Rinai Rain

Part 18: Tears

Part 18: Tears

Farel Star

There is a star at the end of my name. Shining brightly without ever extinguishing and just afraid to shine in the morning. Not that he did not want to show his light, but he respected the sun who wanted to illuminate all. When the light begins to fade when the bright red of dusk welcomes, then the star with a moon smile accompanies in the middle of the silence of the night. It is small, but everyone knows it is big. Only distance hid his greatness.

I love the stars at night, but turn to the rain during the day. I hate the night rain that will wipe out the stars in the sky, but I miss it when the sun is looking for me. Rinai rain symbolizes the struggle of life that I have experienced. Bitter life like a rainstorm. The storm will disappear and be replaced by a rainbow as a sign of a passing storm.

My life used to be so dark that I was lost by the darkness of trouble. My father hates me, my family bears shame, even the entire community excommunicates me who is considered the cause of the problem. The peak when I was illegal goods was suddenly there was me who dirtyed my pride and my family to this day. Even my relatives excommunicated my family. They think my family failed to educate their children.

I didn't think that could happen. I never wanted him to come to me. This problem weighed on my family's mind until my father fell in front of my own eyes. The disease that he had always dreamed of relapsing just like that. I also did not expect that it also took away the person I was most proud of all this time. The one who introduced me to the beautiful night star and the cool rain.

I never felt love that long. My mind is full of pages of the past that haunt me anytime and anywhere. It hurts when it all comes back to mind. I can't feel love, not even for the seeds. All I know is fear and despair.

I saw a couple of lovers there. It feels warm with a tight hand. The cold rain could not enter through their storm. My eyes were weak enough to lift up their petals, but there was a force that kept me open. It is ********smile next to the man. Together across the rain that continues to pour.

Cessa beside me indulged herself by leaning her head against my shoulder. I've been as weak as Cessa ever since. The hug knocks each\ of our hearts to re-think, what does it mean to love?

    We see our loved ones love each other without thinking about the heart that is being hurt. Right on that night, Azka and Alvia officially harmonized their promise.

I'm sorry to ask Cessa to show me where Alvia's house is. I wish I wouldn't see something like that. It hurts when a loved one is snatched away by someone else. I know they deserve to love and be loved, but this pain masks the reason to stay. I'm back in ruins. Rinai my rain came back stormy, removing the rainbow that was waiting across.

Suddenly everything looks dark. All I felt was the sigh of Cessa calling out my name\-call, until finally the voice came in my half conscious.

"Farel!" Alvia called my name. But I was too far away to regain consciousness until everything was completely\-dark and silent.

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I heard the teardrops like the first raindrops that fell into the bathing pool. I felt soaked my cold hands. Even if it is wet, slowly give it warmth. I looked for the drops all around me, but they all looked dark. Is there something wrong with this world? I thought to myself after realizing that I was not where I should be.

Farel realize!

Instantly a glimmer of light flashed before me, making my eyes glare and fall. My eyes slowly opened. Everything that was dark was now slowly becoming clear. This light blue painted room remembers me as a place in school. The dense smell of medicine mixed with the fragrance of the perfume who did not know who was wearing it. A fan hanging on the ceiling\-ceiling. My left hand felt heavy and tingling, like something was squeezing him from earlier. My head felt heavy to move, but I still forced it to look to the left.

"Wake up Alvia" I said. Shortly afterwards he woke up wiping his puffy eyes.

That glimmer of smile bloomed as he looked at me. His hands widened and immediately hugged me. I can't hold back. I let him hold me tight without stopping.

    "You're making me worry about Farel." His words are like a soft caress of me. I can't answer. I can only enjoy the care in my heart.

I let go of his embrace before Azka saw this. I know how he feels when his girlfriend is hugging someone else. "Don't hug me like this, Azka will see it."

He let go of his embrace. His hand wiped the tears that came out as he hugged me. The thin makeup on her face seemed to be slightly washed away by tears.

"Where's cessa?" my many.

"To class with Azka. I was waiting for you earlier," replied Alvia.

I saw my hand. The eye drops that washed my hands were his. She cried in my hand as long as I fainted. I'm sure of it.

"It should be Cessa who takes care of me!"

"Farel, do you love him?"

What kind of stupid question is this? Enough of you to break my heart, don't ask me questions that make me feel stupid.

"Yes, just as you love Azka," I replied briefly. I immediately tried to stand up. I left myself sitting. I don't care about his services that I cared so much about earlier.

I'm sorry I had to lie to my own feelings, I said in my heart.

My body is so helpless. My steps staggered\-staggered towards the door. My view is not so clear, it looks shadowy. It might be the effect of the medicine I was taking a few hours ago. The medicine that always accompanied me when I was hit.

At the door Cessa and Azka were standing. My move really\can't hold on anymore. I dropped myself into Cessa's body. Fortunately, he was still able to hold my weight. I really\-can't take it anymore.

"Cessa, I'm sick, help me," I told her. A little spoiled sounds.

"I won't let you get sick Farel. I'm always there." those words really calm my heart. This woman really cares about me the most.

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