The Feelings That Are No Longer the Same

Shoulder provider

Bian Pov's

I know my admiration all this time is only a shadow of the past that I will not be able to reach.We can not manage destiny, we also can not prohibit where the heart will dock.As my love for you, like my love for you, who do not know the space and time to keep on springing.

I understand this heart, but not your heart. Your heart has been anchored to others, not to me. I thought the first time I saw your face, fate would be on my side. But it's all wrong, destiny's not on my side.

You've got another feeling that I've been harboring for a long time. I'm happy when they're going to match us up, but will this match-up happen??.You yourself have carved a name in your heart, there is a name that you call in your prayer.And certainly it is not me.

I just hope that the heart will turn to look at me, and will always look at me.Estrapped the names of both of us in the sacred bond.Am I able to enter into your heart??.

Let time guide our story.Since long ago, since the first time I met you.The childhood of joy instantly turned my life dark and increasingly took me away from you.And that never happened, ever, I will always be with you. And I hope my name is engraved first in the depths of your heart.

I can feel the pain you feel.Is that how painful it is??.If I could be your pain fence, I'd always be there for you Lisa.

My heart seems to be crushed when I see you cry for the person you love.Love is that the taste you give to your lover??.This heart hurts more to see you hurt just because of liver problems.

Am I wrong if Aki wants you to be mine??.Ever since you came back into my life, the fear of the darkness of my past just vanished. No more shadows of the past, only smiles and laughter flashed through my mind.

What should I do??, give up before fighting or take you by force??. No, I'm not gonna give up until I've been fighting for the taste I've been harboring. Maybe as time goes by you will realize that the person who is always there for you will not go anywhere.

Where are you going Lisa??.Why are you freaking everyone out just because you're heartbroken. What with a fuzzy way you can solve the problem, no. No. Lisa.

Where should I look for you??.You're not there, a place where only we know.If there's a problem you're often there, but why aren't you there this time. Don't make me worry.

"Is he on the beach??."

My heart says you're there, Lisa, please don't suppress your own grief. I'm willing to give you my shoulder to complain about.

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Blowing coastal wind makes my heart more slashed.Try to accept what nature is destined for us to pass.I look around the beach that looks gloomy. Like how I feel when I see you screaming hysterically like I'm losing my way. Is that your heart Lisa??.

Only the moonlight that accompanies the pounding waves of the beach. I walked up to the man who was now like a madman with random hair, not to be asked the beautiful face that turned gloomy.

Lisa curled up hugging her kakin, no crying coming out of her mulit.Why is this leg hard to move??I want to find you, give you comfort that you never forget.

"Aren't you afraid of the waves??."

Is that Lisa?? look at him when he looked back, the first time I saw him. Even ghosts are less sinister with Lisa's face. Where was the beautiful and cheerful face that had been enveloping my mind all this time??.The face has changed, very much.

I sit beside him. Lisa stared blankly ahead.Flowing a tired look from her face.

"Cry as much as you, it will make your heart calmer."

Lisa looked at me with her eyes starting to look glassy. I stared deeply into Lisa's beautiful eyes, plus the moonlight that made her pain point clear.

"What should I do??..hikkss...hikkss.."

"Take out everything in your mind, I'm ready to be a listener. It's not the end of all your troubles, but it's the beginning of all the obstacles you're gonna take with him."

"I am tired sis..hikkss..until when should I be patient?? isn't this over??."

"If you're tired of letting go!!, because the heart also needs rest.Don't keep it hurting, because it will be impregnated and difficult to remove. It's better to let go than to hold on that will end up hurting one of the hearts."

"Lisa love same Rashad sak, it's hard to forget everything.hikkss..it's not easy brother.nggakk..hikkss.."

Why is it so hard, Lisa?? whyyy??. Let go of him who always makes you hurt. There I will make happy. I will not let a single tear slip escape my bewitching eyes with your shady gaze.

"Cry as hard as you can, my shoulders are always ready to be the backrest of your grief."

Lisa looked at me fixedly, I regret not being able to see the meaning of that gaze more deeply. Since your presence always begged me to go back to treatment, I've been excited to get back to normal ever since. You know Lisa I did it just for you.

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What did I see right??. You spilled all your problems on my shoulder??. Why does this heart keep beating as you lean your head against my shoulder, just a little touch you can make my heart go out of whack.

"Cry as much as you!!!."

