The Sins of Love

CANDID

...I don't want to be here if I can be with you...

...Ziyan R. A.'s....

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"Sha, are you home?"

Nasha turned her head towards the voice, her father was sitting in the guest room reading the newspaper, then Nasha nodded in response to Irfan's question.

"Kok you look so lethargic anyway?" Irfan approached Nasha and stroked the top of her daughter's head

"Nothing reward, just a little cape"

"Eat first yuk, papah also has not eaten nih waiting for you"

Nasha just nodded again, assuring. The two walked in the dining room, painstakingly so Lasmi prepared dinner for her two masters.

"Mom eat here yuk!" take Irfan to Lasmi's mom

"I happen to have eaten first sir behind" declined Lasmi bu smooth, irfan just nodded then he and Nasha immediately sat down and enjoyed the cuisine of Lasmi ma'am.

"Sha, how's school?" Irfan opened a chat on the sidelines of their dinner

"Good reward, good"

"You really don't know Aunt Diana's son? what's that name, Zi-Ziyan huh? you're one school"

Nasha was pensive to hear the question, it was actually a good opportunity not to tell the truth about him and Ziyan to her father. But how? if Nasha did that she would hurt Ziyan's mother and her father, what Ziyan would accept if Nasha hurt the most precious woman in her life.

"There's no one who doesn't know Ziyan at the pah school" Nasha pressed on with her heart, she had to be very careful

"Oh yeah? the boy was handsome anyway yeah, must be a lot of girls who like him"

"Yes that's the reward" answered Nasha briefly

"How areyou? you don't have a crush on a guy as handsome as Ziyan?"

Deg, Irfan's questions are really hard to answer

"According to papah?" nasha's answer is ambiguous

"You're a little strange, because children your age like grooming, crush guys, you even keep belajaaaar"

It was very disappointing to hear Irfan's answer, although the answer was not entirely wrong but what had been busy Irfan until he did not know what his daughter was like, what her daughter felt, what her daughter felt, what his daughter experienced, it was very sad to have parents who were there but felt nothing. Nasha just looked down while flipping through her food.

"Father, your mama and Aunt Diana have been friends since we went to college. Although different majors with aunty Diana, but mama and papah one set with him, we used to be very close until suddenly aunt Diana dropped out of campus because betrothed by her parents, because she was, papa dapet info said she brought her husband's family to Canada, since then we never see again."

"Have you ever had a crush on Aunt Diana?" Nasha wondered if her father's feelings for Diana had grown long ago

Irfan even laughed at hearing that "Is the same aunt Diana was like heaven and earth, aunt Diana was the daughter of a wealthy person, while papah? if your grandmother did not adopt papah first maybe until now papah will only be an orphan"

"Sir, don't answer my question" Nasha spoke flatly

"Mama, papah and aunt Diana used to be legitimate, since the beginning of papah also never expected to marry with mom, mom, and, but for papah first it feels papah will not dare to have a crush on women like aunt Diana"

Nasha was still staring at her curious father, Irfan's answer was completely unsatisfying to her heart. Now Nasha thinks there may have been an unfinished relationship between her father and Ziyan's mother. Nasha did not continue her question.

"Then the aunt Diana and Ziyan had a difficult time, when Ziyan little aunt Diana often experienced KDRT from her ex-husband, who was a child, aunt Diana was also in a time of trauma and depression because of it, they can get through that difficult time after so many years and finally six years ago Diana really can get away from her ex-husband" Irfan thought Nasha didn't know about it yet, the girl just listened and did not comment. He was still flipping through his food less tasteful.

Did Nasha also have to be as miserable as Aunt Diana for Ziyan and irfan to sacrifice so much for her, she whispered. Nasha turns a blind eye regretting those ugly thoughts, shouldn't Nasha be jealous of Ziyan's mother ~

The next day the announcement of Ziyan's last try out is already there and on the screen at the school as usual, since until Nasha's school has not moved from the front of the mading, the girl still pegged to see Ziyan's value is very perfect. Ziyan is ranked third, where the first rank is still occupied by Rama, his girlfriend Mia.

Ziyan must have studied very hard to be ranked, Nasha remembered with Ziyan's request of him if he managed to get a perfect score in his last try out, Nasha remembered, after all this would Ziyan still fulfill his wish to propose to Nasha? does Ziyan still want that? Nasha's heart was sad.

Meanwhile, Ziyan had just arrived at school, but he was still in his car checking messages from an unnamed number.

*unknown*

Ziyan, check your email, papah has a surprise!

Ziyan knew from whom the message was, the man did not reply to anything, he then just opened his email and looked at the message sent from his father's email.

