SMILE BEHIND THE SORROW

MEET TO END

This afternoon really hurt me. Even though you look ordinary but I know you very well. My mother still looks very shocked, with her floor they are insulted, reviled in front of many residents. I really felt useless, I thought my relationship would go straight without any status comparison. I'm a man who doesn't even have it far above them. But it is not appropriate that they insult the weak.

Wildan and Tio were still faithfully accompanying us. He also encouraged my parents. He knew that my mother was a very thinker. Coupled with the arrival of Reza's parents made my mother's condition a little weak. I still assure my parents that I no longer have a relationship with Reza.

Initially Wildan, Tio, Father and also my mother were surprised by the decision I took. Both of my parents have actually approved of my relationship with Reza. But they never knew Mama Reza didn't approve of it.

" Mom and Dad are okay, why did you decide to Reza. Poor Reza if you decide. Let, Mama Reza's problem Father and mother who take care of. You don't have to end your life? You know you love Reza so much." Say Father.

" No sir, I'm sure of my decision. Let's just say that Reza is not my soul mate after all this is just schoolboy love sir! Not necessarily also the same date with Reza five years ahead. I'm just calm, I'm sure Reza would want to understand sir." I forced a smile in front of them, I kept convincing both my parents.

Across my seat Wildan just saw and heard what I said to my parents. Wildan and Tio finally say goodbye. I still have a human smile in front of them. Even though I knew they must have known behind that smile, I didn't want to look weak in front of everyone. My job now is to focus on studying and focus on the classroom exam. I really hope to be raised this class I'm not one class with Reza. Because obviously I wouldn't be able to forget it if I could still see him in front of me.

I lay my body in my most comfortable place, I looked at the ceiling of my room which was only roofed precarious. It was very late but I could not close my eyes either, I took a textbook and I started reading it. I hope reading my book of sleepiness will come. And sure enough when I want to turn the page sheet I'm not strong anymore. I finally fell asleep with the book on my chest. I hope with me to sleep everything will return as usual. Countless minutes I've been in my conscious carry.

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At half-four in the morning I woke up and rushed to the kitchen. Every day at four o'clock in the morning I helped Mom who cooked in the kitchen. At home I still use the furnace, the stove is also there but only used at night. The next morning cooking in the furnace, cooking on the stove by cooking on the stove is better in the furnace. Wrestling with smoke doesn't make me die, I love cooking in my kitchen. One day you wanted to dismantle this furnace, I cried so much that I did not want you to damage it. Because, before my house walled this furnace wall already exists.

Not only my house that still has his legs, some neighboring houses are also still there. Morning if there are no odors produced from the furnace fire does not taste afdol. After everything was over I just rushed to take a shower before breakfast. You still seem to be asleep in the middle room, before I head to my room covered in that almost aging body. I looked at the dark face and a little bit of skin that began to wrinkle, without feeling my tears had slid rapidly on both cheeks. I still look at that face and I kiss that forehead again.

" May you always be given patience and strength. Hopefully, you and Mom can see the fat to become successful people. Thank you guys." I kissed that black forehead again and then I stood up to get my school uniform.

My bathroom was not in my room, the bathroom next to me was a little far from the stove. Instantly, what I had poured on my body made my mouth look fresh. Like a flower that is splashed with water, it will show its freshness. There was a voice outside calling my name. I put on my clothes one by one and immediately headed to the front to see who was coming.

Wildan, Vey and Tio were sitting locked in front of my house. Vey's smile was just as usual very sweet and definitely very beautiful. After I told them to wait I went inside for breakfast for a while and took my bag. Today I have to focus on my exams and school so that I can make both my parents happy. It didn't take long for all of us to leave for school. The jokes given by Tio and Vey amused me a lot. Kulirik Wildan who had seen me.

" Wil, what's wrong?" my wonder. Because from that moment on, Wildan just kept looking at me. Wildan who realized to be wrong behavior.

" It's okay, Ren, what about Mom and Dad." nervous Wildan who was caught like a cat that stole a fish.

"Well, let Wil worry which parent is not sad if he sees his son insulted like that. But I've convinced them that you're calm" I smiled at Wildan.

" Are you sure Ren is in your mind. It's better to talk slowly Ren, I know you really like Reza from a long time ago. Even though you never told me or Tio." Wildan continued.

