So My First Two-Wife Love

Destiny

"I want to see you married before my death..."

It was never imagined in my life that I would have to hear that plea from Ruby. He who was so persistent in pursuing Gibran, now asked the man who had become her husband to marry me.

"Don't say that, Ruby... Please, I know you can fuck this up. You and your baby are safe."

I strengthened it, I continued to try to strengthen the friend who was my sister at the same time. Asking him to hold on but he took another deep breath, a breath stuck in his throat that made him feel pain.

"Dear, you can do it. Please don't give up..." Gibran was still the same, he coaxed with a cry that could not stop.

Ruby shook her head, and she took Gibran's hand and placed it over my hand which she still held tightly.

"I gave it back, what should have been yours from the beginning. I really am very happy... It's been happy enough to leave all this behind."

"No Ruby! No..." Gibran cried, roared. Anyone would react the same if this happiest moment should be such a heartbreaking one.

"I beg you..." Ruby's eyes were almost closed. A monitor monitoring his heart rate showed a significant drop. The doctor who treated Ruby also looked increasingly panicked.

"Ruby... Ruby wake up please..." I called out to him, I kept calling out my sister's name in despair.

I can still feel the warmth of Ruby's body, I can still feel her breathing. Ruby still shed her tears. I knew he could still hold on as he reopened his eyes.

"I can't wait too long..." Ruby's voice sounded slow, slightly disjointed. He no longer begged but his eyes looked at Gibran so deeply.

"Really, I'm sincere..."

Gibran's cry broke even more, he peeked Ruby's forehead and vaporized his squeeze through the kiss and then Gibran looked at me. "Sorry, Jasmine..."

Gibran immediately ran out after that. "No Gibran! No... Ruby please... Hold on I beg you..."

My body is weak, I can no longer stand. While kneeling I still hold Ruby's hand that is not able to hold my hand and continue to cry.

"There are times when I get greedy, but I know what is not my destiny.I can't have forever, Jasmine..."

I no longer said anything, I could only cry and cry even more when Gibran came in to bring my father.

I'm sure they've been gathering outside since the day Gibran called them on the trip if Ruby was going to give birth.

Our meeting never happened in happiness, I do not understand why my father and I were always met in painful situations.

I saw my father crying, he walked over to Ruby with a trembling body. I could feel her destruction as she directly hugged Ruby as she approached.

Her crying made me cry even louder, not out of jealousy but out of feeling the same pain.

"Please ask Ruby to hold on, I beg you, father... I beg..."

I raised my gaze, I looked at my father's face but he seemed to give up on Ruby as well. I'm really frustrated. Why did everyone give up on Ruby whom they had cared so much about all this time? I wanted to scream, I wanted to yell angrily at them.

"Sister..." Ruby called out to me again, I quickly got up and grabbed her hand with both hands. "Yes." I replied gently.

Ruby smiled warmly at me. "I'm your sister ..."

"Yes, you're my sister!"

Ruby smiled again, "thank you for accepting me."

I nodded my head quickly, Ruby's short breath confirming her dying state.

"Please be a second wife, my husband..."

How else to refuse it? How else to strengthen it so that it stays afloat?

I couldn't breathe, I couldn't resist but I also reluctantly agreed.

"Jasmine.." Now it was Gibran's turn to persuade me.

This situation tormented me, as my father began to extend his hand over Ruby's currently dying body and Gibran shook it. The doctor who handled Ruby immediately took a position as a witness.

They have all given up, is there no hope left for my sister? I looked at Ruby's pale face, she could still smile at me, the smile that kept me quiet as my father began to say his wedding vows with Gibran whose breath was almost choked when he said the wedding vows.

"Bismil was bornrahmanirrahim, I accepted the marriage of Jasmine Gunawan bint Dito Gunawan..."

My body went missing when the witness authorized my marriage to Gibran. A marriage that used to be my dream but I never wanted to get it this way.

"Thank you..." Ruby's voice sounded soft, she was no longer heard in pain while giving her wedding ring to me and after that Ruby's hand fell on my palm and no longer moved.

So young, so quickly she left us all, letting go of her perfect happiness to me that had spent all my time hating her.

"Sorry, Ruby... Sorry me..." My cries are no longer energetic, regretting everything but it's too late.

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In the end Ruby left us all for good but she still had to undergo surgery for the safety of her son who was also almost critical.

I sat quietly in the waiting chair, alone away from all those who are currently waiting with a sense of pain of loss mixed hope that the child Ruby can still survive.

"Jasmine!" Juna's call that came with his million worries, instantly broke the silence.

I saw him step closer with a breath of breath, I'm sure he ran here as soon as I told him I was in the hospital right now.

"Are you okay?" he worried while kneeling before me he touched my face so that he could look at me who kept his head down without daring to look at him.

"Sorry brother, I'm sorry..." My voice was soft, I cried regretting everything because I hurt her once again, maybe this time I destroyed her.

"Hey, why? What really happened?" She continued to ask gently and slowly I showed her the Ruby ring that was now in my palm.

Juna was stunned for a moment, he looked at me as if he did not understand but I immediately found sadness in the look in his eyes. "Sorry Brother Juna, I cannot avoid this situation..."

Juna's tears soon fell, he seemed to be in disbelief with what he had just heard and I confirmed it once again, "i'm married to Gibran.." Juna's body immediately fell limp.

I could see the anger in his cries, he then moved awake. I thought he was leaving me but Juna walked over to Gibran and hit him in the face until Gibran fell down.

"I'm not satisfied loe sickin Jasmine!" Shouted angry Juna while continuing to hit Gibran and Gibran just kept silent without resisting even though his parents tried to stop Juna who kept beating him.

"Suckers! Loe never banged up for Jasmine! You're not all bothered to get Jasmine's pain this far!" Juna went berserk, even when I could only hurt him, he was still on my side.

I could only step closer with a trembling body approaching Juna after nothing managed to ease his anger.

My hands have not touched it yet but Juna has stopped beating Gibran who can only cry lying on the floor with a battered face.

Juna's breathing was still panting, his crying still did not stop. He then got up and looked at me inside.

I will accept it, even if Juna will hate me after this, I will accept it as long as he is no longer injured but Juna pulls me instead, she hugged me so tightly as if the pain was not tormenting her, she hugged me who could only cry back.

Why does God outline our destiny this complex? Why do we just keep meeting with pain?

Me, Gibran, Ruby and Juna... Why is it so hard for us to meet happiness?

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