SMILE BEHIND THE SORROW

I DON'T KNOW WHAT THIS TASTE IS (WILDAN)

He, he who used to make my day so beautiful, even I think I'm the happiest man in the world. From the very beginning I knew her, she was an attractive girlfriend to me, despite the class differences but our house was unidirectional, too, I was Tio and Iren friends in elementary school.

Our friendship has been established for quite a long time, it can even be said to be like family, friendship between us runs happily, until finally I don't know what I feel, what I feel, when I saw him with a boy friend who I felt was in class with him.

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He, smiling sweetly as the man clasped his hand, jokingly walked along with the tiny hand.Want me to express this taste, but I was afraid to lose that smile.Until, until,finally Tio saw the change that was taking place within me, no laughter, no more smiles and no reprimands when we got together. At that time, Tio also began to believe if I had a sense of more than friends, because it is impossible and not if a friendly man and woman gradually do not have feelings of liking.But, no, Tio tried to pretend in front of me and in front of him.

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There, it was time that Tio and I were sitting together talking about our schoolwork and our activities. Until, finally Tio ventured to ask about my feelings to him. I, tried to brush aside everything Tio said, but, however I tried to hide that feeling, Tio, the friend who knew me inside out was not so sure of my rejection. Until, one day, accidentally or unintentionally Tio told me what I had felt so far towards him.

I know Tio, just wanted him to know what I was feeling, as a friend he didn't want to see one of his friends tortured for harboring that feeling. And, I finally ventured to express this feeling of mine, but, this feeling clapped one hand.

There was no answer, only his residence and attitude changed for me.

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Since then, I tried to eliminate the feeling even though it was difficult but I was sure I could.The more, the changing day he who I felt deeper, every meeting not once he wanted to say hello, or return my greeting, the more, in fact, he never even looked at her. I, the more I lose that smile, the more I lose all my happiness, I don't know, the more wrong it would be if I had a taste for it.

"Hate, that's you Ren against me!"it was my murmuring that Tio heard. Tio, can only strengthen me by stroking my shoulders. This guilt is growing, as, change after change that is clearly visible in my eyes.

Friendship, which I have been dating for years, now I do not know whether it can still last or the longer it gets away.

Until, finally, I can eliminate this little taste without having to meet or gather with friends of the village. Habit, we every Sunday night always gather with other village teenagers to just joke and play together, so that there is always a relationship between residents.

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Finally, I found the same smile on the other person, the transfer student, that managed to change everything slowly, until I finally got the smile again even from the lips of others. My happiness, it felt like it was coming back to me, that peace that I now feel.

But, before long, a smile that bru etched beautifully on my face, now, as if lost when I met him again in the school kantin, even we sat down one table.Without, turned, without reprimanding me too, without reprimanding me, he casually joked with laughter with the new student and with my little friend, or arguably Tio's best friend as well.

That regret re-emerged in my mind, I chose to shut up and listen to what he was talking about with Vey and Tio.Entah, they felt my residence or only Tio felt that way. As much as possible, I try to hide from them.I don't want to ruin their conversation with the occasional smile, even though only a thin smile.

My change was very noticeable in Tio's eyes, she knew what I was feeling right now, she was trying to strengthen me by wrapping her hand around my shoulder. Before long, the sound of the bell sign entered I heard, but, I was still with my residence which was very durable. If, that's the case, Tio didn't even dare to rebuke me.

Let me and my house know.

"I'm sorry, if I was wrong to love you and express this feeling so presumptuously!".whisper Wildan,

NOTE: IF THIS SILENCE IS BETTER, I CHOOSE TO BE SILENT.

Not much I asked for😊

enough, LIKE and HIS SUGGESTION because for VOTE I'm self-aware😊😊😊.