The Feelings That Are No Longer the Same

brain cancer

Two months have passed bringing a new story to my life. My family's problems have also been peaceful, I don't know what Mr. Deren has done to mama and papa better. I'd rather see a change in Bian's nature.

Not in vain I accompanied him these two months for therapy.Although not completely the expression of Brother Bian was seen but little by little I could feel the change in him.Not only in Bian I felt something, Bian I felt something, but somehow at the end of this I think about it a lot.

Not even infrequently I take Brother Bian out, just a road.Really now I can freely see the smile of Brother Bian that makes a strange vibration in my chest.Is there something wrong with me?.

And these two months I broke up contact with Rashad.I also don't really care what he is, who, think of me or not. Because now I just want to focus on college. The presence of Brother Bian made me forget my last problem with Rashad, maybe when Rashad really forgot me.

I am happy to see Brother Bian sedah can shake casually with my best friend.Seeing him back laughing becomes my own happiness.

Now we spend all day in beskem, although from now on brother Bian was busy struggling in front of the laptop.I know by the end of this year he will graduate and definitely busy with many tasks.

"No exclamation on his own busy," complained Dito.

"Lo is also busy with the game from earlier, even turn on us," I said.

"Keep what??" asked Kayla looking at Dito.

"More than that's exciting."

"Kayak aja lo child dit," said Devi.

Drrtt Drrttt

"Who is Lis??" asked Kayla.

"Emm my mama," lied, well I lied. Not the mom who called but the Doctor Anya.

"Yes, lift it up!!!."

I went out so they wouldn't hear my talk with Anya's doctor especially if Bian's sister found out.

"Hallo Lisa sorry to interrupt the time," said Anya doctor.

"Oh, don't you bother Doc, what's wrong??."

"You haven't forgotten our plan."

"Plan??,"I was confused, which plan was appointed by Anya's doctor.

"Our plan is for Bian to make a full recovery."

"Geez Lisa forgot doc, um make Brother Bian remember the same past again right?."

"Rubber, so when did you take Bian to Semarang??."

"Ahh if it is a bit difficult now doc, brother Bian is busy with his lectures. What about doc next week?."

"It's up to you when, let me know later I also have to set the schedule."

"Oh Doctor Anya is also coming??."

"Sure dong Lis, I can not escape the responsibility so, if there is anything the same Bian can I who hit."

"Yes also sih___ emm I try to ask Bian when, but better Lisa honest or not yes doc?."

"I think it's good you don't say, see the nature of Bian who does not understand the situation may be difficult for him to open his past. I used to propose this way too but unfortunately Aunt Rina does not agree."

"So how to let Brother Bian not say the same aunt Rina, surely aunt Rina will ask me where to go."

"You said the same Bian don't tell him he wants a vacation to Semarang, try you say the vacation is in the city."

"Ribet, too, dok hufftt.."

"No need to make a fuss Lis!!."

"Jeez___ Brother Bi.. Bian??" since when is he here, has Brother Bian heard everything?? oh naw.

"Lis is Bian's voice??" asked Anya.

"I.doc."

"Ehh kak__," Biam seized my phone and turned off the phone, aishh what should I do now. Why does not Bian's face express anything, his face back flat.

"Emm I can explain everything, brother," I said without seeing his gaze so cold.

"No need."

"Don't be angry my brother just wanted_____"

"Gue want us to leave tomorrow!!!," I looked at him question mark, go?? go where??.

"Haaa?."

Brother Bian just walked in, and he's not angry?.Actually he heard my talk to Doctor Anya or not anyway??. Then makhsud from the word go what?.

I followed him inside with a face was was was, what after this happened?.

"For so long lo Lis, what's up?? aunty Ayu told you to go home??," asked Kayla I didn't mind, I kept staring at Bian's brother who was busy with his laptop.

"Why is your face so tangled?? yah?" said Devi.