The sound of the waves swallowing your pain.Tonight, this beach will be a witness to my happiness. Just because I can be of use to you, Lisa.

*******

Lisa's family feels calm after Bian gives news if he is with Lisa, and Lisa's condition is fine.But change with a mother who is worried because of the departure of her child without news.

"Hallo Aunt May had a phone collision Kayla night," Kayla told Maya whose note was nyokab Devi.

"I'm sorry to disturb you at night, emmm you know where Devi is?? from yesterday he did not come home. Is Devi like you or another friend of Devi's??," I heard a panic note.

"So the hell Devi same my aunt at Kayla's house, but we've been home from this afternoon tan.Emang Devi now hasn't come home??."

"Not Kay, Devi where are you??" Kayla was worried, where did Devi go??devi was fine.

"What is Devi with Baren?" said Kayla.

"So calm aunt Kayla help you find, then you will tell me again tan."

Calling interrupted, Kayla immediately went to look for Devi.Only one of her brain, Baren. Well Baren oasti knows where Devi is because Kayla knew last night Devi slept in the Baren apartment.Lucky Kayla asked where Baren lives now.

Arriving at the apartment Kayla warmly welcomed Baren and let Kayla enter inside. They were already like close friends, no awkward at all. Their chatter is always accompanied by a small laugh between the two until the sound of the doorbell stops Kayla from asking where Devi is.

"Let me open up soon," Kayla took to heart with her sweet smile.

When Baren returned with the guest, Kayla's eyes could not be separated from the gaze of the man behind Baren who also looked at him in shock.

Why was he here last night?? why does Baren know him??. Inner Deren, well that guest is Deren.

Deren and Baren sit in a long sofa sedsngkan Kayla dusuk disofa sigle, unwittingly they both still look at each other, both amazed why they could be here?? do they know Baren.

Baren smiled as he found out the two were silent with a cengo look.

"Ekkhhmmm...you already know??," Deheman Baren made both waves.

"Emm he's my brother's friend" Deren said.

"Shortly, adek lo?? do you have any adek??."

"Heemm adek me two."

Somehow Kayla became groggy just because she looked at Deren.The atmosphere was also not as clear as it was.

"Kok lo you've never told the story??," Baren's voice was a bit higher. He was really surprised because Deren was his best friend during his time in Germany and Deren really shut down .

Kayla felt ignored by her annoyance she cleared her throat making the two men look at her.Kayla even misbehaved when both men stuck like that.

"I'm sorry Kay, oh yeah she met me when she was in college in Germany. Oh yeah what's the name of adek lo??," Baren changed to look at Deren.

"Lisa's the same Dito," Baren gaped at Deren's words.

"Lisa??Lisa's Rashad's boyfriend??."

"Lo knows Rashad??."

"Huuhhh this world is narrow as well yes, I can meet his future brother-in-law Rashad nih."

Deren had been wanting to ask why Kayla was here, somehow there was a sense of dislike when Kayla got to know Baren.

"Emm sorry my brother here just want to ask for Devi's address can now not because Nyokab Devi is waiting.??

"Ohhh yes!!."

Baren gives a paper with the address of the door of Devi's apartment.With soon Kayla the prestige of the two people who upset her. How not did he feel neglected as the two were engrossed in discussing I don't know it was not important to Kayla.

"Bro lo kok foam jenal him??," asked Deren.

"Know my future girlfriend," Baren smiled meaningfully looking at Baren. It was obvious the change in Deren's face upon hearing that

"What do you say??," said Deren, full of emphasis.Can't be hidden Baren knows very well if his fellow female friend is holding back anger because of jealousy.

"But a lie" said Baren mourned his laughter while Deren glared at him.

"Lo likes Kayla??."

"Ckk turns out your fortune teller's soul is still on target."

They both laughed until they filled the room. They have long shared stories during their college years knowing what they think of each other. Know the nature of each.

"Pursuit continue bro, I saw earlier he was very nervous fitting natap lo. There was a strange gleam from his eyes."

"Did he like me too??," asked Deren with a serious face.

"Honestly, don't be angry!!."

"Cckk cepet what?? she doesn't like me??."

"Not yet."

Deren roared Baren's head in annoyance. Baren's answer did not match his expectations.

"Damn lo!!."

"Gue seriously loh this, there is nothing wrong," continued Baren raised both fingers.

"Lo's target this time missed, period."

"Dilangin also, even do not believe," said Baren.

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