SMILE BEHIND THE SORROW

IT WAS YELLING THAT WAS LOUD VEY

Before everyone woke up, I opened my eyes. I opened the curtain that covered the glass in my room.

At first glance my gaze was fixed on a vast expanse of water. I stared at the ocean for a long time with the waves rolling up the white sand.

After being satisfied I looked at the expanse of the ocean. I went to the bathroom to clean my body. I want to take a walk on the beach before they all wake up.

It was done with the ritual of bathing and dressing thin I walked out. Without saying goodbye to all my family, I immediately set foot on my feet.

Want to immediately enjoy the atmosphere on the beach. When I got to the beach, I took off my footwear. I let the skin of my feet touch the sand of this beach.

The strong sea breeze, made my skin shudder. I forgot to wear these long clothes to let the wind touch my white skin.

I was still walking with my shoes on, I let my feet go where I was taking me. I let this leg swing keep going until it gets where it's wanted to be.

After walking quite far from the inn. I stopped at a wooden bridge that extended almost to the middle of the sea. I sat my body on the side and I let my legs dangle touching the sea water.

Cold, when I put my feet down, I put my head up against the sky. I exhaled slowly, and I let my eyes close.

Without feeling my tears suddenly glistened to the side. Because, the position of my head that is still looking up. My crying became more and more unstoppable, I raised both knees and then I bent.

I bowed my head in the folds of my hands and knees. In a place like this is what I want. I vent all my sadness by crying as hard as I can.

No one will know even if I roar. When I felt someone sitting next to me. I lifted my head to see it. I let my face be filled with tears that could not stop flowing.

Know who is sitting next to me, I remove the remains of my tears. I turned my eyes forward, although my cries were not as loud as before but these tears still flooded my face.

Sometimes my eyes are down and sometimes my eyes are ahead. The atmosphere of the beach made me calmer, I was free to blow everything away. Fortunately it was still so early in the morning there was only me and Fatih.

The sound of the waves accompanied this silence. I didn't say a word to start it. Let it be like this for a second. I want to put it all down by crying, maybe after this I won't be sad anymore.

The sun began to show its form little by little it was a sign that the day was already noon. But, I still don't want to get out of this place. Until Fatih tried to bring me back. At first glance, I looked at Fatih, there was a longing to look into those eyes.

" Come, let's get Vey back. People must have woken up, "take Fatih.

" In a moment, if you want to go back first don't papa. I still want to be here first" I replied.

" Yasudah, I'll accompany you here. Vey, sometimes there's a reason we never know why Fahmi would donate his cornea. At first I did not expect that my donor was Fahmi. Vey, if Fahmi's still alive, and then I met Fahmi another way. I will definitely refuse, not all living humans will do it.

Vey, you might say, I won't be like Fahmi. I won't be able to replace Fahmi in your life. For this time, I really want to erase all your sorrow and suffering. I know losing someone we love is very painful. Do you remember Vey, first we met the square. I'm sure you haven't forgotten, the woman who was with me at that time was my lover. I dated her long enough until I decided to take up military education. Automatically, I rarely meet with him, even in school we rarely met. But, after I went to education, the fear of abandonment invaded my heart. You, surely know because Mr. Lek also lived in the dorm, living there we can not be as free as we live in the house Vey. Each movement has a maximum of 5 minutes. And, right then and there I got word that she was betrothed by her parents." Fatih was downcast as she told the end of her love. There was sadness on his face.

" Vey, when we first met accidentally that time. I was surprised you suddenly cried while saying something. I can't hear exactly what you said at the time. There I wanted to ask her but you've moved away. Finally, after I finished my education, I began to find out everything including you and Fahmi. I asked your father to meet me with your Papa and then your Papa told me everything. That's where I know everything and I also often visit Eyangmu's house. Your friend also told me everything, he asked me not to ask anything if we met later. Sorry, if the meeting was accidentally that time made you depressed again. I didn't mean to remind you of your Fahmi. But, to what extent you avoid me you will never be able to. We'll meet often, whether it's here or in another city. Already, I will help you to let go of all your grief," Fatih asked then she stood up.

" Hey, you're nothing but ashamed of what many people think. If you're going crazy don't ask me, I'm still sane," I'm annoyed to release my palm that silences a maniac's mouth next to me. I glared my eyes at the giggling Fatih,

The day is near noon and many people want to enjoy the beauty of the beach. I'm me

" It's really crazy, ', '" I haven't had time to turn around Fatih has already pulled my hand. Fatih took me running along this beach screaming my name. I was astonished by Fatih's actions like this. Not yet finished my shock with her suddenly screaming now she invites me to run grab a shout like her.

I did not refuse nor give a nod when she suddenly pulled my hand.

" Vey,,, yell out Vey, yell as loud as you. Put everything in this place, in the first and last place that saw you cry," Fatih shouted while running.

His breathing was clearly up and down, he was snickering as he ran while talking. His hand still holds my wrist.

" He wants me to run to where, this is so far away" I murmured in my heart. There was fear when I was far away from that place.

I who was tired immediately stopped my run, a fool with him who fell backward because I pulled my hand to release. I set my breath little by little, looks Fatih sitting on this white sand. His shoulders were seen going up and down to regulate his breathing as well.

I hold my body facing the sea.

" It hurts to try it," my mind, turned to Fatih for a moment and then I took a deep breath first and ....

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wkwkwkwkwkwkwkwk accidentally I lengthen his cry Vey let him settle😂😂😂🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣. So laugh yourself sorry yah☺

" I hate everything, I hate my fragile self, I hate every day crying, I am beeennnccciiiii aaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhh. Give me back my smile like I used to, Mas Fahmiiiiiiiiiiiii,,,,,,,, I hate youuuuuu I ,, I hate you, '" I cried along with the outbreak of my cry. I covered my face with both hands, slowly my body gradually degenerated.

" Vey," call Fatih. Without asking her permission, I hugged her. I buried my face in his chest, felt Fatih also returned my embrace. I held my arms again with a firmer cry.

" Never avoid me, never stay away from me. Never hate everything especially hate Fahmi. We cannot blame the written destiny. You have to forgive everything, especially yourself. You should be friends with your heart again Vey, as I said before, let this place see you like this. But someday you will come here again I hope you come back with happiness. You have to promise me that and also (release my arms and her hands cupped my cheeks to look at her) to these eyes. This body is mine, but these eyes she put on me to see you smile. Not seeing you cry and sad like this" Fatih said while wiping away my tears that did not stop this.

" Dong's smile, the beauty of eliminating it. Elap is your snot, not ashamed of the crab," Fatih's tease comforted me.

The instant I hit Fatih's shoulder, Fatih Mercon dodged my punch. He ran while sticking out the tip of his tongue mocking me. I smiled when I saw him acting like a child. I finally ran after him too.

NB: IF SHOUTING CAN MAKE PLONG HEART DO IT. BECAUSE, IT WILL FEEL TIGHT IF HELD.

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