Not Forbidden Love

66. Bereft

"Feli....Feli.I beg you baby, hold on" Darren continued to hold Feli's hand which was already on top of the patient's gurney. Several nurses were seen pushing the gurney.

"Lucas, check all the CCTV, why Feli can be on the emergency stairs" Darren ordered without taking his eyes off Feli.

"We will immediately handle the patient, please wait here" said the doctor who had just arrived and went straight into the room where Feli was already.

"You okay?" laura asked as she approached Darren. Darren shook his head quickly.

"I won't be okay until I make sure my wife's okay"

"Calm down, the doctor is trying his best" Laura rubbed Darren's arm in support.

"Are Feli and my baby going to be okay, Aunty?"

"We pray that your wife and baby will be fine"

"Why was the doctor so long?" Darren's pacing back and forth erratically. Not long after the sound of the door opened. Darren and Laura are approaching. Darren was petrified as soon as he saw the Doctor and something that was in both hands.

"Aa...aaa..what is my baby?" darren's voice shook violently.

"I'm sorry Mr. Maxston" said the doctor regretfully.

"Your wife is having a miscarriage. The collision was quite hard. And there are some things we need to talk about about your wife's health, please meet me in my room. And I'm so sorry for the loss of your baby" the doctor handed me a baby that was about the size of a carrot that was about 27 cm long.

Darren's hand shook violently to accept the lifeless baby. Darren looked at the little baby, his eyebrows and eyelids had already begun to form. Instantly Darren decays to the floor. Putting that little baby carrot into his chest.

"I'm sorry Daddy, honey. Forgive Daddy" Darren's crying broke out. His premonition a few hours ago turned real. She lost her baby in a way she never expected.

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Darren sat by the side of the bed holding Feli's hand tightly, looking at Feli's unconscious face. Seeing Feli again lying unconscious reminded Darren of what happened a few years ago. Feli lay in a coma and almost left him. Oh considering that makes Darren's feelings even more chaotic.

It's been a few hours since Feli was rushed to the hospital after the incident he fell rolling over from the top of the stairs, but Feli still looks reluctant to open his eyes.

But what if Feli is conscious? What should I tell him and how should I deal with it?

"Darren"

Darren heard someone calling his name but he did not intend to turn his head or answer someone's call. The focus is only Feli, he just wants Feli to quickly realize, otherwise he can go crazy.

"Darren" came back and nonna called him. Gently rubbed his shoulders.

"You'd better change your clothes first, I don't want Feli to get hysterical the minute you see her covered in blood."

Darren sighed harshly, looking at his clothes that were indeed filled with Feli's blood. His breath choked again, his chest tightened as soon as he saw the blood still stuck on his clothes and even his hands. Feli lost the baby. Their babies. A baby that was very much awaited by both of them.

"Akhich.." Darren groaned in frustration. His eyes are full of tears.

"What should I tell him Grandma?"

"Feli must be strong, you must also be patient. Don't show your sad face to Feli, you should be able to be his reinforcement, Darren."

"No Grandma, no. Feli would definitely go crazy. My presence will have no effect. I know very well how he is. He was looking forward to our baby."

"You better clean yourself first. Don't think about things that don't happen."

"What hasn't happened yet, Grandma? Didn't you hear what the doctor said. The doctor said that Feli.."

"Arggghhhhh.this is really driving me crazy" Darren immediately moved from his place to the bathroom. He immediately raised his fist against the wall to vent his anger. His fear and anger mixed into one. He regretted taking Feli to live with his family. He believes something has happened to cause Feli to fall down the stairs. The thing he was most afraid of was how he would tell Feli that Feli had lost his baby and it was not enough to just get there, even the doctor said she would be difficult to conceive again because of her troubled uterus due to the impact that occurred. It would be a nightmare for any woman. And Darren could already imagine how the reaction would be given by Feli, indeed Darren was not ready to face that. The abundance of love, love and affection that Darren gives will not be able to treat the wounds that Feli will experience later. Come on, the birth of a baby from your womb shows your perfection as a woman. Although it is only the opinion of some lay people but Darren believes Feli belongs to the group.

Darren picks up his phone, presses one of the numbers in his contact. A woman he desperately needs right now. A man who is always able to calm him in every mound. The woman who gave him warmth and affection. And he was sure that this woman would also be very hurt upon hearing the news that he was about to convey. Darren grimaced once he realized how many people would be hurt by this news.

"Honey" sounded legit from across the phone.

"Mom" Darren's voice choked.

"Yes, honey"

"Mom"

"You okay?" there was a worried tone in her mommy voice, Mika.

Darren just shook his head

"Darren, are you still there?" mika's voice came back, because she could not see Darren's head.

"Is everything okay?"

"No Mom, everything's not okay" Darren's voice sounded hoarse.

"What happened to Feli?" ask her mommy directly because she knows only Feli can make a Darren fragile.

"Feli lost the baby, Mom, we lost our baby. Feli had a miscarriage" again Darren felt tightness in his chest as soon as uttered that bitter reality.

Silence, no word from her mommy. He knew his mommy must be surprised to hear the news he just delivered.

"What am I supposed to do, Mom?" and finally the tears that he was holding down had already drenched his face.

"For me this hurts Mom enough, then what about Feli? She had waited a long time to conceive, but she had to lose her baby when she had not even seen what her face looked like. And you know Mom, the doctor even said crazy things that made me almost want to kill him."

"Did the doctor say Feli would be difficult to conceive?" guess her mommy with a vibrating voice.

"Mom, what am I supposed to do?"

"Darren, listen to Mommy. Calm yourself down and don't show your sad and frightened face in front of Feli. Show him everything is fine. You're the only one who can strengthen Darren, and what the doctor says for now don't tell him. Mommy is sure she will understand and be able to accept everything that happens. It might take some time, but Mommy asks you to be patient with Darren, because at times like this his feelings will be more sensitive. This is a test for you and Feli, Mommy pray that you two can deal with it. Mommy mourns the loss of your baby, Mommy knows you are devastated by this disaster, but it is the Almighty's will, no one can change it. Be patient, baby."