Prison of Love

My lucky?

2

"What's wrong with you, honey? Howdy?"

I'm woken. Ah yes, I'm on my way back to the boarding house. After a long day at home, the end of the semester is finally over.

Andy, my girlfriend of the past 8 months is smiling and holding my hand, "Is there a problem?"

Don't ask me why I know this religion so well can be in a man's car. I know, I shouldn't be dating. Religion forbids.

But whether this was due to my influence not being close to Abah, it felt like I wanted more affection and attention from a man. I want attention, praise, even a look of adoration.

Sometimes a little attention has melted my heart, although in many cases I hold my feelings tightly and brush it off.

"No papa. Maybe just a lack of sleep, "I replied slowly.

"If there is any story... I'm ready to shove."

The car is moving slowly. As usual, the capital city is full of traffic jams here and there.

Andy didn't pick me up at my house. Of course not. I could be scolded more and more by Abah and Mother.

He just picked me up at the bus terminal. As usual, he insisted on picking me up even though I told him I could take a taxi or taxi online.

"O yes, Brother tomorrow so go up the mountain?” ask me to divert the initial conversation, choosing never to talk about my family problems to the couple.

My boyfriend is the Chairman of the Nature Lovers Student Organization on our campus. A student majoring in civil engineering final semester. He is an idol for students and a leader for other students.

Many thought we would only last for three months.

How not?

I did not participate in any organizational activities on campus while he was very active in various organizations outside and inside the campus. He is an extrovert, and I am an introvert. He's friendly to anyone, his friends are everywhere, and me?

My God, I only have one friend and friend named Shinta. I don't know, I'm confused what made him sure I chose to be his partner.

"Son't you the leader of the group, how can you not follow? Must be dong, honey...

You don't want to come too? I think it's exciting if we go up together"

I shuddered in horror, imagining going up the stairs to the third floor on campus alone I was panting, let alone going up a mountain whose peak was not clear where.

"I don't know I'm tired. I won't be able to climb that mountain... "

"There's a sister... If you are tired, you can be a big brother," he said with a small laugh.

My expression changed immediately.

What the hell? What's so funny? She couldn't think I was a girl?

Seeing me who was just silent, Andy immediately stopped his laughter and then cleared his throat, "Joking doang, Nay... It's just angry anyway... Can't be joked, can you?"

Hey, what's going on? why do you think I was wrong?

"Still a long time no by the cost? I can't wait to rest in Kosan. It feels really tired.”

"A little while, 10 minutes. Oh yeah, I'd like to stop by my boarding house for a second, would I? Wallet's behind. You're laper, haven't you eaten yet?"

Hold still. I think I understand what this man is going in the direction of...

"I'm not a laper. Besides, I didn't ask for food, did I?"

"But I'm hungry, honey. I've been busy all day in secret.

I haven't eaten anything since morning. C’mon, Nay.. temenin I ate ya?"

"I'm tired, brother... Wanted to rush a break"

Andy took my hand, "Sebentaaar ajaa... Pleasee....”.

I took a deep breath.

Nothing is going to happen as bad as I thought, right?

"Okey, just a second"

"Naaa... Dongg! Jaa... Just a kook..."

Andy stepped on the gas deeper. He smiled widely while singing along to the music on the radio. Sometimes he looks at me and laughs.

While I was still struggling with my own thoughts.

Everything’s gonna be okay....

Nothing's gonna happen, Naya... Andy's not that kind of guy...

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Actually, my heart is shaky. It's my first time to a man. The first time I went into a boy's room apart from my sisters' room. I'm trying to calm down. My sweaty palms I hid in my black pants.

All this time I always refused every time Andy invited me to stop by his room for various reasons. I'm afraid something unwanted is happening there.

But, Andy was the first man who could patiently face me for more than eight months. My previous relationship always ended in under six months. It always ends for a variety of reasons.

Yep. Andy is different.he's not like the man before... He has always treated me well.

"Well in, honey." Andy opened the door to his empty room.

