THE MAFIA'S PENANCE

NOTHING IN MY MEMORY REMINDS ME

"What am I doing? Why am I the cause?" I'm getting confused.

Instead of answering, Vernon got out of bed to avoid the questions I asked. It's so weird, I don't understand anything about what he's saying. There's not even one I remember.

"Tell me, what happened ten years ago, Vern?" I kept staring at Vernon and hoping he would immediately answer my confusion.

But suddenly Vernon smirked at me. His gaze turned back to full of hatred.

"You don't need to know about anything that used to happen. That's the punishment for you." Vernon said with a grin and a sharp look at me.

"Tell me!!" It made me go down even though I was naked and pull Vernon's shirt so he wanted to say something that really disturbed me at this time. "You have to say it!! What don't I remember? And why can't I remember?"

Vernon pushed me rough until I bounced onto the bed, not caring about myself grimacing in pain.

"Welcome to the hell I created." Skeptical smile on Vernon.

After saying that, Vernon stepped out of the room. I put on my clothes very quickly to chase after him. I can't accept all this. What I don't remember makes me feel sad and angry at the moment. Plus with all of his words. I can't accept all of his treatment of me.

I pulled Vernon until he turned around before he came down the stairs and hit him in the face with all my anger. Although for him my punch is nothing because at least he does not look in pain. But it makes me a little satisfied.

"TELL ME EVERYTHING!! WHAT HAPPENED TEN YEARS AGO!!" I shouted hoping to get an answer.

Hearing the commotion I created everyone became out of their rooms. Both Vernon and Vegard's parents, even some of the men on guard, entered the house to find out what was going on.

Vernon looked at me with great anger. Then without me guessing he lifted me up as he normally would, carrying me on his right shoulder. I don't understand how he could do it when his left shoulder had a gunshot wound that must have been very painful and plus his body was not well. I don't know where he has that kind of power.

I thrashed down as we entered the room again. I hope Vernon told me everything. About things I don't understand, about all the events that none of them have in my memory.

"Please tell me what I don't remember about se—"

My words stopped when Vernon pulled me and kissed my lips. As usual I tried to take it off but Vernon's energy was very strong, again he did as he pleased. He kissed me until he took me back to bed.

"Take me off, Vern!!" I pushed Vernon and he finally stopped. "So who killed that woman? Who killed Wynetta, the woman you love?"

"Is it important now? What would have changed if you had known about the incident?" Ask Vernon. "You don't need to know anything, I told you it was a punishment for you."

"That's very important to me. I don't remember anything but your words are like that to me. It's all torturing me, you know?"

"Yes, that's my goal. I want to torture you." Vernon. "Don't force me to say anything, you won't get an answer from me or from everyone you ask. It was the punishment you deserved that caused all this to happen."

What Vernon said made me feel like my efforts were in vain. I let Vernon walk away leaving me and had no intention of chasing him anymore. I feel like I'm so pathetic right now. Without any memory of what happened ten years ago. It makes what I feel so bad.

At breakfast everyone gathers except Vernon. Everyone looked at me who was just trying to take my eyes off them all and trying to focus on eating.

"Viv, where's Vernon?" Ask Vegard. "Did he go?" Vegard asked again because I did not answer him directly.

I was confused as to what to answer because I didn't know where he was either. I don't even want to find out where he is.

"What happened last night? Did you guys fight?" Ask Vegard again.

"Veg, it's none of your business." Excited Paula, Vernon's mother. "Viv, me and Bard are going home to Oslo, we're going back when Oliv gets married."

"Do I need to drive you?" I looked at Paula.

"No, Veg will take us. You're home with Oliv. Vernon doesn't want you anywhere." Answer Paula.

Vernon doesn't want me anywhere? He's really locking me up right now. It's so bad, even I can't get out of this house anymore.

"Oliv, didn't you go to the hospital to see Alec?" I asked when I pushed Olivia's wheelchair into her room.

"Today she's going to be out of the hospital." Answer Olivia. "After coming out he'll be here to see me."

Without realizing it, I smiled at Olivia's words. Yeah, I'll see Alec later, if I need to, I'll fuck him in this house too. Even I'm gonna take her into my room and Vernon to fuck in our bed.

"How's your relationship with Alec, Viv?" Olivia asked as we walked into her room. "What are you so close to?"

"Near?" I asked back because I was confused how to answer. "Yes, we're very close." We were so close that we made love yesterday.

"I envy you for being so close to her. You guys meet a lot when we haven't seen each other in a long time." Said Olivia with a stifled smile showing her sadness. "But I'm glad we're getting married soon."

Seeing Olivia and hearing what she said about her marriage to Alec made me feel both funny and cute to the poor girl that was in front of me right now. The man who was about to marry her had already betrayed her even before they were married.

Somehow I laughed inwardly at the unfortunate fate of this little brother I hated so much. You won't be happy because Alec loves me, Oliv. It felt like I wanted to say that line to her to show that I was the lucky woman to have Alec's love.

"Viv, last night what happened? And where is Vernon now?" Ask Olivia.

"Sorry, your mother told Veg it wasn't her business. And you should know that's none of your business, Oliv." My answer. "I also don't care where Vernon is right now."

"Why are you saying that? Don't you love her so much? You loved Vernon a long time ago, didn't you?"

I was stunned to hear Olivia say that I loved Vernon a long time ago.

"That's why you want to marry her." Olivia.

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