Mother to My Son

not the first night ?

Sendai - Sendai are two different cities of the country that separate two people with hearts that are interlocked. Both hurt, equally missed, the difference is that one longs for presence while the one in Sendai does not understand where his heart should be anchored.

Sendai

Hasna read Reza's emails in the evening after a day of academic work at the University, somehow if she had read them the night before she might not have been able to sleep like tonight. Hasna turned her body to the left and right but found no comfort that allowed her to close her eyes.

He did not expect that Reza would send him an email, he deliberately sent an email to Rain so that if there was something very important Rain could contact him, rain only once replied to him just to report that the conditions at home were fine and he was with Maura already at home because it was picked up by Reza to Mama Isna's house. In the email Rain spilled the vexation of why Hasna did not enable international roaming making it difficult for her to communicate.

In the email Hasna was able to read the regrets from her husband, her tears trickled down reading Reza's confession of regret, there was sincerity revealed and her husband realized that maybe his feelings would not be the same again as they used to be. He wiped away the tears that ran down his cheeks, no longer feeling as sad and depressed as yesterday. There is a creature that grows in him that can feel the emotions that exist in him, he does not want if his son will become an emotional human because of it.

Hasna imagined the atmosphere of the house when before the quarrel occurred, there was a very longing, the image of Maura who was telling stories, frowning because of misreading iqro, and so on, who ran towards his class but then turned around while waving excitedly as if it were a movie spinning in his head.

Brother Rain who plays hp without paying attention to his environment, battle dance they do, convey when the child cries in the room when feeling unnoticed makes his chest feel tight by longing. Will the lightning boy miss him too? Like he felt their loss.

Until Hasna finally thought about her husband, a man who is always serious, minimal smile and just looks to be a different person when they were in Singapore first, he looks romantic and attentive. Hasna smiles cynically “stupid me...of course he would be good for wanting the ancestral heritage that I hold fast” but come to think of it Reza's character like that just focus on what he thinks and interest rarely pay attention to the existing environment around it.

Given the time of their quarrel Hasna still felt pain in her chest, why it still hasn't gone away as well. Reza has apologized but why the shadow of the incident is still not forgotten. Hasna tried to think wisely, everyone must have made a mistake is not giving forgiveness better than alms with painful words like he told Ammera but talking is easier than experiencing it yourself.

Hasna covered her head with a pillow, it felt like she wanted to feel the amnesia of the incident, lost from her memory so that she felt fine and everything would be as it was but the more she tried to forget, the more she tried to forget, the more he felt the sadness was increasing, because it had to be far from the people who seized his heart to make it empty.

“Tiduur Naa.. do not think of” sound Ammera who woke up because Hasna continues to move in bed. “All problems will pass without us knowing.. if thought continues even so a burden.. You tend to like overthinking” Hasna smile. Ammera in delirious condition can talk philosophically, but if you are aware of his speech likes spicy. Eventually Ammera's words could bring Hasna to dreamland. Everything's gonna be fine.

Jakarta

Reza seemed confused he was trying to enter the instagr*m he used to open, this morning before starting his activities as usual he opened the application to see how his wife. But why he could not open it again even asked him to log in, but yesterday he did not log out. Two days earlier he saw that his wife was presenting a research plan in front of a Japanese professor and student. Among all his friends, the Hasna presentation is the most inquired because it is considered to present interesting material and has a theme that can be understood internationally.

“Yang said that the more pregnant women are more beautiful it is a lot, but you never heard that pregnant women look smarter” Reza still remembers Ferdi's apron when making a story recording and highlight Hasna who was discussing and explaining the topic of her research to Japanese students. He felt proud of his wife's appearance, looking smart and full of confidence. It looks different there is a radiance that makes his wife more authoritative and more convincing.

“Aswin here for a while I can not get into instagram Hasna” he has tried to login by writing down various passwords that he tried to guess but failed all.

“What's up Sir?” Aswin immediately took the phone Reza suggested.

