Reaching the Heart of the Widower

Start Fretting

Ever since I saw Kenny and Mona chatting in Kenny's room familiarly while joking, my heart suddenly fretted.

Kenny's room is a private room that only certain people can linger there, usually if there are important talks, Kenny will definitely talk in another room, he said, in the teacher's office or in the meeting room.

Today I went back to school with Baby Al, Kenny doesn't mind if I go with him.

As usual, at school I took baby Al for a walk around the school, while greeting various kinds of people, ranging from students, parents, teachers, school guards, canteen guards and more.

At break time, I deliberately played into the teacher's room, about to chat with Mona, because among all the teachers, only Mona who I rarely talk to, because he tends to withdraw and does not like to join other teachers.

"Well, Miss Dini, pinjem donk Dedek Al, who knows I'm quick to hear have a child!" said Ms. Iren who immediately took Baby Al from my sling.

"Yes Ma'am, please, Oya, where's Miss Mona? Why isn't he here?" my many.

"So Miss Mona was called Mr. Ken, he said he wanted to talk about a new library building project!" ma'am Iren replied while focusing on holding Baby Al.

The deg!

Again they go together, what is this? Why didn't Kenny talk to me first? Don't I also have experience teaching in international schools? Why go with Mona?

"Mom Iren nitip dedek Al for a minute, I'm going out for a minute!" I said to Miss Iren, who plays with baby Al.

"Oh yes Miss, long time is also okay hehe, happy to play with this cute and adorable baby!" said Ms. Iren.

Without waiting any longer I immediately rushed out of the teacher's room.

I immediately stepped my foot into Kenny's room. But in that room there was no one, where was Kenny?

I went straight to the principal's room, who knew they were there.

But again the principal room was quiet, even Pak Budi and Pak Yudi were also absent.

I immediately headed to the meeting room, who knew they were discussing something.

It's true that in the meeting room there was Kenny, along with the principal and Mona.

Mona is the new teacher, why she was included in the school board meeting, while the teachers who have not been included for a long time.

I want to go inside, but I have to be able to think clearly, I don't want to appear to make Kenny not sympathize with me.

I just stood behind the door of the room, waiting until the meeting was over.

It's been almost 30 minutes I stood up, suddenly I remembered the baby Al that I left to Miss Iren.

I immediately turned to the teacher's room, now Baby Al is in Bu Ana's arms, Bu Ana's tumben playing to the teacher's room.

I came straight to Ms. Ana.

"Sorry Mom Ana, I left my baby too long!" I said as I took Baby Al from Ms. Ana's sling.

"It's okay Miss, I'm happy to hold the baby!" sahut Bu Ana's.

"Where is Miss Iren?" my many.

"He's in Miss' class, checking on the student's assignment!" answer Miss Ana.

I nodded my head, then I walked back to Kenny's room, just to rest.

I put baby Al on the couch in the corner of the room. I leaned my shoulders on the sofa, then started to close my eyes.

Suddenly next to me was already sitting someone, I could feel it. From Kenny's perfume that is now next to me, because Kenny's scent has become opium to me.

"You are sleepy apparently, just continue your sleep, replace me who will take care of Dedek Al!" kenny said softly.

"Oh, no, I was just a little sleepy, not anymore!" my sergeant.

"You do need to rest Din, rest here, while waiting for the bell to ring!" Kenny said.

Regardless of Kenny's advice, I immediately sat up straight.

Then I started to face Kenny, I had to ask him what I saw.

"Ken, why did you take Miss Mona to the meeting you held with Mr. Budi and Mr. Yudi?" my many.

"Lho! How do you know??" Kenny asked back.

"It doesn't matter where I know, just answer my question!" my spoken.

"You don't misunderstand Din, I invite him because he has a lot of teaching experience, the knowledge of the reference books is also good, so there is no harm if I invite him!" kenny obviously.

"But why is it just him? While many of the more senior teachers and experience is also a lot!" my tukas.

"Din, what's wrong with you? Suddenly asking something unimportant!" Kenny said.

"What doesn't matter to you? Did you forget Mona was Ken's new teacher?? You even forgot that I taught at an international school with you!" I said with a voice that started to shake.

"I'm sorry Din! I think you're too jealous! I didn't mean anything to take Miss Mona!" Kenny said.

"Is it because Mona is similar to Felly's sister?" ask again.

Kenny then approached me and kissed my soft forehead.

"It's Din, forget it, if you don't like it, I won't take Miss Mona again!" cetus Kenny's.

"good. I don't like you taking Miss Mona Ken, please appreciate how I feel, even though I'm your wife now, I don't want my man to walk with another woman, for whatever reason!" my firmness.

"All right!" kenny replied briefly, clearly there was a look of disappointment that emanated on his handsome face.

"I'm sorry Ken, I'm sorry, is it wrong that I'm jealous of you? I love you so much Ken!" my spoken.

"Yes!" his words are short.

"You're mad at me, Ken?" ask me while bringing my face closer to his.

"No!" answer's short. Kenny seemed reluctant to talk to me.

I fell silent, realizing that Kenny had not really accepted me and loved me, even his treatment of Felly was very different.

I went back to experiencing it like I used to, connecting with him just because of a status.

Slowly my tears began to fall on my cheeks, my heart ached and sore.

Not because Kenny walks with Mona, but because Kenny's heart can't really love me.

It was a genuine feeling that came from the heart, it couldn't be forced, I looked at Kenny's face, whether I was so selfish towards him.

Just thinking about my own feelings, not paying attention to his feelings. I was guilty of restraining her heart, forcing her heart to turn to me.

I have to make a decision.

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