SMILE BEHIND THE SORROW

THE EYES ARE NOT FOREIGN

At 07:00 me and Asri arrived home. The headlights are still brightly lit, indicating the house people are still loyal in front of the tivi.

I waited for Ma'am Asri to pay the angkot for then we walked in together. When I knocked on the door, I saw someone opening the door.

My eyes met those beautiful eyes, those eyes were just like someone's eyes. I just realized when I met him, I was too focused when I met him.

I flinched as Ma'am Asri patted mine. Turning my eyes towards Ma'am Asri.

" Yes, what's wrong, Ma'am" I looked at Mbak Asri.

" Sayok enter first, later he continued his face-to-face," moda Mbak Asri whispered to me.

I just went through it without saying hello. I don't know, at first glance it's not foreign to me because it's just my feelings. I kept walking while carrying the two plastic bags containing the martabak.

Both of Eyang are still focused on his spectacle that shows the favorite programs of parents. Ludruk, my two eyes really like that one tivi program.

I sat my body next to Eyang Kakung, slowly I opened the package of martabak. Before that, I had already taken a plate for his martab place and a few glasses for his drink.

" Seriously, really watch it until you don't know Vey's home," I said while arranging the martabak I brought.

" Just returned to Ndok. You think you're still there a long time" replied Eyang.

" Yes Eyang, had stopped by the same martabak donkey as Madam Asri," I said again

" Trus Mbak Asri where Ndok is now not looking," asked Eyang Putri

" It's still out there maybe Ti, I'll be samperin for a while, yeah," I said moving to the front of the house.

And sure enough Mbak Asri is still out with the company of a man named Fatih. They seem to be chatting, I put my footsteps down.

I deliberately hid behind the window they were sitting in. I slightly put away the mosquito net that covered my view.

My ears faintly heard the name Mas Fahmi called. And surprisingly, Fatih knew all about the blue book. I'm more interested in listening.

Like something was stuck in my throat. Both palms of my hands tightly shut their trembling lips.

Didn't I hear wrong about all this. Why are they all hiding from me. No one wanted to tell me directly at that time.

I still don't move my position at the moment. I still want to listen to everything, listen to what I don't know.

My body's been slumping down for a while. My palm still silenced my voice access so that my sobs were not heard by everyone.

Until finally Ma'am Asri stood up and walked into the house. With a quick movement I wiped away the remains of my tears and tidied up my extremely chaotic condition.

I tried to pull the corners of my lips as perfectly as possible so that they would not see my fragility. Fatih was not long after following Asri went inside.

I ran over to those who had just stepped in. I looked at Fatih for a moment and then I looked at Asri.

" Mom, from wherever the hell I look for from earlier, awaited Eyang thu," I pulled the hand of Mbak Asri.

I caught the shock from their faces, but as much as possible I pretended not to see it.

Until in front of tivi again I did not see the program arrived that was seen by Eyang. I took a piece of the martabak and put it in my mouth.

I paused to take a drink, my hand stretched out to take the thing. My forehead immediately showed formless wrinkles.

Why are you this mysterious, but there is nothing different from other books. The only difference is the small lock is locked.

" Kung, the book is put here later hit by a spill of water you know," I said turning the book back.

" Ndok, someone wants Uti to tell you. Previously Uti asked you to still be able to control your emotions. Uti does not want you to become sick again after listening to it," explained Princess Eyang.

I looked at everyone in this room. I looked at them one by one and my eyes stopped at the soothing bead.

The owner of those two eyes also looked at me with warmth.

" What will you explain about this book. I'll listen to him" I said smiling at them all.

" May they not know my fragile face at this time" my inner self

Eyang started telling me everything when As Fahmi came home last time. He came with a large package covered in wrapping paper.

Fahmi asked permission to put the gift in my room. He also asked permission to put it on the front wall of my bed.

The gift is a photo that was deliberately printed in large size. Inside the vigura are two pictures that look very happy. Pictures of men and girls smiling sweetly while holding a man's arm beside him.

They explained alternately, I did not look my sad face even in front of them.

"Vey, let's see Fatih Ndok. Anybody knows every time you look into those eyes you find your Masmu again. Do you feel it Ndok," asked Eyang Kakung to me.

I still stare at those two eyeballs. I was really surprised by what Akung I said. It's true I see Mas Fahmi in those eyes. My mouth doesn't budge at all.

" Vey, you should know Ndok. Actually in this book there are some messages that Masmu wrote for you. Especially about Fatih at the moment. You want to know from Eyang's mouth what you read yourself the contents of the book," asked Eyang Akung.

" It's up to you, if I read all the books I'm afraid I can't control my emotions. I'd better tell you now what this all means" asked me, who still saw Fatih in front of me.

No words came out of Fatih's mouth. He still chose to be quiet. I don't know what he's thinking right now. His face was very flat and unpredictable.

" Deg, actually Masmu before the accident was talking to all of us. If, someday, anything happens to him, Masmu will donate his cornea to his cousin. Upon learning that we were all shocked by what Masmu said. Father, Mother, Mother and also your Father did not understand the words of Masmu at that time. Remember no, when you ask Princess Eyang to accompany you to sleep. At that time Masmu also talked about the desire to help his cousin Fatih. Fatih had previously had an accident and resulted in her not being able to see. Masmu felt sorry to see Fatih had to lose her ideals. You also write a letter to give to you. Before the accident happened Masmu had asked your Uncle to help him. Your father and mother also agreed with what Masmu asked," said Asri.

The explanation was enough to shock me for a moment. I didn't know it was the eye I'd been missing all along. Now I began to no longer be able to withstand the turmoil that felt like wanting to get out.

My chest feels very tight, like there is a heavy object pressing on my body. I sobbed to hear the narration from Eyeang Kakung and Mbak Asri. I covered my face with both palms.

Those who were there could no longer endure the sadness I felt. I cried so much that while I was still closing my face there was a hand that was embracing me.

NOTE: IT IS BETTER TO BE SICK AHEAD THAN TO KNOW WHEN EVERYTHING IS GONE.

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