“I can not access the application even though yesterday did not logout” rather than spend time tweaking ngatik better submit to people who usually use this application. Aswin frowned, his position was logged out and could not enter unless he memorized the password. “Father memorized instagram password Bu Hasna?” Reza immediately glanced in annoyance

“If I knew I wouldn't call you but log in right away, I don't getk” Reza looks annoyed at feeling underrated. Aswin only smiled a few days Reza easily offended, fortunately Arcy asked for leave since yesterday so as not to increase problems at the office. “Bu Hasna apparently logged in using another device and closed access from this device pak” he tried scrolling but could not.

“Bapak already follow your account Bu Hasna?” Reza instantly misses “I don't like to use social media like this, if twitt*r I like to use to read the news because sometimes faster information” Reza looks not excited, not excited, his intention to see Hasna's strolling activities in Nara and Kyoto was dashed already.

“Bapak can create an account now, and follow his account Bu Hasna, he said, hopefully not in private so we can see his friend's account” Reza immediately interested “it didn't occur to me to make it” Aswin then open the phone “sewhile Sir I first check Bu Hasna account in private or not otherwise I will follow” Reza immediately glared.

“You do not need to follow my wife, let me just create instagr*am account now” Reza directly download the application to register. He immediately frowned while trying to find his wife's account, apparently in private. Aswin who was next to him only held a smile, he already knew that Hasna's account was private but with Reza's possessive attitude, it was better to withdraw first. Reza glanced at him in annoyance “diprivate” he said briefly.

Withholding a smile and trying to stay serious Aswin gave a suggestion, “do you still remember the account name of his friend Hasna who always upstory or his other friends” Reza immediately focus he still remember the name of his friend account Hasna call_me_dy turned out to be a strange name even easier remember, he really owes the boy a favor. And jreng-jreng it turns out I did not private Reza immediately smiled widely “ not diprivate” why since yesterday he did not think to create his own account. Stupid is himself.

Today is Hasna's last day in Kyoto, he saw that his wife took more pictures of her friends than did selfies like the others. Reza smiled he remembered that his wife did not like being a photo object, he could do his hobby of looking for photo objects while in Japan. Reza was not happy to see his wife pulled there yesterday by his friends apparently they were satisfied with the results of Hasna's shot. If that becomes like making his wife a photographer, it feels like he gives a comment in the status of Ferdi but he knows himself, if until he is caught monitoring this account will certainly cause suspicion.

“Aswin please check the arrival schedule of the plane from Japan, the airline must be the one with the departing but also see other airlines” at least this effort that he can do in order to pick up Hasna directly. And now in front of him there is a list of scheduled arrival of aircraft in Japan. Reza immediately made an estimate by looking at the age of the group who are still at a young age they will definitely choose the latest schedule so that they can take a walk first in Tokyo after they are from Kyoto. When they arrived in Tokyo, they had not been able to explore the city.

It means Hasna will come the day after morning, Reza is relieved, he still has time to prepare a surprise for his wife. He intends to buy baby equipment and stored in his wife's room so that he feels happy and moved, he will arrange the room to be more comfortable so that Hasna will feel at home there. After coming home from the office he would buy baby supplies, all this time he never bought them with Mitha, Mitha, it used to be that when Rain was born they were not likely to buy complete baby equipment because the apartment was not possible when in England.

Then when Maura was born, she was still in a state of mourning, Maura slept with Mama Isna, occasionally with her, Maura equipment she bought as needed, only, never specialize in buying and styling like any other normal family. Reza sighed, come to think of it now is the first time he prepares preparations for a child who is still in the womb when this is his third child.

 

That morning Reza had been preparing since dawn, he deliberately did not tell Maura that Hasna was coming home today, but Rain seemed to have known that Hasna would return to Indonesia today. Since the morning he asked if today he could not permit school, he did not say anything about picking up Hasna until finally the lightning boy could not bear to not ask. “Papii.. I also want to come to Bandar” he whispered afraid Maura heard his words.

Reza looked at Rain with a look of understanding, apparently his son had wanted to meet his mother continued “Papi did not know for sure his schedule so you better wait at home.. Too tired later waiting at the airport after all you have an exam schedule next week, there must be many daily tests ahead of the exam as preparation” Rain down actually he has a daily schedule, daily repetition, but he wants to come pick up.

