Rinai Rain

Part 29: Really love her

Part 29: Really

loved

Farel Star

The light of a smile emanated from the layer of a woman's lips there. Distant distance between the two corners of the lips that limit. Tucked a meaning that we can dig from between his lips. Looks sweet to me when his eyes narrow, when greeting someone. The white skin had a red hue in the area of his nose taper. Beautiful taper makes a firm shape. Occasionally the strayed hair was moving freely scattered past the wind.

I stared at him from afar while holding a bag. My feet kept moving towards the classroom. He looks loyal to the guitar he also carries. Together with his guitar. They have the same purpose as me. However, I can only throw my face when the place that became our destination deliberately brought together. I'm still heartbroken.

The heartbreak I felt combined with the rest of the seeds of love he left behind. Still blooming though not as beautiful as before. I wanted to be able to caress her smile directly, but it had all become unusual after everything that happened. He stayed away, I stayed away too. Stay away from problems and try not to bring it up and touch it.

Is it wrong for me to move away despite the pain I feel forming an elongated wound right on my heart? I walked away after he made me fall and fall again. He gave me no pause to restore my heart. Gluing a broken heart. Looking for the missing piece of heart.

Rinai my rain which I consider to be residing in Alvia is stormy. Didn't give the rainbow a chance to show its charm.

    Rain is not always coloring, sometimes stormy like a hurt heart. And Rain is not always clouded by black clouds, there will be rainbows and sun smiles that will replace the dark.

   That sentence has been my guide all along. Alvia heard only one of the two sentences, and did not know if I hid the other sentence from her.

The storm that was raging in my life was gone and gone. All the problems I had were slowly going away and not coming back. Depression, addiction to drugs\-drugs, and the difficulty of me forgetting my past, kept me long hidden by the ghosts of the past.

The love that gave me all that power. Falling in love threw all the problems on me and swept away the storm that blocked the charm of the rainbow and the smile of the sun. However, love is also back to drag the storm back. Raging violently in my heart.

The kumerenung in front of the flower\-flower where the bees play. Lean back on the cold iron chair. A place that spends my lonely time.

   The woman seemed to be approaching. Under the gaze of the morning sun humming with the singing of dancing birds, my eyes faintly looked at those round beautiful eyes. Looks clear and clear by the shade of lentic eyelids. His thick eyebrows reinforced his straight gaze. Straight is right on my two eyeballs.

The fragrance of his body began to approach, as if carrying a desolate disharmony. I stood up and tried to leave him. However, that soft hand touched my hand. It hindered my intention not to meet him.

"I want to talk to you" he said slowly. "I beg you to listen to me again."

I can't hold back. The seeds left in the heart still want to bloom, no matter how much hate is affecting it. His hand led me back to sit. I haven't felt alone with him in a long time like this.

"Please talk as you please."

"I never had any intention of hurting you. Okay, you've seen it all. But that was beyond my expectations, Rel. He's the one who's trying to start."

"I don't know what else to say, Alvia. Not everything we see can be taken for granted. You don't know what it's like to get back down when things slowly get better. You grow love so easily, but you easily instill hate that covers it, too,"

I looked into his eyes. His face was not as bright as usual.

"I'm not angry with Alvia. I was disappointed, I said slowly.

   I let go of the touch of his hand and stood up leaving Alvia. His face was flooded with tears. I don't know what tears are coming out this time. Is it directly proportional to the feeling he is feeling right now? or just a compassionate lover thanks to a mistake he made? Only he and his dusk know.

"You know what I was thinking when Zaki tried to kiss me?"

"What?" Steps stopped.

"You, Farel. I feel bad because it was made that way. I realized that I had someone worthy to kiss me. I realized I had hope. Hope I'll hang on to the one I love."

"Didn't you enjoy it?" my many.

"I don't enjoy it, Farel. Trust me the same. Don't you want to defend me? Is that the feeling you're keeping right now?"

"feelings? Is that a feeling? Meaning love?

"You can't keep the love you've been fighting for so long?

I threw away my face. I couldn't see the flow of tears wetting her cheeks. Wash off the thin powder he used before going to school.

"Love is gone in a twilight, Alvia. Don't ever see me again,"

I left her, complete with the tears she felt. The wind that blew, swayed a fragile and desolate soul like myself. Trying to melt a petrified heart out of hatred. My numb heart didn't think about how honest the tears she let out from earlier. My too big Egoku cannot accept.

My feet ran towards a place. A place where I am alone to shed tears. The table came back in handy after a long time I hadn't seen him. My tears are shed to tell stories.

I still love her. I really love her. However, I was not ready to accept him. I still want to be alone and alone again. Pondering, giving my heart time to recuperate.

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