So My First Two-Wife Love

Manipulatively

Maybe it's time for me to let go of everything, let go of all my wounds and pain and live to be the new Jasmine.

The sense of loss is still there, my separation and Gibran will always be painful even though this is not the first time it happened but maybe this time I will no longer return to him.

Resuming life...

The only way to survive is to wait for the rest of my life to be used up together with Aurora.

I didn't think I'd fall in love with anyone else because I still couldn't let go of my feelings for Gibran.

But maybe time will manage to heal this wound so I can only hold on to it to stay firm.

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This room felt empty when only once Gibran slept in this room before we officially divorced but he seemed to leave so many traces here.

I could even still feel her warm embrace when she finally agreed to divorce with me, it was heart-tearing but I wasn't sure we would find it happy if we kept forcing it to be together.

While taking my breath, I reopened Ruby's diary that I had only read a few pages before.

The night was still so long, Rora slept with my grandmother tonight because my grandmother told me I might need some time alone.

I needed it, I wanted to know what I had never known, all the things that happened between me, Gibran and Ruby.

"In the end I succeeded, Gibran agreed with my plan. She started to be sweet to me in front of Jasmine, and Jasmine seemed to dislike that, it was fortunate that Jasmine had never said it in person until I made the opportunity to get closer to Gibran. It was close enough that I became part of their friendship.

That day was the first time I came to Jasmine's house, and on that day I knew that Jasmine was not actually an illegitimate child but me...

My heart throbbed with pain at the photo of my father with a beautiful woman, in the photo it was clear if it was a wedding photo.

So all this time I was wrong..."

I took a deep breath, it must have been hard for Ruby to know all that and that day she still looked cheerful as if that fact had not hurt her.

Little hope, hopefully on the next page he stops hating me...

"Manipulating Gibran is quite easy, his love for Jasmine is excessive so he always obeys what I say with the lure of Jasmine being his.

We were getting closer but then Gibran found out if me and Jasmine had the same father."

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...Flashback...

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...>>> Ruby POV<<...

Gibran's face looked different, just as his father looked at me coldly, I saw anger radiating at me, but what was my fault?

We met accidentally at the airport, when I was picking up my father who had just returned from the service outside the city, while Gibran was also picking up his father who had just returned from the same city.

Both of our fathers happened to be on the same plane. At first I was happy because they came out together while talking because then I could ask Gibran to introduce me to his father and vice versa but their reaction was not at all as I imagined and I just realized that my father kept putting on an expression that looked like someone who was holding back shame.

He didn't say anything but he went ahead until I followed him.

"So why the hell?" ask me who is still trying to behave as sweet as possible even though I am getting annoyed with his attitude.

"Since when?"

"Yes?"

I stopped my steps when Gibran suddenly turned around and asked with sharp eyes.

"What does brother mean?"

"When did you know that Jasmine had the same father?"

My body instantly froze, it felt like I had just been caught making a huge mistake.

"Sister, I..."

"What's loe's goal?" Gibran began to urge, he made me have to step back in fear.

"If the purpose of loe deketin Jasmine is only to make him suffer more, I'm sure you will never meet happy!"

That much?

Your feelings for her?

Your love for her?

My tears were dripping, I felt my chest fill with fog until it felt tight. So hurt...

I thought we'd been close enough all along,

I thought Gibran might be letting go of his feelings for Jasmine, but what really happened, Gibran never really considered me important.

"Loe was intentional, right? Do you always talk to papa Loe in front of Jasmine? It was purposely loe! Answer me, don't be like a mute!"

As sharp as he said, his anger at me wasn't excessive?

If it wasn't Jasmine, if my half-brother wasn't Jasmine, would you be that angry too?

"I also just found out, brother." I said lying while trying to wipe away my tears that would not stop because it seemed like my heart was starting to break.

"I want to tell Jasmine, I just want to tell my sister so that you can help me arrange a meeting with Jasmine as papa, but I think I've been misunderstood... Bastard child like me is always wrong, but even though I never intend to make Jasmine suffer more because no matter where she is my sister!"

Gibran was finally silent after hearing all my explanations. With tears still dripping, I touched Gibran's hand and looked at him to make him feel more guilty about me.

"Wouldn't you help me get Jasmine to see you again?"

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