The Eternal Debauchery's

clara ll

"Now, will you explain to me what happened?"

Clara bit her lips and lowered her head. “You've heard. I want to be the holy daughter of the church.”

“Don't give me that shit, Clara. You and I know that you never liked church.” I said with an ice-cold tone. “In fact, I even thought for a moment that you hated the thought of marrying me so much that you would rather be a holy princess or whatever. However, that doesn't explain why you didn't immediately cancel the engagement and instead asked me to cancel it. If you really hated me, you wouldn't make such a sacrifice.”

“…”

“In addition, you have been avoiding me for a while. You even asked yourself not to attend my birthday party.”

“... I'm sorry Claus. But I can't tell you..” Clara said in a trembling tone.

“You don't have to tell me. Actually I have an idea. Someone forced you to stop your relationship with me, right?”

Clara's body shook. He opened his lips to refute me, but those words could not come out of his mouth.

“... Is that your family?”

Clara did not answer. But his expression told me everything.

For a moment, none of us spoke.

I looked at Clara and took a deep breath. “Please, can you explain to me what happened?”

Clara's expression changed. Immediately, I realized that her eyes had turned red, and tears began to form in the corners of her eyes.

“... It happened after we got engaged. I was quite happy with our engagement. My family is just an ordinary noble family, and even if you are not the heir to the throne, you are still a prince. Once we get married, I'll get the princess title.

“... I'm very happy. Claus, you know that I always loved you. Actually, part of the reason my dad agreed to our engagement was because he knew about my feelings. The days after we got engaged were some of the happiest days of my life.” A reminiscent expression appeared on Clara's face. For a moment, his expression seemed completely happy.

But the next second, happiness turned into sadness.

“My nightmares started a few days after that. One day, my father suddenly received a group of visitors. Even today, I don't know their identities, but father treats them with the utmost respect. Dad received guests in his office, and they were talking about something.I'm not sure what they were talking about, but when the visitors left, my face looked much older and scared.

“The following days, father's condition deteriorated. He seemed to be constantly worried about something, as if he had to make a very difficult decision. Even to this day, I haven't fully recovered."

“Finally, one afternoon, dad called me to his office. He told me .. He told me that I can't marry you." Clara had a bitter expression. I could see the pain and sadness he was feeling right now.

“At first, I thought he was kidding. But when I saw his eyes, I knew it was true.I remember I refused bitterly. Dad then raised his voice and started yelling at me, but I kept resisting. Even when dad threatened me to lock me in my room, I refused! I told him that I would marry you even if I had to run away!

“That night, I sobbed. I really want to marry you, Claus. When we were children, I dreamed of someday becoming your wife and having children.How can I harm my family because of my selfishness?!

“So the next day, I told dad that I agreed. I remember dad sighing and apologizing to me with tears in his eyes. Do you know what, Klaus? This time I saw my father crying…

“It is not easy to cancel the engagement with a prince. Our family couldn't do it without a good enough reason. Therefore, father asked me to keep my distance from you. Then, when the opportunity arises, he'll cancel the wedding.

“A few days ago, my father and I visited the Church of Order. For some reason, I gained the goddess's recognition and became a candidate for the position of sacred princess.”.

Clara lifted her face and looked at me. His face was covered in tears. Clara smiled, but her smile was filled with pain and sadness. He looked as if he would be crushed with the slightest touch.

“Actually, I'm quite happy. Even if I can't marry you, we're engaged for a while. Don't worry Claus, in this life, I won't marry anyone but you. So, if I can't marry you, then maybe it's best if I become this holy princess or something.”

“Clara...” I looked at Clara with a complicated expression.I never imagined that she was suffering so much.

Actually, I realized something was wrong with Clara a long time ago, but to be honest, I don't care. For a person like me, most problems are things I can solve by snapping a finger. But precisely because of that, I was too lazy to pay attention to them as long as it did not affect my life directly.

you can say that it is a side effect of living for so long.

'The 'I' of the fiftieth reincarnation would immediately act if he had the slightest suspicion that there was something wrong with anyone close to me. But 'me' is now still hiding his strength just because it is more entertaining in this way.

How weak. I wonder how I fell into this state.

… After all, living for so long is not always good.

I sighed and walked towards Clara before embracing her. Clara did not refuse my embrace and just continued to cry.I felt pity when I saw bitter tears streaming down her face.

After a while, Clara finally started to calm down. He grabbed my arm and held it tight.

“... I'm sorry, Claus. I love you, I really love you..”

“No, it's my fault. I'm the reason you have to go through this.”

Clara fell silent. He leaned his body on my body and smiled. “... Hey Claus, we never kissed once, you know? Can you…"

I smiled and lifted up my chin. Clare put on a nervous expression and looked me in the eye.

I sighed and slowly closed his lips.