The Sins of Love

UNDECIDED

...I just want to be the only one, but for you even we're done, you just go and die...

...Adinda N.R's....

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Since this morning Nasha had not seen Ziyan at all when usually Ziyan had been waiting for her in the school corridor or in front of her class, Nasha called Ziyan during the break but her call was not answered even though by the man, Ken or Arvi also did not know why today Ziyan did not enter school, there is no information whatsoever. Because there was no news at all Nasha became very worried, even it felt difficult to be able to focus on learning today.

Until the school hours Nasha did not know where Ziyan was, suddenly the phone in Nasha's pocket shook when the girl was cleaning her study equipment in the bag because the clock had shown the time to go home, hastily Nasha checked her phone hoping that the phone call was Ziyan. On the small screen of the hape it was written the name 'Papa', Nasha sighed a little disappointed.

"Hallo pah"

"Sha, sorry papah today can't pick you up, papah again in the hospital"

"Who's sick?"

"Dear aunt Diana"

Deg, suddenly his curiosity today was like it had been answered, like a puzzle that finally arranged perfectly Nasha finally knew the existence of Ziyan, deserved Ziyan to not enter school.

"Tante Diana why reward?"

"Said doctor aunt Diana positive DBD so must be treated a few days here"

The feeling of worry for Ziyan's mother suddenly appeared, but her worry for Ziyan was certainly greater, Ziyan must have been very upset when her mother was sick like this, Nasha thought.

Nasha pinched her nose at a loss as to what to do.

"Yes, it's okay I can go home alone on the ojek"

"I'm sorry Sha, if that's what you close first, you're careful to go home!"

"OK pah"

Nasha then closed her phone and put the hape back in her pocket, the girl pensively thought about how Ziyan and her mother were now, had Ziyan told her about their relationship with her mother? Nasha then walked out of the classroom with a still chaotic mind, at a time like this she really missed Ziyan, it felt if there was Ziyan everything felt so light, felt so safe, he said, while now Nasha's chest feels very heavy ~

Ziyan was sitting on the sofa in her mother's room, she could only be silent watching Irfan and Diana in front of her were having a warm chat, ziyan saw that her mother could still smile in the midst of her ailing condition, there was a broken feeling seeing the scene, it felt like the wall that was blocking her and Nasha from getting together was getting bigger and taller. Ziyan then quietly walked out of the room unnoticed by Diana or Irfan, Ziyan needed some fresh air.

Ziyan sat on one of the long benches in the hospital, leaning against the wall and closing her eyes, after seeing his mother's stable condition, Ziyan realized that all his belongings he left behind in the rented, when he saw his mother passed out Ziyan did not remember anything but immediately he had to take his mother to the hospital. After arriving at the hospital and getting the doctor's treatment, Diana finally realized, after almost three hours of waiting finally all the lab results Diana out and the doctor decided that Diana should be treated.

Shortly after arriving at the nursery Diana immediately looked for her cellphone which Ziyan also left their contract, finally Diana used a hospital cable phone to contact Irfan, Irfan, he did not speak after receiving news from Diana Irfan came to the hospital immediately. Ziyan was very sad to see her mother who was in need of Irfan, from the look on her face alone Ziyan could tell how much her mother felt about the middle-aged man and realized it made Ziyan feel claustrophobic, how could he tell Nasha about his mother?

Ziyan started to remember Nasha, the girl must have been very worried about him and was waiting for him. Guilt now enveloped his heart.

Suddenly someone patted him on the shoulder so Ziyan reflexively opened her closed eyes. Irfan sat next to him.

"You can go home first Zi, let me keep your mama here"

Hearing that Ziyan shook her head

"You don't need to worry, your mother must be cured, about the hospital costs later om will take care of your mama insurance"

Ziyan just kept silent without comment while Irfan knew what he said must have hurt Ziyan's self-esteem

"You don't misunderstand ya Zi, your mamah insurance is already her right, she is working in om office and all om employees can indeed get health insurance" Irfan explained as well as possible compiling his words

Ziyan still did not comment, he just thought what use blackcards, money, luxury cars and all the wealth he had today, the fact that it all could not help his mother remember all those things belonged to his father which of course would be rejected outright by Diana if Ziyan used it for Diana's purposes. It feels like Ziyan is slapped with the fact that she is just a high school student who can't do anything for her mother, in fact Diana does need Irfan's existence to sustain her life for better and safer. Irfan then moved from his seat and went back into the nursery Diana ~

"That?" call Nasha who is sitting in the guest room, Irfan has just arrived at his house at eleven p.m

"Sha you haven't slept?"

Nasha shook her head, then Irfan approached her daughter and sat on the living room sofa while straight breaking down

"Where is Aunt Diana's condition?"

"There is enough development, said the doctor platelets have risen quite significantly, we pray in aja yes! you were waiting for Papah?"

"Who is Diana's aunt in the hospital?"

"With his son, papah had told the child to come home just so that he could go to school tomorrow but Ziyan still want to keep in the hospital, yes papah also do not want to maksa"

"Well, can I come with Aunt Diana tomorrow?" nasha asked carefully

Irfan immediately smiled happily unsuspecting about whatever he thought this meant Nasha had given the green light to her relationship with Diana.

"Father seneng really if you want to see Aunt Diana, tomorrow papah pick up after school yes"

Nasha nodded with a smile

"You're sleeping! this is very malem, you have to go to school" asked Irfan

"Yes pah" Nasha according to him then went up to his room ~

As promised last night Irfan picked up and took Nasha to the hospital to visit Diana, a few meters from Diana's nursery there was Ziyan who was sitting in the long chair of the corridor while looking down.

Ah, it felt like Nasha would run and hug the man she missed so much.

Irfan clasped Ziyan's shoulder and suddenly made his head turn to look at the figure that came, Ziyan's eyes were rounded when he saw Nasha also standing in front of him while holding a fruit basket on both arms. Ziyan stood up.

"Where are you" asked Irfan

Ziyan's eyes were still staring at Nasha deeply.

"Mah, Mamah sleep again om" he replied stiffly

Irfan nodded

"You want to go in now, Sha?" ask Irfan to Nasha

"I waited here first pah, it's not good to wake up tamte Diana"

"Okay if you get Ziyan first, come in first"

Irfan then went into Diana's nursery and sure enough Diana was still sound asleep.

Ziyan and Nasha were still staring at each other without saying a word. Nasha then sat down and Ziyan followed her, it felt strange that the atmosphere felt so stiff, they were really like people who had just met.

"Are you all right?" nasha asked opening the conversation, her voice still sounding flat

"I'm fine, are you worried?"

Nasha just looked down not answering

"I'm sorry" Ziyan ventured to hold the warm hand she so missed.

Nasha shook her head "don't apologize" he replied

"I have to apologize because I haven't said anything to you"

It was sad to hear that, but what would be said condition is not possible.

"Can you tell me everything's the same as yours?" ask Nasha

Ziyan did not immediately reply, Ziyan felt doubtful to herself whether she was brave enough to tell Diana the truth

"I don't know Sha" Ziyan looked down embarrassed at her loser attitude

Nasha pulled her hand from Ziyan's grasp.

Ziyan knew Nasha must be disappointed.

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