Mother to My Son

be wounded

Reza clasped tightly onto Hasna's letter, his lips tightly clenched,

“HASSSSSNAAAAAA..” He can only shout stifled, his heart overwhelmed with feelings of guilt. Shadows when his wife vomits on the side of the road because she feels not strong with the smell of parfumenya. At that time he felt offended, as soon as he knew that when Hasna was pregnant he would not be angry.

Appearing in her memory Hasna's face that looked pale and limp, still forced herself to take care of her children. During their last fight she came to the office to tell him about the pregnancy but they both had a big fight. Reza was in tears, her chest claustrophobic with deep regret. For almost an hour he cried in silence, the quiet atmosphere of the house made him even more lonely.

Drawn breath, he must be able to think clearly not to be carried away again by emotions so as to make everything more messy. He came down from the bed, wiped the tears that were still wetting his cheeks, then rubbed his eyes to shed his tears, stepped out of the room and saw the atmosphere in the middle room.

Hasna seduced him in her pajama outfit Hello Kitty, telling him about Jurig Bala-bala, accompanying the children to play and study in the living room. His gaze turned to the dining table like seeing Hasna's shadow that seemed to run from the dining room to the kitchen, carrying children's food supplies while occasionally feeding Maura. Sitting at the dining table accompanied him while telling him about his activities today excitedly.

The last one recorded in his memory was Hasna's face eating voraciously. Apparently he delivered Maura until he forgot to eat breakfast and once he got home he immediately ate voraciously, pregnant women would easily feel hungry because they have to fill the energy along with the fetus in his stomach. Hasna never asked her to bring any food when she was pregnant. Surely his wife was so disappointed in him that she hid the pregnancy for days from him.

Reza went up to the second floor, his eyes fixed on his wife's room. When entering Reza's room felt very empty, he frowned. Too neat no clothes hanging or folded as usual, he apparently cleaned his room before leaving so it looks like an uninhabited room. There is only an additional desk that Hasna often uses to do tasks, the image of his wife sitting on a task appears in his memory.

He remembered how grateful Hasna was for helping with some of her tasks. Hugged her long in the morning and thanked her by giving her many kisses to her face. Reza smiled with those memories, why could he not remember the many smiles on his wife's face while they were alone. When Reza opened the wardrobe, he was stunned.

The closet was empty, there were only 3 clothes folded there, opened the door of the closet which was another place to hang clothes. Just as there was only one jacket hanging in the closet, he breathed. Reza recalled Hasna several times carrying a large bag while delivering Maura, apparently he had planned to leave this house for a long time.

Reza was sitting on the chair, why did he not suspect this he did not think so far. He didn't think Hasna would be that determined and hateful of him. Slowly opening the drawer of the study table there are some items in it, Reza frowned there is a cellphone in the drawer. Drawn out so that the phone is more visible, he feels recognize this phone. This is Mitha's phone.Why is it in Hasna's room drawer.

Try to turn on the phone but can not live.hmm why Hasna save Mitha's phone, rubbed the phone with a sad smile.

“Mitha... I repeat the same mistakes as before. Why are you married to me stupid man Mith” Reza talks to himself while wiping mitha mobile phone with his right hand. “Mith... You asked Hasna to look after the children.. have her come back here again Mith...” Reza sat down and sighed, all this time he never tried to communicate with Mitha about Hasna.

“Mith.. I must how now?” Reza sighed at last she laid her body on Hasna's bed. Smelling the scent of Hasna on the pillow, he smiled at his wife who likes to sleep drooling on the mattress. “Rara you now do not drool in a hotel room.later suspect Indonesia jorok” he smiled, remember when Hasna was asleep in the car and always mangap.

“Ra to Japan it's a long trip.. You have to move a lot so as not to pegal” he sighed, kissed the pillow he slept on, there is a scent of Hasna's body there. His tired body began to feel relaxed and calm. “Ra you do not go too long.. “ Reza is asleep by the physical fatigue and feeling he experienced today.

