The Feelings That Are No Longer the Same

8.Alexithymia

"Dok kak Bian's father is strange, every talk is never to see his expression is always flat" I said. It turns out that's why Bian's attitude is cold.

"Well that's what Bian has been through all this time his insensitivity reveals emotions."

"Why does Bian have the disease Doc?.What is born from birth??. " Tanyaku.

"No, the cause of Alexithimia is caused by physical trauma, verbal trauma, emotional trauma, and sexual abuse.Someone with alexithymia will find it difficult to distinguish between the emotions that are felt with the emotions expressed." The doctor was obviously long.

"So did Brother Bian experience trauma??." My toot.

"That's fine. Bian had a trauma in his childhood."

"Trauma what is doc??. "

"Are you ready to go back to Bian??. " Task the doctor I nodded.

The flasback

Back when Bian was riding TK B at the age of 6 years he was entrusted by his grandmother who was in Semarang. Because of the business of his mother's work and his father.Bian loved his grandmother imah he also had many friends there.

It's been a few months since little Bian lived with his grandmother until it happened. At night Bian woke up grandma to pee, but when she opened the door.

Checklek

a voice came from the main door opened. Grandma's mom Dan Bian is still peeking out the door.

"Secret Boss." Say one of the masked men who sneaked into the house.

"Take all the valuable things." Said the man the boss was calling.

"Who are their grandmothers??. " Tanya Little Bian.

"Tsuuttt Bian went into the closet." Say grandma imah while bringing bian into the closet.

"Bian's afraid of grandma." Bian sobbing.

"Not to be afraid of a grandmother." Grandma was smilingly stroking the top of Bian's head.

"Grandmother wants help first. Bian promised not to come out."Grandma said and then closed the closet door.

A few minutes later there was a scream of grandmother imah, Bian also came out of the closet.How surprised Bian when he saw his grandmother was lying covered in blood. Bian peeked out from behind the bedroom door with tears that kept flowing through the figure of the grandmother he loved was lifeless.

Bian saw with his own eyes the sadistic murders that the masked men had committed. They keep stabbing parts of the body of the grandmother imah.

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"Stop it he's gone." Their boss' orders.

"have you taken everything?. " Ask one of the masked men.

"Quiet everything is done." answered one of them.

"We're leaving now, leave no trace." Finally they came out without the knowledge of anyone except Bian Yang who had been trembling behind the door.

"grandmother." Sobbed

Little Bian had already seen that sadistic killing that should not have been worth watching. The late Grandmother who became the source of her happiness has gone forever before her own eyes.

Flasback Off

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"Astaghfirullah." It didn't feel like a clear circle was flowing down my cheek.

"If that's what makes Bian like this." Said the Doctor . It turns out that since the departure of her brother gembul she was transferred to the home of grandmother imah.Suntil the incident happened.

"Can, as long as he wants to do routine treatment and wants to try." I heard a heavy tone from the doctor.

"Emang kak Bian is not routine therapy?."

"Had been five months he wouldn't do any more medication."

"Why doesn't Brother Bian want a doc?? ." Ask me.

" Because he thinks all this is in vain, it's been a long time since he did it but the results are still there." Doctor Anya exhaled a long breath, as already tired with this condition.Especially Kak Bian Yang has been living it.

"We're home!!. "

"Gosh, man." Surprised me. This guy just woke up irritated, huufft.

"Heii Bian is awake?. " Ask the doctor anya.Yyaah just a stale base is ngadepin kak Bian. It's just free he just didn't respond directly out without saying goodbye, primarr!!!.

"Yes doc, thank you so much for telling." I said as I shook the doctor's hand.

"Same same.Oh yes Lisa you helped persuade Bian to want therapy again."

"Inshaallah doc Lisa's effort in." My speech.

Along the way only music broke this silence. Brother Bian from earlier plate mulu tuh face.

In front of the house.

"Bian is angry, right??. " Tanyaku.

And what did I get?? he got out of the car without answering, looking no, you know!!.

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City of Berlin, Germany

On a clear afternoon, many students passed along the road. There are those who are waiting for the bus especially Rashad.

"Rashad." Rashad waved at Adeline.

"Haii, wait for the bus??. " Ask adeline

"Dad, are you alone?? ."

" I really want to see you." Adeline.

"What's wrong??. "

"At busy??. "

"No, going to the bus again??. "

" No, if you're not busy come with me!! ." Without an answer from Rashad Adeline, he pulled her straight to the car.

"Where are you going? ." Rasya asked as the car began to drive through the city of Berlin.

" You'll know for yourself."

Thirty minutes later

"Hospital??. " Tanya Rashad.

"Ja Krankenhaus, lass uns rein gehen!! ." Adeline went down into the hospital followed by Rashad.

(Yes hospital, we're in yuk!! ").

In front of the room reads 'Psychische strourungen'

Why did Adeline take me to the mental breakdown room?? inner Rashad.