“Ya...” answer is short then without much talk directly prepare the completeness of the school. Hasna's room is deliberately key Reza so that the children do not know, he has not informed about Hasna's pregnancy to his children. He wanted to tell the two of them with Hasna so that the feeling of a full family would be more he got when the four of them were like before.

Yesterday the day after the children left school he arranged Hasna's room, office work he had handed over to Aswin, letters to be signed and documents to be read were sent home, so that he can do it in between breaks. It turns out it is fun to arrange a room for the baby there is a sense of enthusiasm and novelty that ambushes him when the cot is successfully he rafts.

"It's actually how many months of gestational age" Reza thought, but he felt that Hasna had not been there for a long time, but Hasna once complained that his schedule came months erratic and just flecked so he could not be sure when and how old his wife was. But Reza did not bother, the belief should not buy baby equipment if not seven months was not based on his thought. It's not really related to breaking the rules before destiny. But babies born before seven months or premature have a smaller chance of living than those born 7 months or more, so if the parents have bought baby equipment and then the baby was born prematurely and died would be very sad to see the baby equipment that has been prepared. Reza thinks logically.

He thinks now the age of the content of Hasna has been more than three months if he counted since Hasna did not get menstruation. Although not yet seven months he remains optimistic that the baby will be fine. She simply could not think of any other surprise apart from the nursery as proof that she craved the presence of Hasna and her baby.

Reza asks Aswin to accompany him to the airport, only with Aswin can he share all the things about his family. Fortunately his assistant is very reliable and can keep a secret, it was the right choice to accept him first as an assistant when he returned to the office after Mitha left. Aswin is the son of acquaintances Papa Ardy, he has a background in Business Management education, his family is a middle family, he has one older sister. Her parents retired because they had a profession as teachers. Aswin's mother was a friend of Papa Ardy at High School, actually Reza was a bit suspicious because if in fact his mother Aswin and Papa Ardy were special friends in High School. But he doesn't want to know more as long as Aswin's good performance doesn't matter anyway it's the past.

Arrival Terminal is full of pick-ups, Reza deliberately dressed casually by wearing only a shirt and wearing a hat, he did not want to meet with people he knew and saw him picking up at the airport. Too many explanations to prepare, he just wanted to focus on picking up his wife.

“What time is the landing?” Reza looked again at his watch, it had been more than 40 minutes but there was no sign of Hasna's entourage of friends appearing.

“Jam 9.30 pack.. I wait at the arrival door of the other yes sir because you are afraid of being missed” Aswin immediately went to a different arrival door, from earlier the group of passengers who came from overseas destinations is very much. Many Indonesian groups have just returned Umroh, apparently they choose a plane to fly at night so that passengers can sleep so that they come to Indonesia early in the morning.

Reza is getting more agitated, the clock has shown more than an hour since the arrival of the plane from Japan, he has seen some Japanese who came and picked up but he did not see Hasna and his friends. Finally he came to Aswin who waited some distance at the door of another arrival.

“Winn are you sure this is the arrival terminal?” Reza frowned, the hot air in Jakarta felt added to the discomfort.  “Father who decided to pick up now right, while the arrival terminal is certainly you see for yourself on the flight information board” Aswin shows the flight information board that explains the arrival and departure of aircraft at the terminal.

“Shiiits…. “ Reza can only cuss, “you did not see his friends Hasna?” Aswin shook his head, “I don't really know his friends Hasna Pak because I don't follow his account Bu Hasna right Dad forbid it” reply Aswin, I don't know him, it was so hot to wait an hour or so and nothing came of it.

“Ok.. We wait another hour.. “ Reza finally left, he was confused how else. An hour passed without success.

“Pak seems that mother did not use this airline or different arrival time” Aswin approached Reza who seemed to be sitting limp on the waiting bench Arrival Terminal. His forehead creased and his face looked irritated.

“Is on instagr*am his friend Hasna no information when they depart Pak” Aswin try to give an idea. Reza shook his head, the last “ he said in his story that his memory is full.. he took too many photos” Reza's voice looked desperate.

“Hasnaa where are you?”......