Reaching the Heart of the Widower

In the Shadow

The sky was dark, dusk was turning into night. Kenny still seemed engrossed in the sky, which was now full of stars.

I remained beside him, accompanying his every delusion, for some reason, Kenny's face looked calmer, as if in front of him there was Felly comforting him.

There's something strange tonight on this beach, I'm sitting alone with Kenny, but I'm like a mosquito repellent, Kenny's engrossed in a world that I don't know what it is.

"Ken, it's late, let's go back to the villa!" take me.

"In a minute Din!" Kenny said.

I'm waiting for him in a minute.

I saw on my watch that time showed at 9pm, the sea breeze that night was so cold.

"Ken! Let's return! If you don't want to go back, I'll go back alone!" I popped Kenny's daydream.

Kenny turned his head towards me, as if he had awakened in the realm of his dreams.

"Din's? You want to go back? Let's go back to Din!" Kenny immediately stood up from his seat, then holding my hand walked towards Villa.

Kenny's hand tonight felt different, very tight and warm.

After we got to the villa, Kenny still did not let go of my hand.

Until he stood at the window looking at the vast expanse of the sea, he still clasped my hand.

Suddenly Kenny looked at me.

With a hard-to-do look in my eyes, Kenny began to approach my face and kiss my lips.

The kiss was so deep and soft, I was so happy and enjoying it, this is the kiss I've been craving all along, which I've always dreamed of, being able to feel the pleasure of Kenny's lips, Kenny's, the man I love so much.

"Ken!" lirih.

He remained silent, continuing his activities. Until he started unbuttoning the shirt I was wearing, I had goosebumps, was Kenny really going to do that to me?

His eyes stared longingly, after he took down all my clothes, he started to lift me to the bed, once again he started kissing me.

After how long she hugged and kissed my body, she began to undress herself.

I closed my eyes, not daring to look at Kenny's innocent body, afraid that this was just a dream and that I would soon wake up.

Slowly Kenny began to direct his own that was already very tense, when touching the object I was very creepy. So soft and warm.

In a single jolt, hers began to pierce through mine, a pain that was so intensely afflicting my body, I trembled with the pain, as much as I could endure it.

Maybe Kenny forgot that I was a virgin, he was less able to play soft.

I saw he was so passionate, maybe because he hadn't done that activity for a long time, I don't know.

From the pain, I finally enjoyed Kenny's game, he was so powerful tonight.

I kissed her lips many times, and finally tonight, I leave this crown to her, to the man I love so much.

Until the moment he was about to reach his peak, his movements were so fast and powerful, I let out a small scream.

"Felly, I love you!" kenny suddenly said.

I glared, under these circumstances why he called Felly's name, lest I be considered Felly, he did not mention my name at all.

My tears just fell instantly, my heart ached, even more so than when Kenny took my crown.

He was lying next to me when he had already reached his release.

I cried while hugging the blanket to cover my body.

Kenny hugged me from behind, he realized his mistake.

"I'm sorry Din, I'm sorry!" his whispers.

I didn't look at her, I could only cry, cry over my stupidity, which could only be Felly's shadow, without being able to be myself.

Kenny never loved me, in his heart and mind there was only Felly, even when he was doing that relationship, Felly was the object, not me.

I continued to cry while holding her pain in my lower body.

Kenny kept hugging me from behind, as if wanting to make up for all his mistakes, he didn't say much, just hugged me and apologized many times.

I remained unmoved, until she fell asleep from exhaustion. He still hugged me from behind.

Then Kenny's soft snoring sounded, he was already completely asleep.

I turned my body slowly, then I started to get her hands off my body, Kenny sleeping on his back with his innocent body.

I looked at that body, if he hadn't mentioned Felly's name, maybe tonight would have been my happiest night.

I slowly covered Kenny's body. I kissed his face. Even though he hurt my heart with his words, I still love him.

I started going to the bathroom, intending to clean myself up.

When I finished, I got dressed and lay down next to Kenny.

There's a blood stain on that bed, I let it go. I'll just get it back tomorrow.

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The morning sunlight came through the window of our room, I woke up to see the sun so bright and warm, I got up from my sleep and opened the window curtain of the room, an amazingly beautiful sight was displayed in front of me.

I turned towards Kenny who started to blink his eyes, he was still as innocent as last night, his body covered only by a blanket.

"Good morning Ken!" I said with a smile, as if forgetting my heartache last night.

"For Din, are you awake?" tanyakanya.

"It's over!" my answer.

"That night, I'm sorry if ... "

"That's Ken! I've forgotten about it, now you better take a shower, clean your body!" cut me quick.

I don't want to talk about last night anymore.

Kenny remained still in place, not budging at all. Then he turned to the bed by his side that was covered in blood, it seemed that he was beginning to realize something.

"Din, have you ... given me your virginity?" ask Kenny.

"You forgot what you did to me last night?" I asked back.

"Thank you Din, you gave it to me!" kenny said.

"Why thank you? Am I not your wife? I should have given it to you on our first night, but you didn't want it?!" I said. Kenny remained silent.

"I'm sorry Din!" kenny said, apologizing again.

"Yes, forget it, I've forgiven you!" my answer.

I started taking hot drinks in the pantry, and then I gave them to Kenny.

"Drink Ken, so that your body may be fresher!" my word.

Kenny drank the drink until it was gone.

"Thank you Din!" kenny said.

I put the empty glass on the table.

"Ken, now that you take a shower, clean your body, I also want to change the bed sheet, so that it's clean!" my word.

"Din, let it go, don't change the sheet!" sergeant Kenny.

"Why?" my many.

"I, like to do it one more time, like last night, with my wife Dini!" kenny said.

I brushed for a moment, since when did he acknowledge me as his wife? Just last night I was hurt because he called Felly's name, now he's back to messing with my feelings.

"But Ken ..."

Kenny flicked the blanket covering his body, I gasped.

There was already someone very prepared for the battle I saw there.

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