Prison of Love

Between two choices

#15

I spent the night laughing. Hengky is very good at returning a smile on my face.

With his chatter, blink his eyes, or just simply insult the employees of the restaurant with his words.

Along the way home he continued to tell me about his favorite Anime film as well as how he was in the all-out omeli by Shinta after taking me to his cousin's house.

Shinta scolds him for conceiving the fact that Andy was her cousin's brother all along.

Pretending not to know his jerkiness.

“Hey, I try to tell you by continuing to express my feelings..” Hengky blinked her eyes, “But you never wanted to accept my feelings..”.

“Sorry, Dear..” I smiled gently at him

Hengky laughed softly, he rubbed my head, “I'd really like me to be with you.”

My heart hurts to hear it. It hurt to know that I wasn't the Naya figure he expected.

“Naya..?”

“Eh, yes? What...?”

“Tuh kaan daydreaming againii.... I said love you earlier..”.

“Oh, Yes... I love you too.”.

“Gak really use? I used it so much earlier..”

I laugh, “Iyaaa I sayaaaanggg bangeetttttt same kamuu.”.

Hengky laughed. He turned his head towards me and bit his lip, “Yes God, I was shaking with you..

“Why not pinch?”

“Later I was sick..”

“Loh, how even you who are sick?”

“You are in pain, I feel more pain..”

“Astyria...!” I laughed while hitting his shoulder.

Hengky laughed.

Silence suddenly took hold of us.

I was engrossed in looking out the window while Hengky was engrossed in singing following the sound of music on Radio.

Surprisingly he pulled my hand, then put it on his chest, “I don't think I deg-deg-an really?”

“Eh? Oh my God, I was surprised.

Yes..kalo you're not stubborn I'm even scared, darling.”.

“I love you so much, Naya.

Whatever you're dealing with, don't ever think of yourself. I'm here, always, anything for you.”.

I was down to hear his words,

“Song.... I'm this..”.

I can't continue my sentence. Every time he expressed his affection, each time my fear increased.

“Your motion is again unstable now.

Don't say anything.

You just rest.. We're almost there in Kosan”

I comply.

My phone suddenly shook.

I opened the HP and then appeared a notification number that I know send a message.

...Have you told Hengky, Naya? Or let me tell you a story?...

Oh my God, I feel like I want to run out and crash myself into any vehicle that passes.

I just want to die.

Can't feel if it keeps getting tormented like this.

“Why? What's up?” Hengky scrunched his forehead. His eyes looked at the mobile phone in my hand.

“Gak... Shinta just mengomelin me again..”.

Hengky laughs softly, “Udaaah... cuekin ajaa....”.

If only this message could.

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I spend my time walking on glass.

My heart is always not calm, my mind is always thinking.

A few days passed, but the text messages always haunted me.

Sometimes when I was sleeping, I suddenly woke up and was scared to death. Crying on your own when nothing bad happens.

It's a lot more torturous than I thought.

When I told Shinta, she just hugged me a lot and then fell silent to my cries. He asked me to strengthen myself even more, not to give up whatever happens.

I remember what he said the other day, though,

“Do not until Hengky knows.

If he finds out, your life will be more chaotic, Naya.

I can roughly estimate how Hengky reacted when he heard this news. There are only two options, you end your relationship with Hengky or you will continue to feel tormented yourself”

Shinta's advice makes sense.

I only have two choices.

The two are painful but I can't live in fear.

While breathing I sent a message to Hengky,

...Malem can pick me up? Someone wants me to talk to you......

It wasn't until five minutes that Hengky replied to my short message,

...Hey, is everything okay?...

I threw the phone on the bed.

I better not answer the message and talk to you later.

Somehow his expression when I talk about this...

Right now all I have is hope. Hope everything goes according to plan.

Okay, time to pick a shirt.

At least, I should look beautiful even at the most unpleasant times in my life.

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