Reaching the Heart of the Widower

Looking Forward

After finishing the bath and getting dressed, I invited Kenny to eat together at the dinner table.

Kenny joined us without refusal. Maybe because he's hungry too, which I know, since he left his house yesterday, he hasn't had a chance to eat.

"Eat a lot of Ken! Now you're getting thinner!" father Said.

Mom added the side dish to Kenny's dinner plate.

My mom and dad loved Kenny a long time ago, so they wanted to marry me to Kenny, because of our parents' relationship that looked like a brother.

When Kenny prefers Felly, Father and Mother were disappointed, even they joined me to continue my studies in Malaysia.

Nothing but to forget Kenny.

But the more I went away from her, the harder I got to forget her.

Until finally I decided to return to Indonesia, even applying for a job at Kenny's school, without any intention to snatch him from Felly.

It's not in my mind to snatch Kenny, he's not mine, but to keep loving him in my heart, it's not a sin, is it?

Mom started putting some food in the bushel.

"Din, take Kenny home later, and bring this food for Mr. Banu!" mother said as she placed the closed branch on the dining table.

"But Ma'am, I'll be home to pick you up?" ask me.

"Yes, you take it easy Din, you can also help Kenny take care of the baby, count on you to learn if you have a baby!" cetus Father.

After we finished eating together, Kenny said goodbye to go home, I had to come with Kenny to his house, actually I am also happy you told me to come with Kenny, Kenny, I got to meet that cute and adorable Icha and Baby Al.

Along the way we kept quiet, I was also confused about where to start.

"Thank you Din" Kenny said suddenly.

I looked towards him.

"Thank you for what?" ask me.

"Today I was so frustrated, I was desperate, it felt like my world was lost in the earth, I didn't even want to live anymore!" kenny.

His eyes were looking straight ahead, but I knew they were empty, eyes that had no more life light, for Kenny, Felly was his world.

Suddenly there was a pain in the corner of my heart, how lucky Felly was to be loved by a Kenny Wijaya, the man who had captivated my heart long ago, the man who had always been in my dreams.

Ah, cooking I'm jealous of the dead, I'm sorry Ms. Felly.

"Ken, now you try to answer me, is it with you behaving like that, even indifferent to your children, Ms Felly would be happy? Answer Ken!!" I'm yelling at Kenny.

Kenny remained silent without giving any answer.

"Icha didn't take the class exam, now that she's changed like she used to be, a reclusive and loner, you should have strengthened her, not made her weak!" continue me.

Kenny was still silent in his own mind, as if I had never been next to him.

"Baby Aldio too, he was very small to understand the meaning of loss, should you be his Papa, continue to accompany him and love him, remember Ken, Baby Aldio was born from your seed!" my firmness.

"Enough Din! Enough's enough!" kenny Excited.

"You why Ken? Feeling guilty?? Wake Ken!! It's time you got up from your slump! You still have responsibility for your children!" I patted Kenny's back hard.

Kenny remained unmoved, until we reached Kenny's house.

We got out of the car and went into his house.

"Where's Mbok?" kenny asked Mbok Sumi who was sweeping the terrace.

"Again rest in Mas's room, Mas Kenny just came home? It was the same question as Icha!" suhut Mbok Sumi's.

"Inside, again help Nur miliin Dedek Al!" mbok Sumi replied.

Kenny rushed inside, and I followed him behind him.

"Battle!!" Icha rushed straight at Kenny and jumped straight into his arms.

"But where have you been?? Papi don't go stay with me! Now there's no Mami, Papi don't stay with me and Dedek!" Icha.

Kenny is seen hugging Icha tightly.

"Sorry Papi Cha, Papi promised not to leave Icha and Dedek Al, Papi promised!" kenny said while kissing Icha's hair.

Icha turned towards me who had been silent. I'm confused and awkward in this house, let alone I'm alone now.

"Miss is here? Miss Dini took Papi away, huh? That's why Papi didn't exist!" icha cetus.

I was stunned to hear Icha's words.

"It is precisely Miss Dini who inter Papi went home, because Papi's head was dizzy, Miss Dini helped Papi!" kenny defended me.

Kenny then approached the baby and began to lift him in his cradle.

It seemed that he was already aware of his responsibility towards his children.

"Duh Papi's handsome son, big fast huh Al, later help Papi in school!" kenny said while kissing the baby.

Icha is spoiled beside Kenny, now only Kenny hopes for the little girl's sari, because Icha only has Kenny.

"Ken, here's baby Al I'm carrying, I want to take him for a walk ahead for a while!" say me.

Kenny then handed his little baby to my sling.

"If you're tired of you taking a break, Ken, let me take care of Baby Al" I bargained.

Kenny just nodded his head then immediately stepped upstairs towards his room.

I immediately carried Baby Al to the front garden of the house, not to forget Icha's hand.

The boy now desperately needs the attention of the adults nearby.

"Cha, look at the grandpa, it's funny!" I said to Icha.

"It's funny Miss, but because Dedek Mami left! said Icha. his face turned cloudy.

"Don't get me wrong Dedek Cha, Dedek Al is not wrong, he's a kid, doesn't understand anything!" my word.

"Then I have to blame who dong is?" ask Icha.

"Icha can't blame anyone, because this is all God's will!" my answer.

"Why doesn't God love me and Dedek? Why did God let Mommy go?" ask Icha again.

This kid is so critical, if he hasn't found an answer that satisfies him, he won't stop asking.

"God always love everyone including Icha and Dedek, God take Mami because God wants Icha to be an independent child, smart, Mami can see from heaven you know! If Icha continues to be sad, lazy school and lazy to learn, Mami will definitely be sad!" my spoken.

"really?" ask Icha. I nodded my head.

"If Icha is sad, Papi so follow sad you Cha, so Icha do not be sad anymore Cha, Icha must be spirit as before, even though there is no Mami, there is still grandfather, there is still no grandfather, Mbok Sumi and Mbak Nur, also papi!" obviously me.

Icha's face began to look bright.

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