So My First Two-Wife Love

Forgetting to be happy

Ruby continued to accompany me during school, not infrequently she also rubbed my back as a form of support.

"Have you had breakfast?" ruby asked with attention but I was too tired to respond.

"I brought a bekel made by my papa, don't you?"

Whether he meant well or he was making fun of me, I couldn't think straight. I'm also afraid of hurting Ruby. He's my only friend besides Gibran, if I hadn't been jealous of him maybe I wouldn't have always felt angry if he was around me and Gibran.

I still didn't answer but Ruby kept her provisions, two pieces of chocolate jam sandwich mixed with strawberry. Seeing that bread reminded me of my father because he used to make it for me every time he visited.

"One for you, one for me. Eat yes, do not get sick, Jasmine." said Ruby while putting a piece of bread in my hand.

I saw Ruby eat first and then she smiled, looking in her eyes as if to say that the bread was delicious. Slowly I began to taste the bread. It felt the same as if it was made by the same person who made me want to cry when I ate it when anyone could make strawberry chocolate jam sandwich but my fragile heart wanted to lead me to the wound, on that longing.

Ruby didn't force me, she didn't ask me to stop crying while eating, she wiped my tears away occasionally.

"Are you angry with me, papa?" ruby asked quietly, I nodded my head and continued to cry while eating the bread. Ruby then hugged me, she hugged me who could only keep crying.

...

When the time came home, Gibran came to pick me up and Ruby. Holding my hand, Ruby led me to Gibran.

"Let's go in, your body is hot like you have a fever" Ruby said as she opened the door for me at the wheel.

"Loe hurts again?" Gibran directly touched my forehead and confirmed my body temperature. "We're going to the doctor?" wheeze Gibran worried after making sure my body temperature is high enough.

"Gue doesn't hurt, maybe I cry too much." I replied slowly, I blatantly avoided Gibran's eyes.

"Yes, we've just got to go home." take Ruby.

I then entered Gibran's car and unexpectedly Ruby also sat in the back seat accompanying me.

"Here lie down." said Ruby as she patted her lap.

My head that had been dizzy since I had made me obey, I lay on Ruby's lap and the girl faithfully rubbed my head.

"Jasmine.." call Ruby.

"Hmm.." I replied with a slow mutter, both eyes closed, this tiredness I could not avoid and Ruby's hand rubbed made me feel comfortable.

"Sleep, when I wake up."

"Yes..."

...

I felt someone lift up my body and slowly wake me up, the faint sight greeting my eyes made me a little surprised as Gibran carried me in his bridal style hands while Ruby stepped next to him carrying my bag.

"Gue can walk alone, Gibran." I said slowly, my voice was starting to hoarse.

"Loe's awake? I'm sorry I should've been slower than that, hag loe."

The attention Gibran showed me and the warmth he gave me made me want to keep going, leaning on his shoulder and holding on tight, but Gibran only drove me to my room after that he said goodbye to drive Ruby home.

I wanted to prevent it, I wanted to ask if he would come back here and accompany me but seeing the attention Ruby showed Gibran by giving him a glass of water kept me from coming back.

Gibran smiled, but the smile was not shown to me but to Ruby. They shared a smile in front of me, looking warm and happy.

***

After that day, I was still cold to my grandmother. My anger still hasn't subsided, I didn't want to express it so I started to shut up. Slowly I began to turn quiet, not only when I was with my grandmother but also when I was with others including Gibran and Ruby.

Today they took me on a vacation to the playground, he said they wanted to entertain me but I didn't feel that way because it felt like I was just accompanying them on a date.

Now Gibran and Ruby are on a rollercoaster ride, I didn't ride with them because I was scared when I just didn't want to sit with strangers because they were both sitting alone.

My heartache increased every second of seeing their closeness until I chose to go home alone without waiting for them.

Now I'm on the bus, covering my ears with earphones but I don't listen to any songs. There are no happy songs that make me happy and sad songs will only make me worse.

The bus stopped at the stop and I went straight down, the library was my destination. Wishing to read would make me forget my sadness.

I picked up a book themed literature, a big and thick book instead of a novel book filled with sweet love stories like I read so far. Reading all that would only make me realize how miserable my life has been.

A little difficult to reach it, someone suddenly helped me.

"Thank you." I said quietly without smiling, the man who looked five years older than me then smiled.

"Like the literary world?" asked the man kindly but I ignored him but who would have thought it turned out that the man was sitting next to my chair. It felt a little awkward because I ignored him earlier let alone that he smiled clumsyly when our eyes accidentally met.

I read until I forget time, immersed in the long and complicated writings until I read it to completion then I realized the condition of the library was very quiet and there was only a man who had been sitting next to me who was around me, I didn't realize it but there were already a lot of books on his desk.

"Have you finished reading it?" the man whispered as if he was waiting for me to finish reading.

"Would you like to read this book?" I asked as I shifted the book I had read before him but the man pushed it back to me.

"So, but like the library's closing, we're the only two still here, you don't want to go home?"

I circulate my view, the condition of the library is not always crowded but here we are left only and an old lady library guard.

I finally decided to go home but seeing that the man was still returning the books he had read back to his original place while the library guard was looking impatient to close this place made me feel like I had to help the man.

I took out a portion of the book in his hand and began to put it in its original place, there were several books I had read so I found the place easily and then we came out of the library together.

"Thank you for helping me compile a book, know me Juna" said the man, extending his hand to me as we stood in front of the library building.

I hesitated to receive an introduction from her but her warm smile made me slowly touch that hand and shake her hand.

"Jasmine!" I flinched as Gibran touched my wrist that was currently shaking Juna's hand. His face looked worried and tired as well while Ruby was behind him.

Gibran did not say anything more after that and just pulled me away leaving Juna, Gibran looked so angry that I had trouble equalizing his steps while he gripped my wrist tightly until it hurt.

"Loe can't take him away without his consent!" I was shocked once again when Juna blocked my arm and made our footsteps come to a halt.

"Loe don't have to interfere with my affairs with Jasmine!" gibran warned, his eyes burning with anger when he saw Juna's hand clutching my arm but Juna still did not move away, he released Gibran's hand from my wrist.

Juna looked at my wrists flushed and then she pulled me to her side. "What's your intention to be rude to Jasmine?"

"Loe strangers don't have to interfere!"

"Gue's not a stranger, is he Jasmine?"

***