Prison of Love

Good at pretending

#6

First day back in college after a week absent.

I have also returned to my Kosan. Trying everything I can to get everyone back to normal.

I was thinking of returning home when Shinta's car had just entered the campus gate. If it wasn't for Shinta holding my hand, I might have asked her to stop the car and run back to Kosan.

The atmosphere of the campus is still the same.

It dawns on me no matter what happens to us, the world will go on as usual. Whatever steps we take, it will only affect ourselves, but not the world. Everything will still go, keep turning, leaving us if we choose to stop.

The losses belonged only to those who stopped while the others kept running.

I steadied my footsteps, confirmed my white pashmina position, then smiled towards Shinta

“Ready?” ask Shinta.

I nodded steadily.

As usual, we walked hand in hand.

Passing through each person, gave a smile and left them with a look of admiration.

Yep. I-i can.

Everything will go as usual.

The deg!

My footsteps suddenly stopped.

In front of my class, Andy was laughing with Mala, my classmate who always envied me.

He has loved Andy for a long time. When she heard Andy and I were dating at the time, she sneered and said that I had taken hers.

“Wow...Wow...! See who is datasangggg...”.

Mala laughs cynically followed by Andy.

Shinta tightened her hand, giving me the code to keep me calm.

Without taking a long time, I could instantly master my emotions and smile at them.

“Why? Kangen yes?” ask me while laughing.

Mala snorted angrily, she walked towards me then pushed my shoulder a few times with her index finger.

“Hey!!” Shinta emotions. He almost pushed Mala's body but I held his hand, asking him to stop.

“Naya... Oh, Naya...! How's nih? I know something that you've been hiding for a week.”.

“Oh yes? Thank goodness that's it..”.

“What?!”

I smiled again, pulled Mala closer to me, then grabbed her head while pointing my eyes at Andy,

“Thank God you know how your fate will be with Andy...! I have been dating him for 8 months, just broke up in all-out slander, what about you later? Humm... I was curious.”.

I deliberately amplified the volume of my voice so that everyone would hear my words.

Andy's eyes were round in disbelief. He stood up and half ran towards me.

“LACK DAWN KA.....”.

“Santaiii, Brother! Saintaii...!! You are not ashamed to yell at women in front of everyone gini.?!”

Suddenly Hengky was already standing next to me. Pushing Andy's body, forcing him not to continue.

Andy snorted in annoyance. His face was flushed with restraining emotions. He pointed at my face a few times and then left followed by Mala who had difficulty balancing Andy's footsteps.

Hengky smiled at me, “Good job, Naya..”.

I returned a short smile.

My heart was beating irregularly, my legs were limp.

Realizing my state Shinta hurriedly grabbed my shoulders.

“You're not papa, Nay?”

I'm nodding.

I have to be strong. I have to show everyone that I'm okay.

“We enter yuk class. Lecturer will be coming soon..”

I stepped into the classroom followed by Shinta and Hengky.

“Guyss...!! Naya's cured, Guys!!”

Hengky's shout was met with laughter and cheers from other friends.

“Nayaaaa... You do not enter a week the Hengky already feel like dying tuuu..”.

I knocked one of my friends back with a bitter smile.

Ah, men at first just look sweet, the edges are all the same....

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“You sure you're okay, Nay?”

Hengky pulled out a chair and sat down next to me.

“What si, Ky... I again eat niii..”

As always, the Campus Canteen is always crowded. Filled by students who just sit around, or who are alone with their partners, or in groups like us.

“Hengky lost her vitamins over the past week, Naya. It's only natural now that he keeps teasing you. You are a source of vitamins for hima..”.

Alfian, my classmate who was sitting together with us blinked his eyes at Hengky.

“Yes no, Ky?” He was still not satisfied with teasing Hengky.

Hengky laughed loudly. He cleared his throat then turned back to me, “What have you been sick for this week, Nay?”

“What matters now is that I'm cured, right?” I replied as I continued eating without looking back at him.

“YA AMPUUN...!!”

At once we all turned towards Nisa who was sitting next to Shinta.

“Hey, why the hell?!” shinta's face was a bit upset. He was shocked to the point of choking on hearing Nisa's scream.

Nisa did not reply, she covered her mouth with her right hand, her face shocked in disbelief.

His left hand handed the phone to Shinta.

Shinta picked up the phone while a little upset, “Awas aja if thisi....”.

Shinta's sentence stopped. His eyes were in disbelief. His expression was exactly like Nisa's.

I frown, “What's the matter?”

Hengky hastily snatched the phone in Shinta's hand.

His pupils moved following the writing on the mobile phone screen, his jaw hardened.

“This is what, Nay?” tanyanya did not believe.

Shinta took the phone in Hengky's hand and handed it to Nisa.

He smiled at me and continued his eating like nothing had happened.

“Spend your food, Naya. There is nothing..”.

I looked at Shinta in disbelief. My feelings are starting to get bad.

“What is the real information of this facebook status Andy, Nay?”

“Sengky!!”

