So My First Two-Wife Love

Don't get hurt again

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...Jasmine Pov's...

"Like gulping poison. I felt dead at that moment."

The sound of the ship's horn was clearly echoed around the pier where Gibran and I were now, as if the universe was deliberately disguising the words of regret that were ejected from Gibran's mouth, but I was not only able to hear them, but also feel it.

Gibran told me long enough until we arrived at this place. Gibran cried a few times but I didn't give any reaction, honestly because I already knew all that.

Ruby's diary tells everything, even the reality that Gibran did not know including the stimulant drug that Ruby accidentally put in her water container, which she did not know, similarly, when Ruby pretended to be drunk and chased by two assholes who tried to harass her because all of it was part of her plan that wanted to manipulate Gibran and she succeeded perfectly.

Maybe because I already knew the reason why this fate was so binding and painful, so I no longer felt as angry at Gibran as I used to.

"Do you want to cross the island?"

"Yes?"

Gibran seemed confused by my invitation but he followed my footsteps as he approached the anchored ship.

"Two people sir" I told the ticket keeper and stepped out of Gibran to enter the ship while Gibran was still confused while paying for the ticket.

After getting the ticket, Gibran immediately ran up the ship approaching me which was currently standing near the barrier of the ship, staring at the island located not so far from this port.

I felt something cover my shoulder when Gibran finally arrived next to me, he handed me his jacket. The attitude of a gentleman that never goes away from him despite the many painful things that he's been through.

For a long time we were silent, enjoying the beautiful scenery and the cool breeze that blew hard because the sky seemed cloudy. It drizzled down when the ship finally set sail, but Gibran and I remained in our position without any intention of taking shelter.

"I felt angry at myself because I couldn't love him all his life." Gibran finally spoke again. I turned and looked at her, feeling like I wanted to tell her everything so she would stop feeling guilty but I was afraid it would make her feelings for Rora change.

"Well what about me, why are you mad at me first?"

"Because I can't have you."

I saw him raise his head, he held back his tears from dripping with all his might.

"I'm angry because there's another man protecting you and I'm angry because I regret everything but I can't say a single apology to you. I'm angry at everything between us, at an impartial destiny, at you who may not love me and have my heart broken by it" he said as he looked back at me.

The look in his eyes made it clear everything, how he was tormented in the past that it turned out that not only was I injured at that moment.

"You're angry at a lot of things because of me, should I apologize?"

Gibran was stunned for a moment, and that was when I smiled gently as I took one step closer to him.

"Sorry, Gibran...."

Her tears escaped again, just as I touched the back of her hand and apologized.

He lowered his head, gazing towards my hand which was currently grasping his hand quite tightly and occasionally stroking it with my thumb.

Apparently I broke your heart, Gibran....

"Maybe it's fate, me, you and Ruby. We have to feel all that pain in order to have Rora. You love him, don't you?"

"More than anything!"

I smiled and ventured to rub his back while calming him down.

"I'm sorry for my stupidity, Jasmine... I'm really sorry."

The sound of the ship's horn rang again, I tried to keep smiling even though my heart ached.

"We've been through a lot, Gibran...."

Gibran turned his face away, he was hiding his cries again. My heart was slashed, but I kept trying to hold back my tears.

"The pain and suffering we go through from the time we are teenagers to adulthood and finally we become adults now. That phase we went through with weight and pain, but I don't regret it anymore."

"But of all that time, I just keep hurting you... I pushed you away, I incised many wounds and traumas in your life. I ... Sorry, Jasmine. I know a thousand sorry won't treat that wound!"

My tears couldn't be contained anymore as Gibran revealed all his guilty feelings to me while holding on to his shoulders, really... I really want to hug her now.

"Honestly my heart is broken, there's nothing to treat anymore."

I don't understand how many tears we have to shed, how many wounds we have to bear because these feelings are excruciating.

Everything that happened between us, no one was happy, but until when?

"I'm really sick of it!"

Gibran turned his head towards me again, he looked at me pushyly with all the pain he could no longer hide from the look of his eyes that tormented me.

"I'm sick of this pain, Gibran... I'm sick of putting more wounds in my heart and I'm sick of seeing you suffer, Gibran... I'm sick!"

Gibran took a deep breath, he bit his lower lip, his breath choked and he said slowly, "Then I have to how?"

"I just want us to be happy now...."

"Back to me, Jasmine... It's not like love shouldn't be separated"

"But, Gibran... I left that heart in the past. I'm trying to live with a new heart now, so you should, right?"

"You mean a heart I don't have in it?"

"What about you?"

"I will always be the same! My feelings will never change, so let's not get hurt again, Jasmine...."

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