Perfect Husband's

82. Uncertain

"Well, very steady, nih the father of Java meatballs,"Seruku commented on the meatballs we just bought.

"Yes, here. I want Brother Andre, he likes to eat meatballs, I mean tell Vallen to come here too, why I call not picked up yes, when I call again is not active," I saw Anita looking worried.

"Batrenya weak times, so can not be on the phone anymore,"Sahut Andra, still enjoying the meatballs.

But my feelings were suddenly not good. I feel my heart ache and tight. I feel like something happened to Andre. Butwhat? I hope this is just my feeling.

Not long after my phone rang. The name Vallen is there. What's up, huh? Since she got married, this was the first time she called.

"Hallo, Vallen, what's wrong? Why are you crying? What's?! Brother Andre was in an accident?!" Cellphone fell. My body suddenly went limp.

"Sister Andre was in an accident, brother?" Anita asked me with tears hanging in her eyes, I just nodded. Meanwhile, Andra picked up my phone and asked in detail about Andre's condition and where he was being treated.

I don't know why my tears are pouring. I feel my heart is getting sick. I'm afraid anything happened to Andre. I hope Andre can be happy with Vallen, I just feel relieved because I have found someone who can accept Andre as he is, just now I feel my guilt is reduced to him, why did he have to have this accident?

Is not Andre's suffering enough? He was already unable to have me, depressed because of his uncontrollable feelings, blind and paralyzed from helping me, all that was still to be continued suffering?

"We're going to the hospital now. She needs a blood donor. I'll donate my blood." Andra looked panicked. Immediately go up to change clothes and immediately go down again while carrying my bag.

The three of us rushed to be delivered by Mr. Budi. Along the way Andra just kept silent. His face looks riled up. Next to me again Anita did not stop crying. I just hugged her while shedding tears. I also feel hurt by this.

I think back to the time when Andre was critical a few months ago because of his kidney disease. Even then I couldn't bear to see it. Is it worse this time? Will he be safe this time? All of that raged in my mind.

We arrived at the hospital. Anita and I followed Andra's super-fast steps. Arriving in the ICU room, Anita fluttered into my mother's arms. Mama's eyes I see so swollen, papa looks pale. Vallen just sat still with tears flowing. I approached. My best friend was crying in my arms. It looks very fragile this time. He was devastated by the accident that hit Andre. I can't do anything but hold her tight. I myself also feel very sad about the disaster that befell Andre.

"And he is good today with me, Sil. She could have me hug and kiss her after a few days of marriage. In fact, later that night we were going to have dinner outside, but she was experiencing all this just because she wanted to buy flowers for me" Vallen told me in her tears.

"Patience, Vall. There may be wisdom behind all this. I also felt concerned about what Brother Andre was going through," My tongue felt faint, even I was confused to speak.

"Just as I hugged him, he lay there, struggling between life and death. I'm scared, Sil. I'm afraid of losing him" Vallen's getting sobbing. If this were to happen to Andra, I would also definitely feel the same pain.

"Sometimes, what's happening can't match what we want, Vall. But God knows better, what's best for us" I kept holding my best friend in my arms. I know, she definitely needs full support right now.

After Vallen calmed down a bit, I asked permission to see Andre's state from the Glass of the nursery door. My feet shake when I step there. I was scared, seeing the reality that Andre was facing right now.

I got to the door. I mustered my courage to look at Andre's situation in there. It was like he was lifeless, his face was pale with bruises here and there, scratches, on his head was a bandage. His eyes were also bruised. On his neck in the buffer. Hoses and various tools stuck to his body. He who was lying there was very weak. It was even weaker than when Andre had kidney pain first.

He's a good guy, even very good. From the very beginning, he never hurt my heart. Even though I did something that he didn't like, he just kept quiet and reminded me kindly if necessary. He has always followed my many desires, even though it is ridiculous. Why does he always have to suffer? When can I see her happy? Tirmataku. I feel devastated to see Andre in his current state. Even opening her eyes she can't.

Just now that he's going to be happy with Vallen, it's like yawning away. Brother, brother must be strong, pity Vallen who loves brother, he is afraid of losing brother. Healing quickly, brother. Let's open your eyes.

"Jeng, how is our son ..." There was the sound of broken cries. That's Vallen's mother, I know her voice very well, because she used to work in her group at home.

I don't know why, I really want to go in there. I wanted to accompany Andre, even though I realized it would never be possible. Me and him, now blocked by a thickening wall. Although I only consider him a big brother, it certainly does not apply to those who understand the story of the past then both of us. Someone held my shoulder, I turned to him.

"Bag.." Andra pulled me in her arms. He understands my sad feelings at the moment.

"Even though you didn't say it, I know, you must have been very hurt by seeing Kak Andre's situation like that, right?" Andra said very slowly, she wanted me to understand that she cared about how I felt.

"After all, Brother Andre was a very nice person to me in the past, Mas. I can't see him like this. Even he was like a dead man. What if something happens to Andre's brother, Mas?" I asked while shedding tears. Andra kissed the tip of my head, trying to calm me down. I'm happy, it turns out my husband is quite sensitive to what I feel right now. Really, I was worried about Andre, just a feeling of worry for a brother, nothing more.