The next day, Reza woke up feeling calmer. His eyes stared at the right corner of the room, usually Hasna praying there, he often refused prayers congregation with Hasna, because tired or want to rest first, but actually Reza had forgotten the short letters that he had to imitate his wife. Several times he had to repeat the letter and finally only read a short letter that he memorized.

“You why never protest if I misread the letter Ra… you must protest so I can write short letters again so that you can be a real” priest Reza smiled cynically and then woke up and took ablution water. After performing the morning prayers he saw the Quran which Hasna used to keep near the place of prayer, he saw it for a long time he had never taught, he said, he had forgotten how to read the Quran turned out to be a lot of things that he had forgotten so far.

“Mas... do not forget naji... if not familiarized later forget and get stiffer.. Maura is now Iqro 3, later could-can be more hero Maura taught him” Reza smiled he remembered when Hasna remembered to teach, at that time he just raised his eyebrows as a sign of understanding. But until now he had never done so, saved the Quran and then went out of the room.

“Master wants breakfast now?” Mbak Jumi immediately offered breakfast when he saw Reza down from the top.

“Let's go... anyone I want to take care of first” Reza rushed to the workspace, the clock has shown 5.30 am. Last night he got a message that Aswin came home with the last plane from Surabaya.

“Win is awake? If you have please call me there needs” Reza sends a short message.

Reza tried to remember the name of the University that Hasna would visit for a comparative study but still did not remember. I heard her cell phone ringing soon.

“Good morning Sir. How is there already news of Ms Hasna?” aswin's voice sounded still hoarse, it seemed that he had just woken up.

“Until what time are you home? How is there any question or desire from the investor in relation to the future plan” yesterday Reza immediately departed after they finished agreeing on the points of cooperation.

“Night at 11 pak already at home. No problem, thank God everything went well. Yesterday I had time to accompany them to see the recreational location in Surabaya for a while. The plan this afternoon they return to Japan” Aswin is indeed a reliable assistant.

“Win try to check if the visa application to Japan now how many days? If only two or three days I will leave” Reza immediately inform about his plan to pick up Hasna.

“There's a problem sir? Wasn't it the plan Bu Hasna would follow a comparative study to the Japanese father of the story, so I was asked to transfer to his friend as well” Aswin felt astonished why Reza was so impatient to meet his wife.

“There are things that I have to take care of, after all all the dealings with investors are done” Reza does not want her household problems to be a common problem, too embarrassing.

“Oya. I ask you please find a charger for iphone 5S..” Aswin immediately wrinkled his forehead, it's an old type of phone, but he chose not to ask much.

“Good sir later I will take care of it, later you get to my office prepare information and charger” Reza smiled he has a reliable person when he was having trouble.

Reza arrived at the office at ten in the morning, after calling Aswin he decided to go back to sleep, rest in order to gather energy. Arriving at the office he saw Aswin was sitting at his desk.

“How long do you get to the office? No rest first” Reza stepped into his office.

“It was enough sir earlier I slept six hours.on the plane will also have time to sleep Pak” Aswin smiled and gave documents that need to be signed Reza. The phone charger that Reza asked for.

“This pack I found a bag containing cookies in a jar, the rich mother brought first time to the office, kmarin I did not see. Last time Office Boy found it under the corner desk” Aswin gave a paper bag containing cookies made by Hasna. Reza was confused, he remembered the contents of Hasna's letter which intended to give a surprise on that day.

“And about the visa to Japan I just checked on his website seven working days of management package, five days at the earliest Reza sighed, saying, if Hasna stays on the initial schedule for only a week, it means that once the visa is over his wife has returned home. He was only worried that Hasna was actually extending the time of her visit as told to her family.

“Ya I have just waited” replied Reza short, he only had to be patient for one week. When Aswin came out, Reza immediately opened a paper bag containing Hasna's cake. He smiled at his favorite cake made by Hasna, slowly picked one up and eaten with great emotion. Suddenly she felt her heart ache, as Hasna happily made a cake to tell about the pregnancy and ended up in an argument.

