Not Forbidden Love

10. Darren 1's Secret

"Darrreeeeennn you've come"

"Darren, why are you so skinny"

"Darren, do you miss me, because I miss you so much"

"Darren, why do your hazel eyes look so beautiful. I like it so much"

"Darren, I love you so much like a fat kid who loves cookies"

"Darren, you're mine. Until all the stars in the galaxy die, you're mine. You understand!!"

That's how Feli channeled his love for Darren after deciding to harbor his own feelings of love. And it continues until now. Five years he's loved Darren in silence but of course it's just in his opinion. Because even a fool knows that the attention he gives Darren is a woman's attention to the man she likes. Not to mention the look of admiration that was clearly visible in her beautiful eyes every time she looked at Darren. Feli feels he has done the right thing but he is not aware, not everyone is as stupid as he is. Not everything he did to Darren clearly showed that he was in love.

Darren who is very smart and sensitive what else it concerns Feli of course knows and realizes it. Be happy? sure is. But it also drove him crazy and tortured.

Darren sat in his big chair against his desk. Look far away at Newy York City from the top where he sat. 24 years already he lives in this city. The first time Mommy's birth Ashley took her to this city when she was 3 years old to visit the 2 graves of her Mommy friends. She did not expect the second time Mommy Ashley brought her here when she was 4 years old to bring a change in her life. He meets Felix and Mika there. Two people who are very respected and loved.

Felix was present in his life when little Darren longed for and coveted the figure of a Daddy. Felix gives the love and affection of a very sincere Daddy to little Darren. Felix's immense love and affection for her keeps little Darren from feeling lonely after her Mommy Ashley's departure for all eternity. Her happiness increased when Mika who had been hurt by asking her to go away from her Daddy life came to extend her hand, hug and hold her like a mother. Mika's tenderness and sincerity make little Darren very affectionate and respectful towards her. Mika's affection for Darren is no doubt seen from the way he educates and cares for Darren until now become one of the respected successful men in the business world.

Little Darren promises in himself will always make his Mommy proud and happy. He won't let tears of sorrow flow on Mommy's face. Then what about now? What little Darren promised was still to be fulfilled.

Darren took a long breath. He shuffled his hair in frustration. How not frustrated he had promised himself to never make Mika disappointed. But the fact is now not only makes the woman disappointed he also felt very sinful towards the woman because he had dared to love the daughter of the woman who had taken care of him well. Yes if Feli loves him in silence which according to Feli's version of course, then Darren loves him much first. Darren has loved Feli since he was 13.

Before Feli likes him, Darren is able to hide his feelings for Feli. He can still act like a brother to his sister. At first he thought his feelings for Feli were only limited to the love of monkeys that would disappear over time. But his guess was wrong because the more his love day for Feli grew bigger and craze. Darren is crazy he no longer knows what to do with his feelings. Because he knew fate would never be possible to side with him. Destiny will not unite them. Because the Feli he likes will probably only think of him as an older brother. Not more. Painful but also a little relief for Darren. That way he can hide his feelings. Learning to slowly erode her feelings for Feli by dating a few women. Dating some women turned out to be quite successful in shifting his feelings towards Feli. And as soon as he finished his studies he chose to move on. It is possible that being in a different place can eliminate his feelings for Feli.

But back his guess and estimate is completely wrong since the incident of his former lover kidnapped Feli. He was furious and an overwhelming fear attacked him. And when he first heard Feli say his name without brother frills. It feels like it's floating. The voice of Feli who called his name tickled his heart and mind. He is happy when Feli shows his feelings for Darren. Feelings of like towards the opposite sex. At the same time, he was also frustrated. Because now in addition to controlling himself he must also be able to control Feli's common sense if he does not want his Mommy to be shocked and disappointed. And believe me controlling common sense Feli is quite draining and feeling because Feli is getting here more and more blatantly showing his feelings for Darren. Fortunately Feli is a woman who is less smart, her IQ is below average Darren does not want to explicitly say that the woman he loves is stupid so do not realize Darren's feelings for her. If only Feli knew and realized Darren's feelings for him, he was sure Feli would propose to him and ask him to get married. Darren is a normal man, not infrequently he feels shaky and gives up. But Mika and Felix's faces returned to her mind. How not to know his return he who dared to love their beloved daughter. How greedy he was who had already gained the love and affection of Felix and Mika but still expected Felix to be his.

"Akhnh..." Darren rattled his hair in frustration.