Shinta shouted loudly. Giving the code so that Hengky shut his mouth tightly.

“He said what..? What the hell is this?! It's not fair that I'm the only one who isn't told about gini..”.

My mind has gone everywhere. Cold sweat drenching the palms.

Alfian took a breath, he handed his cell phone to me.

“Lu love to Naya, I am abisin you now!!” Shinta's eyes glared at Alfian.

“Let her know, Ta. It's not fair that everyone knows that he doesn't know what's going on, even though this concerns him”

Nisa holds Shinta's shoulder, giving the code for Shinta to give up.

Shinta was silent, she took a heavy breath and stood up and walked towards me,

“Don't be surprised, stay calm and don't overreact”

My heart was beating more and more unruffled, I gulped.

And my blood stopped flowing when I read the writing on my phone screen.

...FOR THOSE WHO WANT TO KNOW, I AM NOT THE SAME AS NAYA ANYMORE....

...YOU GUYS ARE VERY CURIOUS NYOBAIN NAYA, PLEASE!...

...HE'S DONE WITH ME!...

...*btw you're not gonna mengesel use him, emang he's as nice as that anyway! HAHA...

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“What is this news, Naya?”

Nisa asked while holding my hand, her voice soft, it was clear she was very careful not to offend me.

“You're serious about this stupid question like Naya?!” Shinta snorted in annoyance. His breathing is still irregular.

I'm sculpting.

I knew Andy would talk to me and come here about me, but I can't believe he did such a lowly deed on social media.

The figure of Andy I know is inversely proportional to Andy at this time.

Previously, he was very rational in various conditions. Emotions stable.

Even when he was confronted by some students who attacked him, accusing him of using natural disaster social assistance funds for personal gain, without difficulty he could resolve the problem calmly.

The words are well organized and well conceptualized.

But, what is this?

Are they the same person?

Why in an instant become two different persons?

“Can't be banned, Nay!! If what he says is not true, you come to him! Get angry in public! Let's not habit his mouth lemesss like a girl!!”

Hengky grumbled in annoyance. He looks as emotional as Shinta.

From then on he walked back and forth in the classroom that began to be quiet. The study hours are over.

“You guys why get angry anyway? Relax ajaa... I also do not why-why kok”.

I have to look calm...

“But Hengky really, Nay! He should be taught a lesson!!” Alfian hit his study table.

“Temen-temen... calm down.. This is my problem, let me take care of it myself. You guys don't have to bother delaying the time to go home just because of me..”.

“Can't do that, Nay! You're our temen! I don't want to get me here! I still really want just you who want my negor when we were freshmen. Only you are also sure I eat together while others no one cares about me”

“Nisa really, Nay. You're a good person, you shouldn't be called..” Alfian tried to convince me more.

There was a feeling when Alfian and Nisa said that sentence.

Honestly, I never expected anything from anyone.

I felt like what I was doing was supposed to be done.

God is never alpha in remembering every thing, even the smallest, that even we ourselves have forgotten.

There is always wisdom in every event.

There is always meaning in every tear. God will not allow us to go through every grief without teaching us a lesson we can reap.

“Thank you guys for the same attention I have. Seriously, I Apreciate it. But for now, we don't do anything. Just let him babble whatever he wants.

Wh why? Because that's what Andy wants.

He wants me to react and then make things more uncontrollable.

We let it.. we see, to the extent of what folly he will do..”.

“I-iyaa yes.. if you think about it, this is not like Andy's sister we know. He is usually calm and charismatic, so a lot of fans with him. Or is it possible that her facebook account was hacked by someone?”

Nisa blinked her eyes, making an expression as if she was thinking hard.

“Ya kaaaliii an ordinary Andy, his facebook account can be hacked people.?!”

I nudged Shinta's hand, asking her to be quiet

“Sorry, Nay...! Abisnya I gregetan sii same Nisaa superrr plain thisiii”

“Kalo I am not surprised. Everyone can go crazy in time. Especially if this is related to the problem of the heart or ego of a man.”.

I nodded in agreement to Alfian's words. Now it makes sense why suddenly Andy showed the other side of him. Maybe he's desperate, or I've offended him a lot.

“All human beings are entitled to be understood. We will not understand what someone feels until we experience it ourselves.”.

"Cila...! This is why I can't stop liking you, Nay! Your words always make me shut up”

"Muuulaaiii dehhh sii Hengky..” Shinta sneered in annoyance.

Laughter filled the entire room.

"Okay, we are looking forward to the next development... For now on disperse... Let Naya rest first”

Shinta's words were greeted by another nod.

Without waiting for a long time, one by one of them left then only the two of me with Shinta.

“Now there is only us, if you want to cry, please just... Don't hold it anymore... ”

I'm bowed.

Shinta knows best what I feel even though I hid it well.

Without being able to hold it, my tears pushed out.

The atmosphere of the classroom that had been empty changed with the sound of my crying.

I am, Naya Khairunnisa, the woman who is very good at pretending to be strong.

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