Not Forbidden Love

67. The sadness of Felicia

After cleaning his body and changing his clothes Darren immediately came out of the bathroom, as soon as he opened the bathroom door, his body instantly petrified, Feli was already conscious and was staring at him with a blank look. Darren's heart was ditching as soon as he saw that expressionless flat face. Darren wonders in his heart whether Feli has known about his miscarriage or not. What a flat face look Feli can not guess. Darren turned his head to look at Grandma and her Aunty hoping to get an answer from them but both Grandma and her Aunty looked reluctant to make a sound, they preferred to remain silent a thousand languages.

Darren walked closer to Feli, with the gaze still clashing to make Darren's heart beat more and more unkillful. From where and how he would deliver the news to Feli. Darren kept thinking about how he was going to deliver it until he got to Feli. Darren gently rubbed Feli's hair as soon as he stood in front of Feli, looking down on his wife's sweet hair. Instantly Feli's body shook violently. Feli clutched Darren's shirt firmly, hitting Darren's chest with a helpless force. Darren immediately pulled Feli into his arms. Hugging her tightly, hoping through the embrace given by Darren was able to lift all the sadness that Feli would definitely feel.

"Darling.."

"My baby"

"Where's my son?"

Darren's breath was choked instantly, now how would he answer Feli's question.

"Darling, our baby.."

"Did I lose it" Feli cut immediately.

"Are we losing our baby, Darren" Feli began sobbing in Darren's arms.

"How is this??"

"I'm not a good Mommy, Darren"

"Hey baby.ssstt..relax"

"Everything will be fine" Darren did not know what to say other than a fine word he could spit out from his mouth.

"I haven't even seen his face, Darren. What's our son like, did you see him?"

"Feli.." erang Darren was helpless.

"I hate them. They're all evil!" suddenly Feli pushed Darren's body. He's crazy.

"Feli..Feli.I beg you" Darren approached towards Feli.

"Darling.what do you mean? Who do you mean by them?"

"They're the rats you keep in your house, they want to kill my babies, they've planned it, I hate them. I want my baby back.return my baby Darren.." Feli shouted hysterically, his eyes wet with tears. His face looked full of anger but also looked fragile helpless.

"I want my son Darren, I want my son!!" Feli looked up at Darren. Darren doesn't know what else to do. Feli's request this time he really can not fulfill. As their mommy said, the departure of their baby is already the fate of the Almighty, no one will be able to change it. As great and powerful as any human being, no one can go against the destiny set by the Creator. Patience and sincerity are the only options for Feli, but in the conditions and situations that Feli experienced this time, patience and sincerity are two things that are very difficult to do. Losing is something that hurts a lot. What's missing is something valuable and you take good care of it. That's what Feli is doing. She waited a long time for her pregnancy until finally she became pregnant, but fate said otherwise, her pregnancy only lasted a few months, but she was pregnant, the baby she was waiting for her presence had to be forcibly snatched from her in a way that Feli found very painful. Her innocent baby must be the victim of the greed of the few humans they have housed inside their home.

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"How dear?"

"Beautiful right?" Darren hugged his wife's body from behind, propping his chin on her shoulder. Feli just nodded his head slowly. Darren sighed. Back was just a nod that he received.

"Didn't you want it so much, baby" Darren spoke again. They are currently in Canada. Their honeymoon place. And Darren still remembers clearly that Feli once said he liked the view of Lake Louise and expressed his intention to stay here.

Feli shook his head then released Darren's embrace from his body. He walked towards the bed. Feli got on the bed and put himself to sleep. Closing his eyes with one hand.

Darren looked at his wife who had turned very quiet. Now the one in front of him was not the old Feli. Who is always cheerful, cheerful. And his shout is the hallmark of a Feli who has now never been heard by Darren again.

Feli being quiet was the last thing Darren wanted. Feli's silence made him tormented. He never even imagined it would happen in his life if the wife he loved so much would turn quiet like this.

"Darling me for a walk" Darren pinta.

"The sky is so beautiful, dear" Darren gently stroked Feli's hair. He knew his wife had not slept even though Feli closed his eyes tightly. Feli did not answer. Darren for the umpteenth time again sighed.

"Tell me Feli, tell me what to do"

"Say baby, I have to how to get you back to how you were"

"Your silence tormented me so much, Feli"

Feli put his hand away from her face, slowly those beautiful eyes opened. He stared at Darren's hazel eyes. The eyes he admired so much. The eyes she dreamed of would be owned by her children. Feli's heart was slashed once he remembered that.

"Are you going to grant it"

Darren nodded steadily. Whatever it is he will surely try. He'll give it as long as his Feli comes back.

"Give my son back" Feli's voice sounded very painful to Darren. Feli's voice sounded like a very heartbreaking groan.

Darren sighed harshly. He shuffled his hair in frustration. Rubbed his face in annoyance. Yes, the change in Feli's attitude that turned quiet like this was because Feli had an abortion 3 weeks ago and since then Feli has become irritable to speak.

"If I could, Feli!! If I could I would. I'll do it a long time ago" Darren's voice sounded very frustrated

"But I can't, baby"

"I don't have the strength for that"

Feli cried as soon as he heard Darren's words. Crying without making a sound. And it's capable of making Darren's heart cut. Not that crying in silence sounds so heartbreaking compared to wailing.

Darren clenched both of his hands. Resisting emotions. Truly he was eager to kill the man who had ruined his happiness with Feli. The person who caused Feli to miscarry. But right now Feli's mental recovery is the most important. But he promised to make the man suffer even more.

"I want my son. Give me back my son" Feli looked at Darren with a pleading gaze. Darren immediately pulled Feli into his arms. He could only hug Feli. Hugged him tightly. Hoping his embrace could give strength to Feli.

What am I supposed to do, God? it is not enough to just take our baby, at least give him the strength of God, do not let him be fragile and fall asleep in this sadness.

T.B.C