The Feelings That Are No Longer the Same

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City of Berlin, Germany

Adeline Pov's

Sometimes the truth hurts more, and it's the truth that makes me regret what was supposed to be my destiny, my suffering destiny, all this time I tried to forget the painful memories of the past, but why did the wounds of the past reopen the same time I started to find you.

Because of you I dared to open the wound.Not only I open, maybe I will repay the wound.I am not a vengeful, I just want to take what should be mine.

Am I wrong to love you??, what sense will this always clap one hand??.Can you love me for no reason?.

When I feel alone in this world and only you are my hope, you choose to go only because the truth comes out of my mouth.So easily you want me to erase the truth if I love you.Is love a game?? which you easily throw away if you are bored.No, for me love is the glory that you must take care of with all your heart.

Since that night I was like a stranger to Rashad.Never say hello, just glance at me he was reluctant.Some days I tried to approach him, talk to him, say hello, ask him news, and, and all my efforts were never considered by him.Our relationship is getting tenuous and it makes me regret what I said to him.

Rashad is like a different person, he's not the Rashad I used to know.Now he's so cold, he has many ways to avoid me.One truth that makes this relationship even more broken.

A beautiful afternoon for me to be with you again, a simple moment just by doing a task together can make me this happy.One reason you can not avoid when dealing with a task.Maybe this is my lucky day.

"Ras lo can be angry with me but pliss don't lo hindarin me like gini!!!."

Rashad really really does not care, even every time I talk he just glances at a glance.What book is more important than living beings beside him hahh??.

"I said the same thing!!!, "I was upset that I pulled the book out of his hand.

"What do you want Race?? pliss don't avoid me anymore, I want our relationship to be like first. You want that engagement to cancel??."

"Gue has canceled the engagement, as well as the arranged marriage that is planned as well as me," I said.

"Gue was not angry del," he said staring blankly ahead.

"Keep if you're not angry why your attitude changed the same as me??."

"What because I love you??" I said.

Rashad looked at me clingy, I don't know what he had in mind.But the look in his eyes and his handsome face make this heart can not be lied to.

"Well, because of that love," he said immediately made my heart hotter.Take this first love?.Why is this heart anchored to the owner of another's heart.

"What's wrong with my feelings Race?? I don't know where this love is wrong, tell me Race!!!," I said greeted a drop of water falling from the sky.Even Nature alone knows the weather of my heart at this time.

"Gue does not want to give hope to lo del, and avoiding is the best way for us.There is a heart that I have to take care of, and I also don't want to make your feelings fall too deep again!!!."

A drop after a drop of water perfectly soaked me and Rashad who refused to take shelter.Our eyes hinted at each other many hidden words.The feeling of love, hate, regret all became a roar in this chest.

My tears were getting broken accompanied by a rain of lightning that represented my pain.We both still sat quietly in the middle of the park with a rain of lightning that became a backsound between the two of us.

Why did my first love have to hurt like this??.Do I not deserve to be happy, as long as it is only destruction that I experience.When I find my happiness why is the destruction present again?.

"If you want us to keep our distance maybe it can still be accepted, but not by you telling me to remove this taste of Race!!!."

"Is not there a little taste of it in the heart of Lo Ras??.I know loving it is not as easy as expressing the word love, but I'm sure slowly the feeling will appear over time.It's just a matter of time Race, sooner or later the love will be present," I said.

"Del, pliss don't make me more guilty because of problems like gini.Don't make our relationship more broken, just forget about the problem of feeling lo.Gue do not want my college so disturbed just kare..."

"OK if you think I'm just a bully, I'll go far from you.But you need to know my love race is beyond anything and will not be lost, and that's just for you!!!."

I went on to carry a deep wound maybe my love for you overcame this pain. I promised I'd keep this taste well only for you Ras.Even if he doesn't come after me, do I mean nothing to him anymore?.

My decision is unanimous, I will leave here.It is better to calm the heart and mind than to continue to hurt him.

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A few days passed after the camping activity that made me fall into abysmal, and worse I lost it because of the actions of the campus queen.After sister Bian forced Alis to confess who is the mastermind of all these plans.Yang makes me happy when I know that Brother Bian reported this incident to dean and brother Intan got a three-day suspension.I feel I have no problem with him, but why does he always bully me??.

For several weeks my college work went well, until a problem I didn't know about began to emerge. After college I saw Dion standing in front of the door of my room with a tense face.Slowly I approached and the sound of the voices of people chiding each other began to be heard in my ear.

"What else do you need to explain?? all of this evidence is very clear, there is no need to be hard to find a reason I already know your rottenness!!!!."

"Mom can clear the reward, everything you see is not true."

"Doesn't need an explanation from mom!!!I never thought you would betray this marriage!!!."

Ppyaarr

My chest thumped as the sound of throwing objects broke, Dion and I looked at each other even Dion's eyes began to glaze over.My heart ached to see my younger half-brother shed tears for the first time,although I do not know what is happening at this time, I can just hug Dion gave peace by still listening to the conversation of our parents.

"That's just a past reward, and the proof is mama still maintains this marriage until now!!!."

"Although it has become the past but it needs to be underscored that mamah has ever wished papah and dirty this relationship!!!, ohh don't don't don't mama there's still a silent relationship behind papa huhhh??," snapped by snapping out of the two people inside, I don't know if I should go in and change to berate the two people who are currently into a free spectacle in the afternoon, or let their hearts be satisfied??.

"Udah many times I said, that I have no special relationship with anyone!!!. Just so you know why mom ever turned her back on papa because..."

"Ohh so now you're confessing??."

"Dad is right, mama is like that because of papah!!!."

Prok Prok Prokk Prokk

"Well, now replace blame papah?? it was clearly the wrong mom!!!."

"Do you know why my mom says it, huh?? papa doesn't know at all!! when you need the love of a husband papa where?? papa is not there for mama, papa is busy alone with work!!!."

"Who is that work for, too?? for us as children!!!, you are really smart to find excuses. How long have you been in a relationship??."

"Or until now you..."

"Daddy pah, mamah is still the same him.He is better than papa who only attaches importance to career and career!!."

"Basic doesn't know himself!!! who've you been getting money from all this time, huhh?? if I don't work, do you want to feed the children??."

"But what you need is not a reward, it is better to be poor in treasure than poor in compassion!!. All this time only mamah the same attention of children, not papah!!!."

"Ouhh so what do you want now?? back with that guy??."

"No reward, if mamah wants to be with him all this time mamah must have left papah, but what...mamah is still here right??."

"Omong empty!!!."

Ppyarrrr

Again and again the broken objects sounded outside, were they shameless hah?? old man still fighting like a child.You guys just destroy this whole house!!!.

"Dion go back to your room and shut your ears, don't listen!!!" I said, covering her ears.

"Is everything going to be okay??."

"Euumm everything will be fine, quickly wash your body!!!."

Dion went to the room, and, I don't want him to hear this pointless debate.I'm afraid the problem of mama and papah makes Dion's school disturbed.If I try harder but fear and anxiety I can't hide.Past time what makes my parents are fighting??.

"You are Lis home" said Brother Deren walking over to me.

Checklekkk

Papa came out with a reddened face and a hardened jaw.Without saying anything papah walked past the two of us without glancing.

"Why deck??."

As much as I could I held back these tears from falling, but she escaped just like that when I heard the sobs from inside the mama's room, it hurts to see my parents who look harmonious all this time can be destroyed.

"Well, why are you crying, heyy?" Deren hugged me and it made me sob even more.