Rinai Rain

Part 19: The Random of Dusk

Part 19: The War

Twilight

Farel Star

I woke up in a white room with a slight fragrance of the perfume of the room. The location of the TV in this room is not like the location of the TV in my room. The TV is located on the wall and tends to rise to make anyone raise their chin if they want to watch it. I heard the sound of laughter typical of Spongebob cartoon that was playing on TV. Usually my sister always watch it when the morning welcomes. Maybe he forgot to turn off the TV while he was here.

Not far to my right, there was a window that immediately showed me the smiling sunset. The window was deliberately asked to open so that I could freely breathe the twilight air. I don't care sometimes there is a thin smell of smoke that is always there in Pekanbaru. This time I was waiting for the twilight as usual. Of course without him, the first dusk waiter I've ever known.

Fluid droplets of infuse break the silence that is haunting the self. A quiet sound filled every corner of the room. The hose extends until it is stuck in the left hand. It didn't hurt when I put it up, but it was enough to make me bite my lip because it was injected twice.

   Emptiness goes away when the sound of the doorknob opens. I don't know who came after my sister and mother came home to take care of the house for a while.

The narrow-eyed woman walked in wearing black-handled glasses. His blue hijab was so fused with the clothes he was wearing. The perfume sprinkled into his nose as he put something beside me. A large bag containing a wide variety of snacks was placed on the table.

"What's that much for?" I asked Cessa. He did not answer directly. He looked at me first and approached.

"Sarah and I will take care of you tonight. Of course we don't want to die of hunger. Oh yes, you cannot ask. Check your blood positive for typhus." Cessa touched my forehead to check my body temperature which from this morning was always hot.

Cessa turns on the TV which is directly fixed on Spongebob cartoons that are still continuing. He seemed to be interested in the cartoon and immediately sat down beside my feet. He casually folded his legs while staring at the TV screen without caring for me who was lying sick.

I tried to grab his hand. I'd love to tell you everything that got me back down. He may fall, but his heart shares steel. Too strong to be fragile in the face of a storm. I'm fragile and I'm trying to nurture my lost spirit.

"Cessa, I can't sleep for four days. My mind went back to rich chaos first. The power of depression came back, the nightmare came back," I said.

   He got out of bed and immediately looked for a chair to hear my story.

"You just need your strength again Farel. All this time you can handle everything. It's even tougher than this" Cessa replied. He clasped my hand tightly, as if giving me that power.

He stood up straight. His eyes could not see me.

    "I know, I saw the medicine in my room. Your blood test also indicates that you are taking the drug. Why the hell are you drinking that? I told you, right?" cessa asked with her tone up.

   Suddenly my tears came. I saw again my bleak days when I was bound to the drug. My addiction to tranquilizers tormented me. My body is getting weaker just to temporarily remove my thoughts.

    It was really bad. I never thought I'd be a drug addict like that.

"You don't know how I am, Cess. Depression tormented me. I did not sleep for four days because the symptoms of depression were coming again. That's all I can do to calm down a little."

Plaque!

   That hand was stuck to my cheek. He slapped me hard. Feeling sick and stuck.

"You promised me that you would get well and not drink any more. You never know what will happen to your body. You can over dose," Cessa replies to me.

    His eyes looked glazed over and slowly his tear line ran along his cheeks. I grabbed her hand and let her fall into my body. I hugged him tightly.

"Why should I love Alvia, not the same you who always cared about me? And why can't you love me and instead choose Azka who never cared about you at all, Cessa?"

   I cried in his arms shouting both names that were becoming a storm in my life. Cessa didn't answer. He allowed me to shed all the tears that had been held up all this time.

His breath slowly I heard.

    "Love never chooses with whom it will dock. It is only we who decide to stay or fight" said Cessa slowly. "He once loved me Farel and I still see the same gaze he first said to me."

The twilight wind blew slowly entering the room. I let him move to get rid of all the problems. The scent of twilight that he brought here gave a new meaning waiting for dusk this time, a little decorated with tears and emotions.

    Tears that spilled slowly throw away the burden that had been there so far, then came a glimmer of a smile that painted joy on each of our faces.

    Sometimes it happens in friendship. There is no friend like us who is always close without being seasoned by the seed of love. God kept it so we could stay together.

"Assalamua'alaikum."

   Someone came calling. His voice sounded like twilight.

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