Do you know the thing that is more frightening than mama's nagging is when Bian's brother let out the cold?. Ohh I would've died on the spot if Brother Bian had been sitting on me the way he used to be, when I carelessly accepted the senior's invitation to lunch and ended up with a bad thing that I never imagined if Brother Bian did not come, I was finished.

"Sister Lisa has no bad intentions," I said to approach Brother Bian who still ignored me.

I glanced at my best friend who was throwing glances at each other, I could only shake his head in lethargy. It's all over failing.

"What's the matter??" asked Dito, ruining the silence, ohh Dito, could you just shut up for a moment?.

"Shuutt!!!," said Devi, Kayla, and Rian compactly.

We quietly observed the cold aura of Bian that made everyone around him die of lice. Not yet I launched an action, already caught.

Drrtt Ddrrtt

My God, I'm still at Bian's, who's calling??.

"Eumm who's sister??" I asked, but dear brother Bian raised it first.

"I agree doc."

Wha what?? just now what did Brother Bian say??. Doctor, don't tell me that's Doctor Anya, my God what did Doctor say?.

"Doctor's pocket can it??."

"....."

"Hemmm tomorrow morning we leave."

Tut tut tut tut

"Who's brother??" asked Dito.

"You want a vacation??" asked Brother Bian to make us look at each other.

At a time like this I can only shut up, just see his face my voice really shrieked.

"Where's the holiday?" asked Devi.

"Now."

"What???" we said simultaneously, semarang??does this mean Brother Bian agrees?.

"Now??____So far, sister," Kayla continued.

"Euumm____ Won't you come??."

"We want you, brother," I answered quickly, there is no second prayer for Brother Bian.

"The right thing is____ when we want to skip."

"Don't be a good-ass dit____ reason lo seneng can be truant," said Kayla replied to Dito's grin.

"Thank you, brother," I said with a smile not separated from my lips. Brother Bian just nodded, no more words were issued. I'm really happy, there's no need to lie any more for the good of Bian.

******

For two months they had no idea what Devi was hiding, except for one. It's been a few weeks since Baren has been investigating what drugs he once found in Devi's apartment.Even Devi forgets that the drugs are still being brought by Baren.

It was the first time Baren felt the world had trapped him. When he finds happiness but why is happiness slowly taken away from him?. Baren could no longer know that reality.Today Baren knew everything, after the results of the laboratory came out.

"Why is he god?? wh why??____ am I not entitled to the woman I love??, what an unjust thing," Baren monologue on Devi's apartment doorstep.

Ting

Devi got out of the elevator and walked towards Baren who was bowed languidly in front of her apartment.

"Ehemmm_____what's wrong?? want to take another bath???" said Devi in reply to Baren's head.

"Why in front of people's houses??."

"Can't you just talk sweet this time with me?" asked Baren with a sad face makes Devi feel strange.

"I usually like to talk too."

"Dev__"

"What?" sewot devi.

"Since when____"

"You ah not clear lo, move!!!," Devi opened the door but did not let Baren easily.

"Gue knows everything___"

"You what??" cut Devi.

The two of them were silent on the doorstep, digesting every word that wanted to come out. Until Devi understood what was going on right now. Spontaneously Devi pulled Baren inside.

"Sit down!!," said Devi, Baren obediently and sat down on the couch.

"Lo know what??."

Baren thrust a white envelope onto the table.

"Lo is clear on what the letter is!!!" said Baren. Devi took the envelope and read it. His expression was no longer surprised if all this would be revealed. If he had hidden a carcass, it would have smelled.

"Can I trust you??."

"The secret is what you know about me" Devi continued.

"Gue didn't promise."

"Lo tuh__"

"What stage is it??" cut Baren stared intently at Devi.

"It doesn't matter."

"It's important!!!, Dev brain cancer, not an ordinary disease!!!," Baren snapped making Devi flinch.

"No need to interfere, you are not who I am!" cried Devi.

"But I don't want to know why!."

"What is the same story you, I'm sick why you are emotional?."

"Because_____gue love equals lo!."

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