THE MAFIA'S PENANCE

YOU'RE JUST MY PRISONER

The fact that Alec loves me and that he's getting married to Olivia makes me very sad. I loved him a long time ago. Alec is the first love and I am also convinced that he is the last love of my life. If it's like this, it's probably best that Alec doesn't kiss me until I figure out how he feels.

"It hurts so much Ses, I can't possibly take it." I said to my best friend Sesya.

I immediately went to see Sesya after knowing what was going to happen. I always tell my best friend anything. He is the only man on earth who has always been where I pour out my heart. And only Sesya knows how much I loved Alec all along.

"You shouldn't have to be that sad, Viv. Even if Alec doesn't marry Olivia, you can't be with her. You're married to Vernon. You've been another man's wife, too." Sesya answered sitting next to you, and I was lying on her bed excitedly.

"I'm sure my marriage to Vernon won't last long. We don't love each other. He still loves that woman. So the longer I'm sure she won't be able to marry me either. Soon she will ask to be separated from me. Plus I always avoid it."

"Come, Viv. Vernon can't let you go. Even if you don't love each other, he'll keep you locked up in that bond. From the beginning he just wanted to avenge Arthur. So don't expect Vernon to let you go. He will torture you in your marriage. He won't divorce you." Sesya.

All Sesya's words are true. Vernon just wanted to torture me and he's done it. I was so sad because I couldn't do anything. The man I love will be my sister-in-law. That's very bad.

I buried my face into the pillow and shouted in annoyance with overwhelming sadness. I can't even let out my tears to put sadness on my heart.

"Viv, you only have one way to make yourself sad no more."

Sesya's words made me turn to her, and immediately get up from a sleeping position. Sitting staring at Sesya out of curiosity as to what she would say so that I would not grieve.

"I don't think this is bad either."

"Quickly tell me what way do you mean?" I ask impatiently.

"Forget Alec and make yourself love Vernon. You also have to make Vernon fall in love with you." Sesya said the impossible with a smile.

"That's something impossible." I said with annoyance. I regret listening to Sesya's words very seriously. I don't want to forget Alec, let alone love a guy like Vernon.

"No way doesn't mean impossible, right?" Look Sesya. "So is there any other way? Do you have a better way than I said? Do you want to keep letting your sadness interfere with your life?"

Desperation strikes me at this moment. I dropped myself back and lay down with a breath.

"Me and Alec are having an affair. We can do it because it looks like after they get married Alec will stay at Vernon's house."

"Yes, you can do it. But how long will you hide your relationship?" Ask Sesya. "That's gonna torture you even more, Viv."

Thas right. Alec and I could have had a dark relationship after this. But when does that happen? I'll suffer even more when I see him with Olivia later.

"I'm so sorry why I didn't tell her how I felt."

"I think it's also something strange. If Alec liked you a long time ago, why did he never tell you that either? He has a million chances to do it because almost every day you meet. He is Art's best friend, you should have easily been in a relationship long ago. Your family is also friends, right?"

Again all the words of Sesya were true. Five years ago Alec kissed me. I'm sure he liked me by then. But why didn't he tell me he liked me so we could have a relationship? This is so weird.

All my sadness still cannot disappear from my mind and heart even though I have tried. I don't know what I'm going to do to myself so I'm okay.

Vernon stared at my presence as I entered our room. He was wearing pants and not wearing clothes because he had just finished bathing. I walked over to him because there was something I wanted to ask him. Something that really doesn't matter.

"Where have you been? It's dinner time soon. The Alec family is coming. Quickly get ready—"

"Vern, is there a chance we'll split up?" Look at me standing right in front of Vernon. "We don't love each other. Wouldn't it be better if we didn't continue this relationship?"

Vernon laughed at my words. I am not surprised by his reaction. Everything I said was funny too. From the beginning she married me just because of Arthur's fault with her. He just wants to make me suffer.

"What's wrong? It's only been two days that we've been married. Are you not strong anymore?"

"Yes, I'm not strong. I want us to separate. I know you don't want to marry me either, which is why you're suffering too, right?"

"Listen, fool!!" Vernon cried holding my left hand and lifting it up violently. "I don't care about the suffering I feel, because I've been suffering for a long time because of your brother. I only care about your suffering, because my purpose is to make you suffer so that you and your brother understand how I have suffered all this time. I can't just let you go. It's too early for you to give up."

"You won't get anything by torturing me. That woman will not come back alive. You will live in suffering. Better stop this marriage, and let the woman go. You can start loving other women—"

"Shut up!!" Vernon's wrath pressed against my face with his left hand. "You have no right to regulate what I want to do. You're just my prisoner, my brother gave you to me for my torment."

Suddenly Vernon pushed me up on the bed and immediately snared me with his body above me. His current gaze showed anger. But I know that anger is formed because of his sadness and suffering during this time.

"Yes, okay. You can torture me as you please. But it still won't change how you feel. Unless you're gonna add to your suffering. You will continue to sink into misery because of your sadness at losing Wynetta, the woman you love." I said with a cold look. "Only your suffering increases, Vern."

Vernon was silent to see me from his position above me. The longer his angry gaze dimmed at me. And at this moment I could see the radiance of sadness from his eyes. From the very beginning when he first brought me to this room, I've seen that sadness radiate from his eyes.

Vernon came down from above me and sat down on the side of the bed, rubbing his face with both palms, until his stroke ended in the head.

I got out of bed and walked to the bathroom. But suddenly Vernon pulled me and kissed me.

I let her kiss me because this time Vernon did it without restraining my body. After letting go of her kiss, Vernon looked at me with a face I had never seen before.

"I love you, Viv." Vernon.