"Eh, Wil how did you yesterday because, I saw you were so serious yesterday until I didn't realize I was next to me." I said.

Wildan just smiled and nodded his head.

I deliberately switched Wildan's conversation, I didn't want my heart to waver. I'm sure enough to end it. If it's true that Reza will move I will be grateful so easily I can quickly forget him. It's just monkey love or momentary love.

Before long we have reached school and headed for their respective spaces. Classes don't look too crowded, maybe there are still five people including me. I sat my body on the bench that became my place and I took the subjects that would be done later. Focusing on reading suddenly Reza was sitting in front of me. He sat facing me folding both hands on the table looking at me with a smile.

" Hehe, I'm sorry." I replied grimly.

"You've learned Za again!" my many.

" No, look at the problem I can do without thinking" joked Reza. Indeed Reza is a smart child in the class, he also does not hesitate to help his friend who is in trouble. Things like that amazed me even more. But today I have to flow everything, I hope he can understand and accept.

Our conversation was interrupted because the bells were ringing the sign that the test was about to begin. Reza walked out of class after shuffling my hair. Soon I will never see that smile. Soon I won't face it. I must be sincere, if we are indeed paired someday must be met. I focused my eyes on the white sheet in black ink. Trapped sentence by sentence on each sheet.

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Finally after a few days of struggling with the slightly complicated matters, the disciples all became relieved. There were no lessons after the exam, the teachers purposely gave their students for congregational refreshing. My class is so rowdy and the other classes are just as rowdy. Today I didn't see Reza in class when I wanted to talk to her. I asked Danu and the others, he also did not know and not usually also Reza playing to his friends' house. Not getting an answer about Reza's whereabouts, I decided to go ahead of class.

From a distance I caught the man I was looking for. He had just walked out of the principal's room together with his parents. He walked behind his parents with a very sluggish face. I still saw him from above, looking like his Mama was giving babble to Reza. They kept arguing, I didn't know what Reza and Mama were arguing about. His father was seen mediating between his wife and son but was ignored.

As I looked towards them Reza saw me and immediately ran towards the stairs wanting to get to me. I was still silent in my place without any movement to avoid. I let him come to me because I want to talk to him too. Reza's breathing gasps when it reaches me. I went to class to get the water I usually bring. I gave the drink to Reza, I knew running on the stairs was exhausting.

"Huft, Ren's a minute." Reza still looks dull and full of sweat. I rubbed Reza's forehead that was already flooded with sweat she smiled.

" Why don't you go to class and why did you walk out of the principal's room!" I asked Reza. The one asked turned his face away and walked facing the other direction. Still silent and occasionally sounding breathing frustrating Reza. I'm still faithfully waiting for him to speak. I looked up at the slightly overcast sky, like my heart was right now.

I lifted my head with my eyes closed. It was so relieved when I turned my head. I didn't realize if Reza was looking at me, she seemed confused about whether or not to talk. I rubbed Reza's right shoulder and tried to smile.

" Just say Za, I'm fine. What's wrong." I said smiling.

" Ren, I know my mom came to your house. I'm sorry my Ren Mama humiliated both your parents. I'm sorry because of me you suffered with all my mother's talk. My mom shouldn't have behaved like that." Reza regretted

" Ren, are you going to hate me after my mother's attitude towards you and your family. I don't want to break up with you, Ren. I still want to have this relationship." Please Reza hold Iren's hand.

" Za, honestly I'm fine if your mama insulted me but I can't see both of my parents grieving. I know, I'm just the son of a farmhand. It has a simple but very comfortable and peaceful home. I want us to be friends with Za. I don't want to add more trouble for my parents. I should have no feelings of liking for you, me and you are like the Moon and the Sun. I'm just a cloudy night waiting for the light from the Moon. I'm sorry, I can't continue this relationship." I said staring at this handsome face.

My mouth says BREAK, but it's different with my heart. Reza still clasped my hand without letting go. His gaze was hard for me to understand, maybe he was surprised by what I said. I turned my face to face somewhere else. I really can't stand having to look into those eyes.

NOTE: THERE WILL BE A TIME FOR THAT LOVE TO RETURN.

WOW, long once😂😂😂

Patience well Reza, the school was the first who really helped your parents' will. Iren will be fine.