Perfect Husband's
67. Fittings
#POVAndre
Today Vallen and I went to the boutique store for our engagement dress fittings. The show's in a week. Yesterday I also had time to visit Andra and Sila to tell the news of our engagement.
I was happy, now that Andra and Sila's relationship improved and even looked so romantic when I accidentally caught their presence on the balcony. I am learning to live my life now. Vallen and I agreed to start together from zero and not force each other.
A few days ago, I also bought a house that we will both live in after marriage. I intentionally sped up our marriage, so we could start loving each other sooner. Vallen was also very understanding to me, when I told him about my true feelings, he still accepted me. Even when I asked for conditions to take time to love her, she didn't mind. That's what made me so sure I married her. I do feel abnormal. Maybe I need therapy too, Vallen said, he'll help me heal.
I feel lucky to meet someone as good as Vallen. Please choose the right person for me. Even with my feelings like this, the girl can calm me down. To be honest, I also want to be happy, I want to stop loving Sila. But it's still hard. Maybe people will talk easily, forget it, there are still many other women. But the truth is, I haven't found a woman like Sila.
"Darling, I suddenly had an idea, what if the theme was white, nice, elegant. Take a look at this photo, "Vallen shows a photo of the engagement theme with a white theme. Either place or clothes. I'm intrigued.
"May, that's good, Val," I said excitedly. Although it felt like we were both looking for a tool for a birthday, in my heart there was nothing special. Not even the vibrations in my heart exist.
"That means you wear this suit" Vallen showed me a white suit, for me the choice was not too bad, it was quite good. Back then when I was in Precept High School, he liked to pick my clothes when I bought them and his taste was right with me.
"If this dress fits me?" Vallen pointed to the white dress that had many floral and bead accents everywhere. Very beautiful dress, suitable for the ideal vallen body.
"Good, good. This shirt suits you, "I try to please him and make him happy.Senarnyq I feel sorry for Vallen who was forced to be like this.
"Darling, let's pick a ring," Vallen pulled me over to the jewelry. I tried to comply with her wishes by following her from behind.
"You pick whichever you like, I'll definitely like it," I handed it all over to Vallen. I'll follow what he wants, 'cause this is all I can do. Because my heart cannot have it.
"Okay, so I picked this one, try it on, baby," I thrust my finger, and he tried the ring on my ring finger, it was just right.
"Sugary, dear. We'll take this one, yeah..." Vallen looked cheerful, a hint of sadness was not apparent.
"Okay, I agree" I approve of all his choices. After completing the transaction, we both went to a restaurant nearby.
During the meal, we both kept quiet. I was confused what to discuss with him. I'm waiting for him to start.
"I'm sorry, Vall. We should be able to be as romantic as other couples. I'm going to keep learning" I said I felt guilty for her. No other couple was as cold as the two of us.
"I understand, Please tell me everything is the same. I will not turn away from you Ndre, though you are the strangest and coldest man in the world, for at some point, even hard stones can be hollowed out by droplets. I'm sure one day your heart will change" Vallen confidently gave hope to himself. While me? I myself am not so sure I can escape this feeling.
"Thank you for all your understanding. Again, for everything that happened today, I'm sorry, "I'm going to admit my mistake in front of Vallen again.
"If you're not ready to marry me, we'll drop the wedding plans, Ndre" Vallen said firmly, sipping his drink slowly.
"I'm ready to marry you, after all, have you signed the deal we made together, right? Please help me Vallen. I want my whole family to be sure, I'm fine, '" I begged the girl. Although I know, all this is hard to live with.
"Of course I will help you, hopefully one day you turn to love me slowly. It all takes time, right?" Vallen smiled at me very gently.
"Effort, girl. I'd be very grateful if you could take my heart, "I know I've given him too much hope, but I'm going to try to love him as much as I can. At least, by getting married, I will make Sila feel better.
Maybe if Vallen finds out, he'll protest me. I'm just always considering Sila's feelings, not anyone's. I don't even care if I suffer.
I live in the curse of eternal love, which makes me feel a pain that may not be cured. If the wound of my heart can be seen physically, maybe others don't want to see it.
I was just trying to know myself, that the girl I loved so much, was now my sister's wife, for that reason, I chose to do this.
"Andre..." Vallen touched my hand, I gasped a little. Everything I was thinking was splattered
"Y-yeah... What's wrong?" I stammered. Now Vallen must have realized that I was thinking about Sila. Argha! I'm upset with myself, I can't control my feelings.
"Please Think? there's me lo, here. Deket same to you," Vallen took my hand.convincing me that she was in front of me. I don't know until when, I'll keep going like this. I felt like I was slowly carving a wound in the heart of the girl before me. I'm not sure, he'll last a long time in this situation. Facing me who is not as normal as a man in general.
"I'm sorry, Vallen. I can't control my feelings very well.I'm sorry. That's why I always advise you not to run all this, I'm afraid of hurting you" I said honestly. I stared at the plain face of the woman before me. He doesn't look sad at all. Even he was very cheerful. I feel more guilty doing this to him.
"I'm not giving up, not one bit. I'll fight to get you back to normal" he looked back at me with confidence
