SMILE BEHIND THE SORROW

JUST WANT TO BE ALONE

My crying began to subside as that burly, warm hand touched my shoulder. I opened my palm that covered my face.

I turned my gaze to that hand before I really knew who the owner of this hand was.

The look in my eyes was met with the look in her eyes that was so comfortable, warm, peaceful. Sick, why am I the only one who doesn't know this.

I didn't think that Mas Fahmi had donated his cornea for his cousin. He was willing to do all that, he was willing to lose his corneas.

It was his maturity that made me want to be with him always. I ran towards my room, right now I want to calm my mind and my heart.

There was the sound of knocking on the door and screaming calling my name repeatedly. I'm not angry or disappointed, nor do I hate everything. I just can't imagine so pure that heart.

I walked towards the photo he deliberately put on the front wall of my bed. My cry is getting louder and looks so bitter. I ignored the voices that were still calling my name.

I took that frame off the colored wall that looked harmonious. I looked at that white face, I rubbed my brother's picture. So good is your heart without caring for yourself.

What if you're still alive, do you still want to donate your corneas. My heart and my mind are now completely unable to accept.

My legs can no longer support a body that is getting weaker and weaker. Finally my body fell along with the vigura I was holding. Before actually touching the tile, there were faintly a few approaching sounds.

It felt so light as I was currently flying. I still had a slight awareness, looking blurry and dark instantly. My eyes are now closed perfectly.

Next I don't know what happens next.

An hour passed but Vey had not yet opened his eyes. Everyone in there hoped nothing would happen to Vey.

" Deck, wake up deg. Don't make us all worry. Mommy's here soon Dek, let's get up Deg. Maafin Mbak, sorry we all," cried and pinta Mbak Asri who tried to wake up.

I slowly opened my closed eyelids. I was still silent to see all the people who were now gathered in my room.

I kept looking at them with my eyes. The Princess was clearly sad, again I made people around me pity me.

I turned my gaze back to Eyang Kakung, Mbok Darmi, and Fatih. He also looked worried just like the others.

" Mom," I hugged Mbak Asri who was probably sitting next to me.

Asri also cried when she hugged me. I could no longer endure the sadness that I intentionally snarled alone. Not everything I felt I told my family.

I loosen my arms to Mother Asri, I am still not ready to stare at everyone. I bow my head with my cry still.

" Okay, leave Vey alone first," I asked still with a face in front of tears and a head that was still down.

Without anyone saying everything slowly walked out of my room. I wiped the tears that were still flowing. I held my head up and walked to the window.

The sky tonight is filled with stars. I looked up at the sky that night, I closed my eyes for a moment. I inhaled the night air deeply, hoping to calm my heart.

I thought my vacation would be so much fun. I will feel that happiness again, but it was not in accordance with my expectations.

While I was still facing the sky, there was a hand that patted my shoulder. I turned my neck to face who was in the back.

When I know who's behind me right now. I immediately hugged him tightly. As if I wanted to complain everything to Mother.

Well, the person I currently hug is Mother. Maybe Ma'am Asri who told Mother. I don't want to think about who told Mother, right now I want with my position like this.

Cuddled by this my cry grew louder and more and more bitter. Seen by my eyes, in front of the room door there is a Papa who calms Mbak Asri, both of my Eyes, Mbok Darmi.

I drowned my face deeper in my mother's arms. Mother stroked my back shoulder. When I felt my crying had subsided Mother invited me to leave the room.

I am still faithfully hugging Mother, we walk while hugging. Until my mother and I landed our bodies in the chair. My smile was still a little heard by them.

No one is speaking at the moment. Everyone prefers not to talk about it first. At ten o'clock no one wants to leave this room.

Papa told Eyang to enter the room immediately as well as the others. But none of them got out of place.

" Sir, ma'am, you better get some sleep. Vey looks fine. Later let the Vey Papa accompany me here," ask Mother to both Eyang.

" No kid, let us accompany Vey and you here. Let Asri sleep in the room," replied Eyang Akung told Mbak Asri.

" No Eyang, I also want to accompany Adek as well. It's also his fault Asri can't keep Adek. Sorry Asri yah Bun, Pa," cried Asri again.

Eventually everyone decided to stay in the guest room. Silenced tonight everyone fell asleep.

When I felt my arm tingling that had been hugging Mother. Slowly stretching my arms, I realized that it was not just me and Mother who were here.

Papa, Mbak Asri, Eyang Kakung, Eyang Putri, Mbok Darmi and Fatih also willing to sleep in the guest room. They are willing to fall asleep with a carpet that is not so thick.

I looked at all the people who were fast asleep, I looked at their bodies one by one. A smile carved on my lips, when viewed like a fish newly laid out by its owner.

I closed my mouth tightly so that my laughter would not be heard by them. I left them all in the living room, I walked to their rooms to pick up their blankets.

I went in room by room, every room had two blankets and some didn't. The last room I want to enter is the late Mas Fahmi's room.

The room was now occupied by Fatih, I slowly turned the carved doorknob. It was a large display near the window of his room.

I ventured to enter it and find a blanket in the closet. When I closed the closet, I saw a photo attached to the front door of the closet.

A picture of my childhood and Mas Fahmi, I extended my hand to touch it. The shadows of our times together began to fill my mind.

Laughing, running around, joking, mocking each other still vividly remembered my memories.

" Fate so quickly calls you Mas. So quickly you took everything. You look so handsome in this photo. Why do you have the same heart as me Mas, but you promise will always be beside me until we become doctors," said I held back so as not to cry again.

" Give me back my smile like I used to, Mas, give me back my joy when I was with you" my tears broke out echoing in Fatih's room.

I sat in front of this chocolate closet and kept crying. Without me noticing my crying woke up everyone who had fallen asleep earlier.

" Vey," call Fatih.

I who heard my name called looked up to see who called me. I looked at her with tears that did not stop.

" I'm sorry if my presence made you this way. But, you should know anyway. I only found out when I could see again. If Fahmi is my donor," he said, staring at the photo attached to the closet door.

There was a look of sadness on his face, I put my face down again. The shoulders that are not vibrating are now getting stronger.

Fatih aligned her body in order to be able to

" I'll help as I used to when we were with Fahmi. I will try to be a big brother to you," I stopped my crying and looked at Fatih.

I shook my head in response that no one could replace Fahmi from my life. I stood up and knocked down everyone who was there.

Brakkk

I closed my door as hard as I could, and I broke the whole room. The disheveled hair, the eyes that were still filled with tears were very much like crazy.

Aaaarrrrgggghhhhc ....

My screams echoed throughout the house. Even I was sure the neighbors would hear it. I don't care if people say I'm crazy, I don't care.

The door slamming grew louder, panic was also heard from outside. My body fell down for the second time, and this time directly touched the floor of the room.

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