I walked over to meet my mom who has been like my own mom since my parents were around. The middle-aged woman looked very chaotic. It's like I haven't stopped crying since I came. His heart was broken to find that his son was on the verge of death.

"Ma, that's strong... Pray for the best for your recovery. I know, big brother is one of the most important things in my life, so you have to be stronger than him. Mama knows, when you realize later, she will be happy to give a smile to you, she will be proud to have a strong mother. Look Please, mom has Sila too, we both pray for big brother, huh?" I held onto both of my mama's soft shoulders and looked at her shady eyes deeply. Mom used to do this when my parents died. Mama who strengthens me of course also papa and Andre. The three of them always tried to make me toughen up against the bitterest reality of my life.

"Thank you, baby. You know, mama feels devastated every time she sees your sister hurt like this, whether it's her physical injury or her inner hurt. He was always a strong boy, and hid everything he felt deep in his heart. Never once in his life did he make you angry or make your dad emotional. He's a very good boy. Mom's wish right now is, she can survive and return to being a sweet mama's boy, that's all..." My mother's crying broke again. I hugged her gently. I can't hold back my tears either. Mama's right, Andre's a very sweet boy, never angry and act out. Although he often joked, issued a word of seduction, but never angry at all. Except that time, when she misunderstood Andra impregnating Siska, it was the first time I saw her so angry.

"Pardon Andre if he ever wronged you, you don't know what's going on between you right now, but you know, Andre loves you so much and is so obsessed with you. It could be that he did something bad to you" Mama apologized to Andre. If anyone did, it should have been me. I've always been at the root of the problems of these two twin brothers.

"No, Ma. My brother never had anything wrong with me. He was always kind and understood my feelings. I'm the one who made my sister suffer, Ma," I admit all my mistakes in front of Mama. I can't hide it. The fact that, I was the origin of the destruction in his life.

"Drap.drap.drap" The doctors and nurses' quick footsteps caught our attention. Everything seemed so panicked that it went into Andre's room.

The atmosphere is getting worse. Anita, Mama, Vallen, and Mama Vallen seem increasingly frightened and hysterical. They hugged each other. Papa, Andra, Papa Vallen, the three of them leaned back. Only I ventured to see Andra's condition from the glass gap in the treatment door.

"I saw clearly how Andre's heart rate counter was working. My husband's twin heart rate went up and down drastically. I want to pass, but my body is stiff. Only tears could tell all my heart and mind at that moment.

Brother, I beg you, don't go first. At least, give me a chance to say something, allow me to say everything I want to say. Let me apologize for all the mistakes I may have unintentionally committed to you.

Sis, hang. Didn't you say you'd keep looking after me? You won't leave me whatever the circumstances. If you leave now, I'll hate you, brother, I won't forgive you. Steady, please...

My finger could only touch the glass, if it could be translucent, I wanted my finger to give strength to Andre. He did not react again after repeatedly having a heartbeat generator attached to his chest. No. gabe. Not likely. I don't want this to happen to God. Don't take my brother. I know, I'm not your best servant, but may I beg you this once, don't take Andre now? Give her your hand to give her a chance to be happy. I beg.

I saw the doctor give up. His heart rate pumping activity was stopped. One by one the tools attached to his body were removed. I hold my hand tightly. I can't accept this reality. I stared at him alone as he gave up on his own life.

Why are you doing this, brother? you want to leave us all? You don't want to see us again, brother? Don't you remember your wife? Awake, Brother. Even if you're not having dinner tonight, at least let Vallen accompany you. Sis, come on, you're kidding me, right ? Don't pretend to be dead, I won't forgive you later... My mind keeps raging. My heart is getting sick. Is this the end of it all? Andre would just give up and leave just like that?

My chest is so tight. I'm sobbing deeper. Sobbing until it attracts Andra's attention to come to calm me down. I hugged her tightly while letting go of my cries.

"So, I gave up, Mom. He left us forever. Look at him, he doesn't want to be with us anymore, "I'm glancing back into the room. Andre's body was covered in white cloth. All tools are ready. The nurse and nurse are ready to push Andre's body out of the room and will be moved to the morgue.

Andra cried and took me away from the door of the room, for they were about to come out. I looked at Andra to ask for a request that I hope she grants.

"Yes..."

"Yes.."

"I want to ask you something, but please, grant me this request,"

"What?"

"Let me hug Big Brother's body one last time" I was almost out of breath when I said this sentence as I cried sobbing.

"I'll allow it" Andra's reply relieved me. The door of the room opens. All hysterical at the sight of Andre had been covered with a cloth. Vallen and Mama pass out, Papa and the others are busy taking care of them.

I begged the nurses to let me see Andre's face one last time, and they allowed it. I tried as hard as I could not cry. I looked at the face of the man I once loved. My guilt is back. He went to bring his love to me. I hugged the body tightly.

"Sister, if you have to leave now, go, thank you for all your sacrifices and love for me. Thank you for choosing the right partner for me, I love you, as a sister.Happy way..." I tried as hard as I could, while holding back my nearly spilled tears.