"Discovered hair, broken heart"

Darren immediately turned his chair around as soon as he heard the voice of the woman who had just insinuated him. Rachel stood up with a dismissive smile on her face.

Since when did this woman come in here, why didn't I realize it.

"What are you here for?" ask Darren flat

"Ciihh.I came because I heard an alarm saying you needed me"

Darren chuckled and nodded

"You can always count on. But why do you and Feli love wearing less material clothes and showing off your belly" Darren looked down at Rachel's flat stomach. Rachel was ordinary and did not feel any discomfort.

"Feli's right. You're infuriating. It is fitting that he never allows you to visit him while at work. You can burn down the studio and the entire property" Rachel sat on the couch.

"Feli's not coming with you?" The question she had wanted to ask since she saw Rachel standing in her room.

"No. She went to lunch with Allan Willson" Without seeing Darren's face, Rachel knew Darren must be growling with annoyance. Rachel laughed in her heart.

"Allan Willson?" Darren made sure

"Yes. Isn't he your business partner, too?" Rachel stared at the look on Darren's face

"Why can Feli go with him?" Darren could not hide his frustration

"Mr Willson signed Feli to be a brand ambassador for one of his products" explained Rachel who was right.

"Why did you take it?" hardik Darren vented his frustration

"Don't I tell you, before accepting the company's offer to sign Feli, should you ask me first?"Darren was upset.

"I forgot. The price Mr. Willson is offering is fantastic" I'm Rachel honestly

"Is Uncle Roland broke?" darren's circus

Rachel chuckles

"You jealous?"

Darren hunchback

"Oh my God, Darren, your face is ridiculous if you're jealous. And you know this isn't the first time I've accepted your unsubmitted offer. But your response this time was beyond my expectations. Is it because he's Allan Willson?" Rachel raised both eyebrows.

"Have forgotten, why Feli also wants to eat alone with him" grumbled Darren

"You're jealous of being outranked" Rachel guessed

"Shut your mouth, Rachel Bellerine"

Rachel laughed with satisfaction.

"I didn't expect Darren McKenzie to have a side of insecurity. Oh Darren wants me to capture this face of yours" Rachel immediately pulled out her phone to capture Darren's jealous face. Darren who saw Rachel intending to take her picture instead put up various laughable poses.

"I heard you cut off your relationship with Stevy?" Rachel put her phone on the desk.

"Hm.. Feli asked for it" he replied lightly without any burden then walked towards the sofa where Rachel was sitting.

"You know when you keep doing this. Why don't you try talking about it with Daddy Felix and Mommy Mika" Rachel paused. From he was small he was already used to call Felix with the name Daddy because Felix asked him and called Mika as Mommy because Mika is Mommy's best friend Keyra.

"Maybe they can understand and maybe you're lucky they accepted you as a son-in-law, although the truth is less likely considering Daddy loves Feli so much" he continued.

"Am I not gonna look greedy Rachel?"

"Of course you look greedy" Rachel replied honestly which made Darren sniffle.

"But what's wrong with trying. You and Feli love each other. Until when do you hold each other's love"

"I'm afraid Mommy is disappointed and what I'm more afraid of is Feli. Perhaps his feelings would remain the same after knowing the truth. The truth that I'm not her brother and that I was born into this world by mistake and that Daddy Felix had already imagined how he felt after knowing the truth scared me. You know Feli loves Daddy so much"

"Why is your fate so sad" Instead of strengthening Darren Rachel instead asserted the fact that Darren did look very sad

"You know Rachel, I'm kind of silly sometimes hoping that love has traffic. So I know when to move forward, slow down and stop"

Rachel chuckled at her best friend's silly words.

"I'm not sure you can stop Darren. I've seen him 15 years is not a short time. 15 years you hold him. Hiding your feelings for Feli. What if you try to tell Feli just slowly. I'm sure Feli will be very happy to know that you're not his sister. She'll yell hysterically that her love for you isn't a forbidden love because you're not blood related at all" Rachel tried to give her idea. The same idea he's said a thousand times. He and Darren do not know if Feli from the beginning already knows that Darren is not his blood brother. Who fooled who here?

"And slowly the secret will be revealed and Feli will be hurt" and a thousand times Darren also explained the same thing.

How would Darren react if he knew that from the beginning Feli had already known that they had no blood relation? Can he still control his feelings?

And how does Feli react to knowing that Darren also loved him long before he loved Darren even knowing that Darren already knew that he was not the son of Felix.

T.B.C