, now Nasha was really like a stubborn little boy

"Please brother, I don't want Ziyan to leave"

Ken was really confused as to what Nasha would respond to, Ken knew Ziyan's plane was taking off at nine and that even if they went to the airport it would be too late.

"We won't be able to meet Ziyan, you know it's Sha"

Nasha was crying more and more, she did not want to hear that reality

"Please brother, anterin me only" Nasha once again said

Finally Ken complied with Nasha's wishes, the two students skipped school with Ken's car, he reasoned at the school security guard if he wanted to bring the sick Nasha home, and finally they arrived at the airport after an hour of travel.

Nasha runs around in the airport hoping for Ziyan's plane to delay and the girl finally arrives at the airport guard's desk asking for the plane's departure to Canada and this is the fact Ziyan's plane has been taking off since nine o'clock, the girl was now sitting limp with all her remaining strength.

"We go home to Sha" Ken persuades Nasha to go home

The girl did not respond still lowered her face while crying

"I'm sorry, sister, you're truant because of me" Nasha said as she stammered

"Don't think about it, mending now we go home yes"

Nasha nodded and forced her legs to stand up again but a second later everything went dark, Nasha collapsed.~

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