Second Road

Episode 4: Role and compassion

The second chance that I had obtained led me to a new path. Although not too sure, there may be changes later. Who could have guessed what life would be like.

It is the law of nature. You can only live your life without being able to peer into the future.

Some have said that whatever will happen will be set for you.

Like a movie screenplay, you'll just be an actor without being able to change the scene. And who do you think is the director? Of course the creator you don't even know what he looks like.

Doesn't that mean from the beginning this is something that's been set for me? And even you. Because literally, we never know what scene will happen next. And it will probably just follow the scenario naturally.

And do you know what? Everyone gets a different role, and you never know what role they play.

The more complex the roles they play, the harder it is for you to understand. And that means, the role that exists is not just protagonistic and antagonistic, but can be anything without you can predict.

And if you get caught up in their acting and movement, then that's when you'll lose.

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It's probably been three days since I got the title as a grandchild. The first day I walked with a little awkward feeling. I don't know why I've never gotten used to it.

He's a very nice guy. He made me food and let me watch tv. I was allowed to eat a snack and read his book which I don't know how many.

Yeah, I really like reading. Do you know why? Because that's all I've been able to do in the past. Every day I just spend being in a stuffy room full of old stuff and old books.

Do you know why I'm always there? For now, I'll keep it a secret.

Two days later it went just as well as the day before. No one knows what your destiny will be in the future. And that is what happened to me.

On the fifth day, I was sick again. My body temperature went up and everything was so painful that it felt numb.

I don't understand, I should have been free of this pain ever since I decided to leave my place. A place that has trapped me and toyed with life.

All day I could just lie down and sleep. My body weakened even to breathe was very difficult.

And right now I understand what it means to love. I never would have thought that my grandfather would wait for me all day and leave his job, even though I never knew what he was doing.

He fed me with porridge and gave me medicine. Even though I know he's not my grandfather, I'm still happy.

Unfortunately what grandfather has done only seems to be in vain. My condition is not improving. I saw his face begin to despair.

"I don't understand what's wrong with you." Grandpa took a breath for the umpteenth time.

"I'm fine, don't worry too much about this. I've been through this a lot."

A smile I forced sticking out of my reddened lips due to the high enough body temperature. I don't want him to worry about me too much. Just looking at it makes me happy.

"Haru, did you say you've been through this a lot?"

I nodded my head weakly. That's right, experiencing conditions like this was a common thing once. When I was stuck where I came from before.

"So, is this normal? No, this is not normal. Haru, can you give me a clear picture of what you said?"

It seems like I slightly missed in choosing the sentence, do I have to say everything? But I can't be honest for now.

"So I think I've been exposed to a little chemical or some kind of radiation that made my body end up like this."

I don't know what to tell him. And actually this is also a lie. Yeah, it's a lie. Where there may be chemicals or radiation scattered on the road.

I've really become a bad human being. I don't know how many times the lies have been told on my lips.

The man thought of something.

"Haru, can I take a bit of your blood for me to research? Your grandfather was a researcher and an expert in medicine."

I can hardly believe what I'm hearing. So, that's what he always does? When I sneaked in here first, he was always in a room I never knew what was inside.

"Trust your grandfather. Maybe we've only been a family for a few days, but maybe you've heard my name before."

"Your name?"

God, I'm stupid. I've been his granddaughter but I never knew his name. Why didn't I ever ask for it?

"Yes, my name is Arias Miguel. My job is in the field of chromosomes, genes and abnormalities in humans. So I thought I could figure out your body's problems."

"So you're.impossible.it's really hard to believe. I read the news about you in the paper. You're a genius researcher and inventor. Sorry I didn't ask you before."

The sound coming out of my mouth sounded a bit hoarse. Even so, I was amazed by him, barely believing. The one who raised me to be his grandson was a great person.

I put on a sorry face still in a lying position. The atmosphere was silent again, none of us started talking. There was only the sound of the wind-blown window panes.

"Don't think too much." Grandpa rubbed my head while smiling.

"For me, the most important thing for now is your health."

He stood up, then walked towards the door. I could see his tall body coming out of the room. Before long, he came back with a syringe and some other things.

"So, can I take your blood?"

I was silent for a moment. It doesn't seem like a problem. After all, a little blood won't be able to scrape through all the past.

"Yes, sure."

I'm breeding. After all, he had gone to great lengths to carry a syringe and the others. There's no way my mouth says no.

That happened very quickly. A cold syringe hit the surface of my skin and sucked a little red liquid inside. When the needle was removed, a little pain ran through there.

"It's over, does it hurt?"

Grandfather cleaned his equipment after pressing the injection marks on my skin with cotton. I'm shaking. How could a fourteen-year-old boy like me say that getting a syringe hurts. My pride as a man is at stake here. Well, honestly it does hurt a little.

"Rest, I'll learn this. I hope you'll get well before I finish."

For the umpteenth time he rubbed my head. I felt warmth and affection from him. After that, he left the room.

Now I live here alone. I'm tired of sleeping. These two days is all I can do. This room suddenly felt boring. Only the sound of the window could be heard.

This pain never changes. Before or now, it feels the same. Do I have to regret all this? But for what? There's nothing to be sorry about. From the beginning I was unwanted.

The old me was someone who was thrown away. They never let me be happy. They never thought about my feelings. The faces of those who once betrayed me began to cast a shadow.

Those who originally adored me ended up throwing me. Maybe because I never knew what role they were playing. I was fooled by their masks.

I used to lose, but now I won't. For now, maybe no one else will throw me. But can I really trust Grandpa?

Oh my god, stop putting me in this game of fate. Let me win this time.