Mother to My Son

accidents

Reza PoVs

Today's activities in the office are quite energy-consuming, after the merger activities are agreed and signed apparently more and more things must be coordinated with the internal company in order to be able to keep up with demand from companies in outside branches. At 7 o'clock you can finally go home, traffic jams on the road have begun to break down so it only takes 40 minutes to get home.

This past week I've felt Hasna has been avoiding more personal interactions. She kept trying to fulfill her obligations as a wife within the limits she could such as preparing breakfast and dinner. But since the opportunity met only at breakfast he always made my favorite wheat bread and coffee in the morning.

Every day reported on the activities of the children while in the office, and paid for the permit to leave the house when he had to go to register for college. Finally I gave her the freedom to choose the majors as she wanted, it felt too great my guilt to her after hearing what she said yesterday when she returned to Jakarta.

I felt like I was the most selfish person by asking her to be tied down in marriage but not give her the rights she should have with her partner. When teasing her and making physical contact with her I often forget myself and enjoy being close to her, she looks funny and innocent. But I often felt guilty afterwards whether I still deserved to enjoy being with another woman after what I did to Mitha.

If I was given the chance to meet Mitha again, I just wanted to apologize, for all the stupidity and selfishness I had done to her. The selfishness to ask her to forget all her dreams and follow my dreams, the stupidity to not listen to her desire to spend time together again when she was pregnant with Maura, the stupidity of not listening to her story as she cried on the phone, the stupidity of not listening to her story, stupidity turns off the phone at meetings and all that stupidity has to be paid for with the regret of a lifetime that never ends.

Every week at Mitha's grave I could only apologize repeatedly, but somehow never felt peace in my heart. Why never feel forgiven and get on with life again.

Arriving at home is not any activity in the family room, it seems that children have been on the move in the room. I heard the sound of Rain crying loudly, the sound of Hasna and Maura sobbing. Why is this why they all cried so loudly.

“Papiiiiii….. I can't see Mamiiiii….. I did not knowuuuuu..whaaaaaa” Rain ran towards me and cried as I opened the door and entered the room.

I was puzzled to see Hasna also crying while hugging Maura.

“Why ... what's up? What happened”

“Mam.mami turned out to see me when I came from se..seekolaaahh...mamiii mang..call meuuuu... taaapiii aaaakuu his gaaak liaaat Mamiiii…. Mamiiiiiiya uuudah died whoaaaaaaa” Rain kept crying while sobbing in my arms.

“Why do you remember that incident...Papi has already said Brother is not wrong any mustnya Papi who was at home when Mami was sick, but Papi instead went to work” I so feel sadiiit once saw him cry again like that.

“Whaaaaa….Mamiiiiii….. I mustnya puuupuulang cepaaaat” Rain is crying harder and harder. Hasna looked shocked to see Rain crying even louder.

“Kakaaa….. Already crying like that kasiiian Mamiinya. later more sad if Kaka cry like thatuu” Hasna trying to resuscitate Rain who continues to cry hard.

“Papiiiiiiiiiii whoaaaaaa... molaaa ga taaau mamiiii” Maura so follow crying hugging my feet.

“Kakak... istigfar…. “ Hasna pulled Rain out of my arms and held her face to stare at him.

“Iigfar…. Breathe in.. don't be like this. kasian same Maminya”.

“Pull breath now…. Pull nafass….. “ Hasna keeps demanding Rain to catch her breath. Maura was sobbing in my arms, frankly I was confused as to how to deal with the two.

The rain seemed to calm down, Hasna picked up some drinking water and told her to drink.

“Mami therefore come to Buna's dream so that Buna can accompany kaka sama ade here”

“Now Mami Mitha is calm there, Kaka's job is to pray Mami after finishing praying and teaching because the prayers of sholeh children like Kaka and Ade who will arrive and make Mami Mitha happy”

“Ngerti no Kaka?” he held onto Rain's cheek, his voice like hypnotizing Rain to listen and reassure Rain.

