Reaching the Heart of the Widower

The Teachers Meeting

This afternoon I hid in the guest room, I had everything ready, because soon fellow teacher Bu Ira will come to discuss one thing at Bu Ira's house.

Inevitably I must hide, and not make them suspicious at all, actually I can not stand this condition, how uncomfortable I am constantly hiding in the house of Miss Ira, Ira, I don't know when.

While now my mind is getting more confused, plus baby Aldio who is sick and still hospitalized, I keep thinking, especially my mother is also in an unhealthy condition, My head is really dizzy!

Do I have to get out of this hiding place? Did I just finish this whole thing? Honestly I'm tired too, just for a Kenny, I've sacrificed a lot of things, do I have to be that selfish?

Some people were already in front of Bu Ira's house, it turned out that the teachers had already come, I could peek out of the guest room window, my eyes were glaring as I saw Icha was among them.

I frowned, why would Icha come to Miss Ira's house? Maybe Kenny will come to Miss Ira's house.

My chest suddenly ticked hard, rightly my guess, before long Kenny appeared to walk after the teachers, and also Icha who had first walked towards Bu Ira's house.

Ms. Ira was seen opening the door and heard her welcoming voice, they then went inside Ms. Ira's house and sat in the living room, Kenny who followed behind him also entered the house of Bu Ira, making my heart more willing to be dislodged.

The guest room I was wearing right now was right next to the living room, when they all entered and sat in the living room, I could clearly hear their voices.

Because the house of Bu Ira is not too wide and above the door of this guest room there is an air vent so it will be very audible, the sound of people in the living room because it is located next to each other.

I then walked towards the door, I was trying to peek out of the keyhole of the guest room door, I could clearly see they were sitting on the living room sofa, my heart was pounding even more, I saw Kenny sitting there holding Icha.

Actually I miss Kenny and Icha very much, I haven't seen them up close in a long time, but from this keyhole I can see them even though they are only a few meters away, but I could clearly see the face of Kenny who happened to be sitting while facing the guest room door that I was wearing at the moment.

Miss Mona was also present at the meeting, although she was a new teacher, but she seemed very competent in advancing Kenny's school, Kenny's face looked flat, somehow there was his expression that looked lost, not like the Kenny I used to know.

Ms. Ira seemed busy serving drinks and snacks underneath from the kitchen to the living room, as a chatting friend.

"So how is Mister, regarding the prospect of our school status being transformed into an international school?" ask Mr. Budi who was seen sipping a drink served by Ira's mother earlier.

"Try asking directly the curriculum section, How is the planning proposal?" ask Kenny back.

I was a little surprised, it turns out that Miss Mona has risen to the position of head of the curriculum, which is indeed competent because she is a graduate abroad.

I kept stealing their talk from behind the door, a little bit of pockmarked as to what they were going to talk about.

"Lho, it's better that Mister Kenny directly explained, so that we can all be clear, that time we will discuss Mister!" the voice of Miss Mona.

"Don't overburden mister, let alone Mr. Kenny just lost his wife, we should be these teachers who continue shoulder to shoulder for the progress of our school!" said Bu Yuni, one of the teachers at Rajawali school.

"But personal matters should not be confused with work problems, Mr. Kenny also knows professionalism!" hatch Miss Mona.

"It's already! we should not argue, just like this, Miss Mona will just explain what has been planned, so that Monday tomorrow I will advance to Diknas!" said Bu Ira mediate.

"Truely said Mrs Ira, we as teachers must be wise, do not need to argue or blame each other, besides we come to the house of Mrs Ira right in the framework of friendship too!" said Mr. Budi mediate.

"But I want to go home!" suddenly Icha's voice whining, spontaneously I sharpened my eyes and ears.

"Beauty soon, you're not finished yet!" kenny said.

"But I'm bored here Papi! I'm tired from school, I want to play, I'm bored!" Icha exclaims whose voice has now started to rise.

Duh Ica It was so sad, it felt like back then I wanted to run out of the room and hug the boy, but I held him back, Kenny must have been a hassle, really, Mbak Nur and Mbok Sumi are busy taking care of baby Aldio in the hospital, inevitably Icha must join Kenny, Mr. Banu is also old and his health is also declining, it was impossible to keep Icha completely.