I'm not flinching. Great doubt rules the heart. Alarms of warnings repeatedly sounded filled my mind.

Ah, it's okay.nothing will happen..

“Why the hell? You're like a new first time ever into a kosan guy?” Andy laughed a little

“Ya... serious, Nay?? Really huh? Is this your first time?” Andy's eyes were round in disbelief

I fell silent, trying to find answers while concocting lies.

“Waaahh! Crazy... lucky damn me, Nay! Thank God I can get a girl like you.”.

“Trus how about me? Am I also that lucky to be Big Brother?“

“We’ll see, Nay... I can't possibly talk about all my advantages in front of you?”

Okay, he's right. I'm out of words. Besides without him mentioning it, I've memorized it out of my head.

“Come In. We can't talk outside standing here, right?”

There was no other choice, I followed Andy's steps.

The cost is wide. There is a living room, two rooms and a kitchen. Pretty fancy with black and white shades. I smell Montblanc legend. Smell herself.

“Wait here for a minute. I'll grab the wallet in room”

I nodded slowly.

My eyes turned around observing the contents of Kosan. For the size of boarding children, Andy's living room is quite luxurious. A wide black soft sofa complete with a long white table fills the front room. White color wall paint contrasts perfectly with the color of the sofa, making it look luxurious. It seems Andy is not bragging if his father is a successful cow businessman in his village.

“Naya... said you are tired? Just rest on the sofa... or want to rest in my room?”

Andy was already standing in front of me, his lips smiling while looking gently at my two eyes.

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I am the kind of person who likes to dominate.

From High School every time I go out, I have my own rules that neither me nor my partner can break.

Kiss no. Hug.

There was no kiss. Want it kiss cake forehead, kiss on the hand of the cake, let alone lips or other sensitive areas.

My rules were clear and until I went to college this fifth semester I never broke them. I ended my relationship with a man just because he asked me to kiss my forehead a few times.

“C’mon. It's called kiss dear,” he said at the time

There is no tolerance. I think, at that time it was just a forehead but who would guarantee it would remain a forehead?

But what am I doing now? I was alone in my girlfriend Kosan without any significant refusal.

Oh my... Have I lost my mind?

“Can I sleep here?” Andy pointed at my lap.

I was sitting there as if I was slapped.

“I want to go home now”

“This is your place too, dear... I'm kosan yaa kosan you... All mine it's yours too.”.

What the fuck? Is this all he bought? Money was still equally asking for the old man but his words were as if he was the one buying everything...

“I've told you the same brother right from the beginning we were dating? I don't want to..”.

“Hey... hey... relax!”

Andy cut my sentence while laughing sarcastically, “I will not forget. I also do not ask for macems from you... do I ask for a kiss? Request a hug? Ask to sleep with you? Don't you? I just want to sleep in my girlfriend's lap.”.

“I don't want to and I don't allow.”

There is no tolerance anymore. I seem to have lost my mind this time. I could have just said it when invited here.

“Okey. You want to go home? Go Ahead!”

"Yourself?”

“Ya!”

I should have realized from the beginning. Idiotically. You're a fool, Naya!

“But, Naya.. you see for yourself right from the beginning we entered the gate earlier there are many friends I saw us..” Andy walked slowly towards me, “and they also saw you coming in here without coercion, right?”

I choked, “meaning Big Brother what?”

“Okey, you really do not do anything here with me. Buti... do they know that?” andy's footsteps drew closer to me, urging me to retreat.

Oh my.... Oh my...

“No! Whatever else you think it won't happen!”

“Oooh... has started to be rude yaa call me ‘you-you’...?”

I panicked and reflexively turned to the door and realized that the door lock was no longer in place.

Why was I silent when Andy closed the door..?!

Why would I just believe that he said he just wanted to turn on the AC and the door had to be closed?

My steps stopped because my body was pushed against the wall.

Andy chuckled then immediately hugged tightly to my body that was still pressed against the wall, closing itself to me.

“You know something, Naya? It's been a long time since I wanted this..”.