"Mola sukak soyat najai ikkklo" this little boy looked at me with eyes filled with tears, how much I loved him.

“Why does Mami still see Kaka cry first?” rain asked and saw Hasna, apparently he told her about his dream to Rain, what was the need for him to try to tell them about the dream, I became annoyed.

“Buna did not know Kak, maybe at that time Mama Mitha had not died her spirit was still in the world but could not interact with Kaka. That is why there is a hadith that states a prohibition for the living to weep or mourn the dead because it makes them suffer”

“So Kaka don't cry for Mami, we just pray. Kaka know not if the woman who died when she gave birth then she died martyr”

“Kakak know martyrdom what is it?” Hasna continued to talk to Rain, Maura seemed to calm down and noticed the two of them.

“Hmm people who died then get a big reward so that they can enter paradise” Rain can answer calmly.

“Iya right Mama Mitha gave birth to Maura with a struggle to die in martyrdom...

“A good woman, who became the Mama of Raina and Maura, ended up with a good life husnul khotimah” the woman's words felt piercing to my feelings. It made me feel like a useless man who had wasted a wife who had sacrificed her youth for me.

“Molaa...molaaa ga tau Mami..” Maura came down from my sling and approached Hasna.

“Iya but Mami kan tau Maura, Mami want Maura to live to be a beautiful woman, love to dance and sing”

“Tomorrow we go to Mami's grave well. we will tell Mami that Kaka Raina and Maura are now big, it is getting beautiful, the more pinter”.

“All Mami's sacrifices are not in vain because you guys have become great children” she still continues to convince the children.

“Here hugs Bunanya” she keeps hugging children together.

“Papi sinah peyuk” Maura looks at me asking to hug them all. I finally came and hugged them. Clench them all and one by one I kiss his forehead, lastly I hold Hasna's shoulders and I kiss her temples.

“Thank you for accompanying and taking good care of the children” I said as I grabbed him and then kissed his head, there was a peaceful feeling that I felt after a week of feeling swayed by guilt.

“Ayoo said he wanted to play kuteks” Hasna suddenly stood up and let go of my hug. He then grabbed the makeup equipment that was on the table.

“Mola juda to be consulted.” Maura immediately released a hug from me and approached Hasna.

“You play playdough there, this I've got kaka...”srotssss... Rain still snot after crying hard earlier.

“Mola nda want to play peydoh want to be consulted” back this child appears stubborn.

“Already do not fuss anymore oruuuh.. if you guys fuss Buna want to sleep in his own room” the woman immediately stood up, it turns out she already has the ability to bargain with children.

“Do not...”srotssss” Buna sleep with me tonight, ade can be cutiekin after I” Rain directly holds Hasna's hand that already stands.

“Buna bobonya same molaaa..” and back this little boy always wants what his brother wants.

“Mola tidul same Papi nda nothing ..” hahahaha it turns out now only be the second choice.

That night the three of them spent some time playing kuteks after a crying event that made me look at Hasna with a different look. He was 25 years old but his maturity of thinking beyond his age might even pass me. I left them because I was a mosquito.

The clock shows nearly 10pm as Hasna came down and filled the child's drinking water container. He just glanced at me and did not say any words, usually he always greeted me and asked me my wishes.

“The kids are asleep?” much

“Already, stay Maura waiting to sleep with his papi” He left me

“Why did you tell me about your dream with Mitha, long enough for her to forget that trauma” the woman stopped at the end of the stairs, then she turned to face me and approached, his eyes became sharp and serious.

“I don't intend to tell that dream to children. He was sulking and crying like I saw in a dream, just as different in body size. Until I was shocked and remembered the question I had in mind during the dream”

“Why is she crying in the corner of her own closet? I asked him that it turned out that it was when Rain saw Sister Mitha in a coma”

I just kept quiet hearing her answer. Then he turned around again as he left.

“I forgot to tell you, Papa Ardy invites us to join the Reunion with his college friends, he said every alumnus must bring his children and grandchildren”.

