SMILE BEHIND THE SORROW

MY ADVANTAGES AND DISADVANTAGES

Not because I never cared about anyone else. Nor because I always bother others.

I can't say enough to reveal it directly. I feel like I'm too sensitive to see other people sad.

I love everyone who is next to me. I can't feel happy if my happiness only makes them sick.

I'm an ordinary person who has very sensitive feelings. My sensitivity is too much for everyone. But, I don't care about it.

This is me with my weak feelings. The sense of loss that I had experienced made me someone who was easy to feel.

After I calmed down, Pakle and Alisya helped me into the room. I never expected Reza to leave so soon.

The ringing of my phone sounded vague.

"Yes, please get me my phone. I'm sorry to bother you again." I told Alisya.

"Never say that. Humans help each other. I'll get you first, yeah" replied Alisya straight out of the room.

📱🎵

Here I am

With all my less

Only you understand

Exists to me

Here I am

With all my sincere love

Only you understand

Me and myself

Love is never wrong

Love is never wrong

Alisya helped me to pick up my phone left on the front desk. In my room I was hugging the bukle. My tears have stopped from the water.

My chest was so tight, my gaze blankly to the floor of the room.

"Veyo, from Tyo!" serah Alisya gave me my phone.

I immediately grabbed my phone in Alisya's hand.

"Tyo," called me with a trembling tone of my voice.

It sounded across there Tyo was trying to calm me down. I would feel very sad if I could not go there. Irene definitely needs all her best friend wants, I thought.

"Vey, you calm down. I know you are sad to hear that news. You calm down, yeah, "pinta Tyo from the phone. I'm according to what Tyo said.

I should have prayed for Reza instead of continuing to cry for her. She is not my best friend, she is also the one who accidentally hurt the man I like.

"Tyo, are you coming to Reza's funeral?" ask me to Tyo.

"How are you?" ask Tyo back.

"I can't Tyo, tomorrow and the day after tomorrow I can't go back to the village. There are some tasks and practices that I have to attend to. You know for yourself it's not a major that I'm taking that's so busy on schedule?" I said to explain my reasons for not being able to go home.

"Yes Vey, Irene must understand that. You will calm down when I get there. I'll call you again." she still calms me down.

"Yes, oh yeah do you know how Wildan is doing? Does Wildan also know this news Tyo?" I asked my other friend.

Before I moved to this S town. Wildan has been more willing to leave without saying goodbye to everyone. Wildan's father didn't tell him where Wildan went.

Tyo was silent long enough to answer my question. It's possible that Tyo is just like me who doesn't know Wildan's news yet. I'm delayed sad, Wildan has changed a lot since Irene got back to Reza.

"Tyo, please tell Irene and Reza's family well. I'm sorry I can't be home anytime soon." I said, who was out of words.

My mind was mixed, my chest was sore. When Irene needed me, I wasn't there by her side. What kind of friend am I, which usually only troubles those around me.

A drop of my tears flowed again though not as hard as before. I quickly deleted it, all of which need not be regretted. All humans need other humans.

The phone connection has been cut off. I asked Bukle and Alisya to leave me alone. They followed my will and left me here alone.

Before coming out of my room bukle briefly kissed the tip of my head. I closed my eyes to absorb the affection that bukle gave through his kiss.

"Bukle stay well ndok!" pamit bukle to me. I took it as my answer.

My lips are no longer strong for me to open. My throat felt choked by something that made it hard for me to answer. The door of the room was closed tightly.

"Well! I'm sorry Ren." I muttered repeatedly. I know my apology will never be heard by Irene.

I took a photo album in my room drawer.

I opened the memories of the photos with all my school friends. Their laughter was immediately ringing in my hearing.

I open the flip sheet again, there's a picture of me, Wildan, Irene, Tyo and a picture of the deceased. Irene was so wide when posing beside her lover. So did Reza happily embrace Irene's shoulder.

Their smiles never fade in time. There will never again be a smile of lies from Irene's lips. Now and then will that smile come back.

No one will know that, I swiped a portrait of the two of them posing facing each other. Their noses stuck to each other with a smile that continued to expand on their faces.

Love is complicated and difficult to guess. Sometimes love gives happiness, sometimes love hurts each other to raise each other's ego.

My finger changed to a portrait of two men who had expressed their feelings. I smiled remembering where Tyo had said it with romantic words but the end made me laugh.

"Wildan, where are you now?" my whisper kept staring at Wildan's portrait.

Until the last sheet we see a portrait of us who sing a song whose title is like a cocoon. Anyway that's the lyrics.

"The love that returns will not be together. There was something that required them to part ways without being able to resist it,"

"May you calm down there Rez, if now you are not a match maybe in his place you will find a better soul mate than in the world," I murmured to pray for Reza.

NOTE: NO ONE CAN DENY A WRITTEN DESTINY.