The Feelings That Are No Longer the Same

1.Letting you go is the thing I fear the most

One afternoon we met in the garden of heaven. Under the cluster of foliage.Crowdly that began to emit its luster. You look at me with admiration. I really enjoy this atmosphere with you.

You start to approach me tidying up the hair that covers my face. The closer your breath feels warm making a rumble in my heart. This afternoon breeze is like the flow of flavor you've been showing me all along.

You smile, you really look so sweet now. I returned your smile. Will you live with me forever, you whisper.

I understand how you feel you love me so much. You want to have me completely. But have you forgotten that we still have to reach our minds for our future?.

"Hmm, sangaat.. sangaat...."

Shouts at the end of the word. I don't care how many people are staring at us both. Maybe they think we're young men who are drunk on love.

"Wait until I pick you up and take you to the palace the two of us."You kissed the back of my hand long enough

"You have to promise to take me after you succeed, Promise!." I raised my little finger the sign of our agreement, you quickly linked it.

Today I am very happy to be able to enjoy time with you.It is certain that after this we will rarely meet. You're busy with your new world toward the future you've achieved. So will I, I will fight to set this heart just for you.

"Promise.I promise to keep my heart for you. I'm leaving at nine o'clock in the morning you should be there by the end of my time this town."

Although heavy to release you in the land of people, certainly there are many beautiful angel angels. I fear your heart will be broken. But I'll believe you. Always was.

"I'll come." I try to smile despite the fear of losing you.

" Thank you, I Love You Lisa." You hugged me so tightly, I know you're too heavy to leave me. You have to pursue your goal of going to Germany.

"I Love You More Rashad." I return your warm embrace that I feel, I will definitely miss this hug.

The twilight grew older and changed with darkness, only the light from the moon and the stars illuminated. Like this life that is always revolving is not only the pleasure that we feel but there is sadness and bitterness we must feel.

That's why I'll be steadfast in my life without you, maybe this fear is greater than my sincere feeling.

"I'm driving home, it's getting dark." Take Rashad to walk with me to leave the garden of heaven. He took me to the garden of heaven because of a myth he heard

"Son if you go to the garden of heaven with your heart, spend time together.Your desires and togetherness will stay awake with him.

You'll be happy forever with that man."

That's what Rashad said to me.And you know who said that??.

Mama, well mama Rena said it. Whether it's a fact or a myth, because Mama Rena has also done it with people who are now called papa by Rashad. I just hope the story of Papa and his mama Rashad will happen to both of us.

I just laughed at the story, but you said.

"I'm a firm believer in this myth, hopefully we'll be together forever. Do you trust it too?? ."

You ask, I just nodded my head, sign agreed. Actually my heart says otherwise I'm not sure of that kind of story. I just appreciate your opinion.

******

*Lisa*

On the way I love this moment where I can hug you, feel the fragrance of your body that I always want to breathe every day. Passing by, crashing into the night wind that is increasingly bone-chilling, you said.

"As long as I'm there, don't you ever be bullied by another man besides me."

I like your nature like this, it means you're jealous, you really love me.

I smiled the more tightly I hugged you drowning my head in your wide back.

"Are you jealous if I'm piggybacked on another man??

I tried to tease him, wanting to know what his reaction was, the Rashad I knew was not the grumpy type. For 3 years with him Rashad always calm face my ignorant attitude.

"No, I'm not jealous.Just say dilan I'm not confident."

Funny answer, doesn't it mean the same thing??

I laughed until I hit her back.

"Surprisingly, you're so weird." My answer is between my laughter.

"What's so weird? ."His question hardened because it was lost to other montor sounds.

"That means the same thing, doesn't it?? jealousy. "I emphasize at the end of the word 'hunter'.

"No that's..." You tried to dodge but I quickly cut your word.

"Not to worry, to be honest if you're jealous it means you love me, isn't it like that??. " Tanyaku.

"Well, you're right, baby, but different means I'm not jealous but lacking confidence."

I let out a long sigh, still if you argue with you it's always hard to give up. I don't think we got in front of my house.

" Okay, I'm giving up on you not being confident.

But whatever it is I promise I won't bicker with another guy."

*******

You finally started to disappear from my sight. I entered my parents' pretty big house. My father worked as an assistant or secretary to a CEO at Anugrah Jaya company. While my mother is a designer who is quite famous, she has 3 boutiques in various cities.

I am grateful that even though my parents are busy, they never ignore their affection for their children.

I am the second child, my brother is in college in Germany, maybe this year he came home. While my third brother Dion was still in 11th grade High School, which I heard from his friend he was a playboy. But I don't know I don't want to know Dion's personal business.

"Assalamualaikum, Lisa's home." I went in the living room there was Dion, mama, papa, but why so many snacks and drinks on the table as if there were new guests, I thought. I kissed the back of papa's hand and mama alternately

"Have you just had a guest??." Ask me

" Yeahh kaka was 15 minutes late, they just got home." Answer Dion. Who is that guest?? there are rarely guests at home, usually if there are guests mama and papa will invite him first because of his busyness.

"Who is the guest on the deck?? ."

"That's sis.... "

"Not who Lisa is, Dion came into your room!!. "

"Dad mah."

Strange as if mom forbade Dion to tell her who the guest was.

"Where have you been Lisa??it's just coming home." Ask me, I'm starting to get possessive. They didn't want me to know who the guest was, so threw a question at me.

The soul of my kepo thrashed if it was like this, maybe papa's mama silenced but still there Dion kainn.

Haiii don't forget to leave a trail 🤗

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