“I'm busy this weekend there are many meetings with mitra”

“Ok then I leave with the kids only” he replied quickly

“Why also tumben Papa want to join the reunion of all” I grumbled

“Say there is a college friend who has not met for almost 20 years more, whose name is similar to a cartoon character…. hmmmm Om Felix well that's his son's college friend I” he went straight up the stairs.

“Heeh... who was songong's boy yesterday...” I woke up immediately, remembering the man who came to the wedding in an arrogant and ngeyel style.

“He is not songong .. Kang Arkan is polite.. already ah I want to sleep with Raina”.

“Maura waited accompanied by sleep.don't forget” Maura always wanted to be accompanied by me to sleep, but she never wanted me to accompany her.

PoV Author

Since the information about the Reunion Force was initiated by his father, Reza tried to move the schedule of meetings with clients on Saturday. Fortunately, there were still three days left so they could cancel the ticket and reschedule for the meeting, but still the preparation agenda had to be done so he had to go to the office first.

Until finally on Saturday Papa Ardy came with Mama Bertha to Reza's house. The children immediately frenzied because they had not met their grandparents for a long time.

“Bab….. Add duduuuut” Maura directly hugged his grandfather.

“Whaahahaha yes-iya Babab now eat constantly, Granny now so love to cook. Babab must try Granny” food Papa Ardy patting his stomach that looks start to bulge.

“Nothing if I say the heck.Papa still look handsome from a distance” Hasna instantly smile teasing her in-laws.

“If from the persistence how is it ugly?” Papa Ardy if you pout like Maura.

“If from the proximity the handsome kebangetan..hehehe” whispered Hasna.

“Whahahahahahah.. have a smart daughter-in-law like this your Mama's pantesan can not be separated from Papa, nempel keep”.

“Hmmm behind Hasna .. she who tacked on Mama” replied Mama

“Let's go now Reza where?” Mom was looking for Reza.

“Later he said he would follow having to check the cooperation documents first in the office” Hasna tidied up his clothes, he felt uncomfortable with the knee-length skirt he wore. Yesterday he forgot to prepare clothes to join the Reunion with his in-laws, there was no way he could wear clothes that were commonly worn everyday. Now he became the Bratadireja family do not let his appearance be embarrassing.

Luckily Rain reminded that there was a shirt bought by Isyana for handover, and it turned out that her clothes were very beautiful, just not the clothes used by Hasna. The color is Hasna like, a shirt model of the canal with short hands and a long knee-length skirt, not sexy but not used to it.

“You are very beautiful with the model clothes it looks more fresh and attractive” Mama smiled looking at Hasna with a soft look.

“I am not comfortable skirt feels short legs I am rich look all” Hasna see her legs exposed ..although only calves but because it rarely looks so uncomfortable.

“Nothing else is above the knee.. Still looks normal kok” Mama tried to calm Hasna down.

“Ya already want how again, the important thing does not look strange right Ma?” Hasna is trying to find justification

“Buna looks tantiiiik…. Later Mola wants to beyi rich clothes Buna” Maura directly hugged Hasna's feet.

“Hahahha yes later we ask the same Aunt Shana yaa” This koala child always gives it a sense of calm.

It turns out that the reunion is carried out at a hotel in Central Jakarta.hmm indeed if the alumni have become successful people, reunions can be done in expensive places and borne by themselves.

Rain did not want to come at first, but when Bababnya called specifically and asked him to come he finally wanted to. Apparently Papa Ardy would boast that he already has a big and beautiful grandson. If his beautiful grandson does not come free dong to be the committee was his persuasion. And of course there was a secret agreement between the two of them so Rain seemed eager to leave.

Arriving at the Hotel, Papa Ardy's friends greeted them enthusiastically. Understandably among his classmates, Papa Ardy is the most successful so that the cost of this Reunion is borne by him.

Among all the invited guests Hasna only recognized one person who looked bete among all.

“Kang Arkan....hahahahhaha” Hasna will go straight to Arkan, but before he steps his hand has been pulled from behind.

“You where you are...” Reza who just came back pulled Hasna's hand….

Hahahahah.