
A saturday...
After school Julian picked me up in a classroom not worth a lover who picked up his woman.
He was already standing in front of the classroom today accidentally wearing his giver's army-colored sweater back then.
I began to step up to meet him as if this heart was swinging around for him.
"Cie someone started pdkt again." said Rena by touching my left shoulder.
"What the hell people do not intentionally.." I answered trying to show the aura of a mediocre face.
"Even today there are still these secrets that have been the modern era El is not the rich ancient times first ..." added Vey who makes me have to understand them this time because what they say is true.
"Gue first." I said in a worried tone because I knew they were rubbing me a thousand times.
"Yes be careful" Vey said in an encouraging voice.
"Hopefully Monday you can enter yes El" added Rena again with a mocking tone.
I laughed at their behavior.
I stopped when I was near him.
She always had a smile that I had never seen on anyone else's face other than Him, a charming smile and a perfect appearance that was just Him to me.
I began to set my heart so as not to hurt again I promise I will love him until later sometimes love makes us beguiled until sometimes common sense we do not believe when things we do wrong.
"Have not been ..??" he said enthusiastically seen the glare of the eyeballs referring to me.
"Yes" I replied by giving the code I was ready.
"Like it...??" julian asked me which confused me.
"What's...??" ask me with my eyebrows.
"The sweater." he answered making me look stupid.
"Yes thanks Jul" I replied in a soft tone.
Last night I made an agreement with Julian that he would take me home.
I glanced at the digital watch I wore on my right wrist I smiled when it was still noon there was no harm today I was alone with Julian, Julian, the man who approached me in a thousand ways and hurt me for a thousand reasons.
He started grabbing my left hand with the trained instincts our hands fused together to form an inner bond.
Honestly I'm still afraid I'm still nervous the pain I used to feel like slapping back my heart that's been recovering from this , but what if the matter of love is already on the verge of the eye other than we walk to try.
Sometimes my heart accepts but sometimes I have a dilemma.
As if thousands of words I can't decipher to mean just for a word of love.
We shake hands like the first beginning He approaches me the same feeling that I now feel, affection, longing for care and wanting is always nearby.
My heart began to be willing to accept him again because he was the opium that made me always fixated.
"El.." he said in a heavy tone.
"Yes." I answered while looking at the reflection of his face on the mirror.
"We go for a walk first yuk" he said by lowering his voice.
"It's up to you not to go home" I replied with mixed feelings.
"Ready darling"
He started slowly, as if He knew He wanted to enjoy a time we sometimes couldn't feel back.
We went around Jakarta until we got off in a grassy empty lot behind the school building.
I started coming down with Julian.
"El we sit there yuk" he said as he grabbed my hand again as if he did not want to let go because it was so tight with his gang.
We begin to sit on the edge of this empty land with dry leaves.
We are silent to each other trying to enjoy nature trying to be close to nature I look grateful sometimes our lives are happy for His will.
"El.." he said breaking the silence.
"Yes." I turned to look at those shady eyeballs.
"You're not happy if your heart is the same as mine again...?" he said that made my heart rhythmic, but honestly it was an answer that I could not possibly describe in front of him because I was struggling to build this love back.
"Hem.." I just answered him with a dullness.
"The old feeling still hurts" he said with a trembling tone with his index finger stuck to my heart.
"Udah died down" I replied with a smile.
"Yes no papa but I will follow the plot Jul" I said by forgiving his mistake but there was one thing I wanted to say about my pain at that time.
"You mean...??"
"Honestly Jul when our hearts want to force it heavy Jul to cram" I replied by looking the other way with a blank look.
"Yes I'm sorry I beg you to wear this again" he said as he held out the ring I had returned to him at the time.
I accept there's no harm in me trying it back She started putting it back on my ring finger.
Julian hugged me back on my shoulder with his sturdy hand, now it feels like my heart is starting to warm up and continue to be comfortable.
We are silent to each other, recalling the memories we have been through.
Slowly the sky seemed blackened followed by the drizzling rain of this unique melody was being fused in my heart the sound of tick tik, accompanied by the roar of this breeze was able to make my soul more calm, and being able to hypnotize me until I was seduced by the roll of romance.
Julian stood up he pulled my hand to follow him standing as He does now.
He began to hug my body tightly while kissing my lips with a feeling that made me not want to let go.
I'm happy God, because He's the man I love so much that I'm having fun with me.
Under your grace I do not deny that I am the perfect woman now.
Nature is envious because they feel alone and only lonely who accompany.
Rain continues to pour the two lovers laugh together as if lost all the burden on the shoulder.
They enjoy the gift of an unbeatable God.
They make out to each other to enjoy every second that continues to spin.his heart dances as if they were living in their world, dancing in the roll of love.
Nothing but a heart is united.
"Eliza I love you." shouted from one of them whose entire body was wet with nothing left.
"Yes Jul I love you too" said the woman, shouting as if they were being beguiled by the power of love.
"However I'm afraid Jul..." Julian stopped with Eliza's words.
"Fear what...?" he asked by washing the brave face so that his eyes clearly saw Eliza's speech.
"I'm afraid I'm hurt again because to heal it must be you.." Eliza replied in an up and down tone She felt like back pain that time.
"I promise El I won't repeat for the second time hold my promise" said Julian trying to shake Eliza's heart.
"But I'm still afraid of Jul.." Eliza said again with a soft tone.
"For what else.." Julian tried to get closer to Eliza.
"I'm afraid of losing you" Eliza's reply made her understand it wasn't easy for her to heal the wound
"So we turn it around" Julian said, confirming his connection with a tone of spirit.
"But there's one thing Jul" Eliza said again with a pleading gaze.
"For what...?" julian asked full of question marks
"We keep this a secret I don't want anyone to know if we turn it back" Eliza replied as she rubbed her face full of water with her hands.
"Why...?" ask Julian curiously.
"Because we are not yet grown up and it is not yet time" Eliza replied with a smile.
"OK I promise" Julian said confidently.
The two little fingers are fused together to form a cross finger of the promise sign that has been bound.
They are both happy, the universe is blessing them.
The rain began to subside but the sky began to dim showing the sun that began to sink.
"We go home yuk.." take Julian while reaching for Eliza's hand back.
"Yes" Eliza answered confirming Julian's order but Julian continued to look at the woman with a question mark smile.
"Why...?" eliza asked again curiously to find the strangeness of Julian's face
"I'm afraid you're sick" Julian said in a worried tone.
"As long as there is you I have Jul's cure because my pain is here" Eliza said with her index finger pressed against Julian's chest.
After that they both went home with the same thing as during the day.
Julian only smiled when he found his lover asleep on his shoulder.
He brought Eliza home almost night.