Her father sent her a file, apparently a letter from an overseas university. Ziyan downloaded the file and only read it at a glance uninterested. He then put his cell phone in his pants and got out of the car.

At the end of the corridor Ziyan saw many students swarming the school mading he knew if the try out announcement would have come out, Ziyan was also not interested in it anymore, either, Ziyan knew that whatever value he had on Nasha was not fulfilled, even though Ziyan's heart was still very strong.

Not long Ziyan saw Nasha coming out of the crowd with a sad face. Nasha did not know if Ziyan saw her, the girl then walked towards the second floor stairs and finally they faced each other.

They just stared at each other, then Ziyan smiled as she approached the girl.

"Keep you sad anyway?"

The girl looked at Ziyan deeply

"I'll kabulin whatever your request"

Ziyan understood, Nasha was waiting for Ziyan to prove her words the other day, saying that she would propose to the girl. Ziyan understood Nasha must have been very hopeful of him.

Ziyan held Nasha's hand

"I'm going to talk about us with my mom today" Ziyan said seriously she couldn't see Nasha being disappointed in her.

Nasha's eyes glazed over hearing that. "Sorry" exclaimed the girl feeling guilty, Nasha felt she made Ziyan's position difficult, if only releasing Ziyan was that easy for Nasha maybe the story would not be this painful for anyone.

Ziyan's heart ached to hear the word 'sorry' coming out of Nasha's mouth, shouldn't Nasha apologize, he always forced the girl into his life even though Ziyan knew his life was never easy but selfishly Ziyan pulled Nasha into his messy life, in the end now Ziyan still made the girl hurt. If anyone is to blame Ziyanlah the most guilty, think ~

At five o'clock in the afternoon Ziyan was already at her house she was determined to tell Diana everything, she said, back and forth Ziyan looked out of the house waiting for the arrival of Diana who was said to be taking care of all the work to be moved to Jakarta after she married Irfan.

Ziyan was really nervous, even though he tried to convince himself he still remained afraid of how Diana would respond, Diana said, an hour and a half went by and it was getting dark and a car stopped in front of their rented gate, Ziyan peeked through the window and Diana got out of the car. It looks like Irfan brought Diana home.

"I'm going in" asked Irfan

"Not for me! I'm strong, rich Ziyan has come home not good if we see this hour"

"Yes already that, this is your medicine, inget said the doctor earlier you have to rest a lot, do not think of anything, and do not forget to take the medicine!"

Last afternoon Irfan did take Diana to the clinic because the woman had a high fever and looked very lethargic.

"Yes, I'm in"

Then Diana got out of the car and into her house.

Ziyan was actually standing in front of the door as her mother walked in, Diana immediately smiled looking at her son with a serious face.

"Zi, Tumben's home at this hour?" diana asked with a faint smile

Diana tried to strengthen herself when she felt so weak and dizzy, she immediately sat on the sofa and leaned herself, her medicine bag she put on the table. Looking at her mother's state Ziyan knew that something was not good.

"Mama's sick?" Ziyan then approached and sat next to his mother, his hand he put on his mother's forehead to check the temperature and sure enough his mother had a high fever.

"Mommy has a high fever, I'm anther to the doctor!"

"Ga nak Zi, earlier mama had been to the same doctor as Irfan, tuh the medicine" his eyes pointed to the medicine bag

"Say what doctor?"

"Because the new mama fever a day he said can not be evaluated, so must wait first if still fever until the day after must check blood"

Ziyan bowed limply, how this condition of her mother now did not even allow to hear her story.

"You don't worry, mama's better tomorrow too"

Ziyan did not comment just staring at her mother full of pity

"Mama rest in the room first"

Diana tried to get up, Ziyan pushed her mother into the room.

The next morning before leaving school Ziyan saw Diana preparing breakfast for them in the kitchen.

"Ma, what's the mama doing? Mama just rest in the room, let me prepare breakfast" Ziyan asked her mother to stop

Diana's face was getting pale

"Nothing strong mama really, rarely mama can make a meal for you" he refused still with a voice paraw "You sit down" Diana instead forced Ziyan to sit at the table to eat

Ziyan finally complied, he sat back to his mother who was still cooking, a moment of silence, Ziyan was still thinking about his promise to Nasha, Ziyan did not want to break the promise.

"Ma, I'm gonna say something"

Diana was already not strong, her head felt spinning, suddenly all the gazes darkened and

PRANGGGG the sound of objects behind Ziyan like falling very hard, Ziyan reflect turned and found his mother lying stiff on the floor.

"YESY"

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