Suddenly the feeling of guilt came back to me, pity Icha and Kenny, they looked so bothered, even Icha was still wearing a school uniform, even though it was late afternoon.

"Icha want no ice cream? Miss Ira's got ice cream in the fridge, come and get Miss Ira inside!" invite Bu Ira who looks close to Icha but Icha clasped Bu Ira's hand while shaking her head.

"I don't want to! I don't want ice cream or anything! I just want to go home! i'm tired!" shout Icha.

Kenny who had been seen silent since then seemed to be holding himself back, it seemed like he was holding back and controlling his emotions I gasped Why should I look at this scene firsthand.

"Here is Mister, his name is also a small child, do not be too dizzy, it is natural that he is fussy!" miss Mona said.

"I want to go home! I'm going home!" yelled Icha while crying.

My heart was filled as it was sliced with pain, What a pity Icha, He must have reached the point of tiredness, where he should have rested and bathed, but Icha is here at this hour with Kenny.

"icha! once again you make a fuss, Papi punish you!" jolt Kenny.

Icha seemed silent, but she could be heard crying sobbing while wiping her face with her tiny hands.

"I'm sorry Icha, maybe the time is not right for us to talk about school today, tomorrow we find time again!" kenny said.

"Yes Mister Kenny, it's okay, Mister should take Icha home, it looks like Icha is really so great, Pity she is a mister, especially when her mother is not around, where her mother has not died long ago!" said Mr. Budi.

My heart aches, Icha is very sorry, her mom is gone, she has no more support to be a mother, after I became a mother, I tortured them with my obscure departure.

Without feeling my tears keep flowing, I am really sad to see the incident in front of my eyes, they all do not know if I hear everything, my heart is so sad.

Kenny was seen holding Icha, then he said goodbye and out of Bu Ira's house, I quickly went to the bedroom window to see Kenny who went straight up to his car, and soon Kenny's car drove away from Bu Ira's house.

I immediately threw my body on the bed, no longer interested in hearing their talk, the teachers who were still in the living room of Bu Ira's house.

I was thinking, was wondering, actually whether my actions were outrageous, I did hurt Kenny, especially when he snapped at me about the photo of Feli, Feli, but for that reason I sacrificed everything.

My father, my mother, baby Aldio and even now Icha have all been victims of my selfishness, which only Kenny wanted to acknowledge.

I kept crying on the bed, for how long, until my head was completely dizzy and I was reluctant to get out of bed again, I was confused and Dilemma what I should do.

Suddenly there was a knock on the door in this room, I was aghast and opened my eyes wide.

"Miss Early! Please open the door! all the teachers are home now we're both home!" the sound of Bu Ira screaming from behind the door of the room.

Hearing the words of Ms. Ira, I took a breath and then I wiped my crying face, after which I slowly opened the door of the room, Ms. Ira was already standing there.

"They've all gone home, faster than the time has been determined, just understand Icha was a bit fussy Maybe he was soybean!" obviously Ms. Ira.

"Yes Ma'am Ira, I've heard it, pity Icha, it's all my fault! I'm not a good mother for the kids, baby Aldio is sick, now Icha is not taken care of because of me!" I said blame myself.

"Miss Dini don't like that, sometimes humans need their own, need privacy, also need to think!" said Mrs Ira.

"Yes Ma'am, maybe if I wasn't too selfish, I wouldn't have gone this long, but since I selfishly wanted to win on my own, that's why those kids became abandoned! I feel so guilty!" saskan.

"Yes already Miss Dini, there is still a lot of time and this opportunity to think and make a decision, now we eat yuk, there is still a lot of food at the dinner table, they were all in a hurry to eat just a little!" bring Miss Ira.

I nodded my head, after which I followed Bu Ira's footsteps into our dining room and sat facing each other at the table.

"Mom Ira, I think I need to end this!" my spoken.

"What does Miss Dini mean?" ask Mrs Ira.

"I have to make a decision as soon as possible, or there will be many more victims because of me!" my answer.

Mom Ira seemed silent, she seemed confused by my words just now, I was also not sure to make a decision, my heart was still worried, if maybe I could make that big decision, too, divorced from Kenny?

But I can still take care of her children, but not as a wife but as a friend as before.

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