As he picked up the second cake he noticed a small box tied to the jar lid.. Like a decoration but not what he thought, opened and Reza immediately choked the results of the test pack. His eyes immediately water, Hasna intended to surprise him with a cake covered with test pack results, he saw there was a small paper in it. Second letter from his wife.

“Boy or Girl?”

“No matter its a boy or girl I know you will be a great father” Reza's tears instantly fall read it. Hasnaa…. I may be a good father to children but why can't I be a good husband. Reza took a breath, the cake in her throat was hard to swallow.

As Reza stared at the cookie jar with a sad feeling Aswin entered the room, he immediately stopped and looked at Reza in confusion. “Sorry sir... I interrupted” Aswin directly closed the door back. Reza turned his head and called him “Win in I need your consideration”

Reza felt that Aswin already knew that he and Hasna had problems since yesterday's fight, finally Reza explained to Aswin since the fight until Hasna went to Japan he could not make contact with him because Hasna left her phone in the car deliberately.

“Bu Hasna deliberately left the phone so that you do not make contact” Aswin shook his head. “Determination yes Sir .. It's like disconnecting communication no longer want to talk to anyone ” Reza took a deep breath. “She is pregnant Win.. I am worried something happened with her.. yesterday her condition looks weak” Aswin's eyes immediately rounded, wah another story if pregnant should be known immediately his condition.

“Handphone brought by Sir?” Aswin seemed excited, he was tired of taking care of investment projects. Reza's story about Hasna made him feel like solving the problem of finding a way to communicate with the woman he knew well.

Reza nodded, he picked it up and handed it to Aswin.

“Not wearing password Sir?” Reza shook his head, last night he turned on the new phone realized that there was no message coming in because the sim card was not there.  “Sim card was revoked” he said.

Aswin turned on the phone and saw that the sim card had been taken, but based on his experience as long as he could connect to the internet some applications during not log out will still be able to live and update the news. Aswin directly connects the phone device with wifi in the room Reza, and so directly connected to the notification of incoming messages in a row.

“Great you think there, I did not think there” Reza immediately opened the messaging application and he was immediately stunned when he saw the photos in the Hasna class group.

“He wears a veil now” he said slowly, his eyes looked watery, his wife looked cheerless, tried to smile but her eyes looked sad, not cheerful as usual.

“Wahh Bu Hasna is great, leaving the house immediately closed the aurat so as not to invite slander maybe Pak” Aswin approached and saw the mobile phone Hasna held by Reza.

“Most well Sir there are 1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8 people who participate. If we want to know their activities can be through social media, usually they have updates on instagr*m or other social media. Ms. Hasna has social media, right sir?” Aswin looked towards Reza who immediately shook his head weakly.

“I don't know, he once asked me to open social media but I refused. But the power he has” Aswin directly open the application on the phone. He immediately smiled

“Bu Hasna has a lot of social media Sir..ini” Aswin shows some applications installed on Hasna mobile phones.

“Usually people who are active on social media will be diligent in updating their activities there.Possibly Bu Hasna update during in Japan” Aswin then open the faceb**k application and it turns out that the last post Hasna last month, as well, then open instagr*m also the same last month. Twit**r was a year ago.

“Bu Hasna apparently is not too active social media, this is a post last month, hopefully his friend who is now active social media” Aswin directly looking for the top posts and social media activity.

“Hahhahaah met Pak” Aswin immediately shouted happily, he felt he found the jackpot. There was a story that was updated last night, fortunately it has not been deleted. He handed it to Reza.

“This post on arrival in Japan it seems” Reza noticed instagr*m that Aswin showed. His account called Call_me_Dy is a strange name. There he saw some activity at the airport, Hasna who was walking with her female friend, they were picking up luggage and then approached by the man. Reza smiled as he felt a great longing to see his wife's face. She wears a veil, looking differently prettier with her small nose and round eyes. He looks tired but still smiles.

Reza is grateful that Hasna looks better in the video, the feeling of tightness begins to disappear and replaced with relief, he does not want his wife to suffer while pregnant now.

“Can we save this video?” Reza gave the phone to Aswin who immediately nodded.

“I first downloaded the application to move the status so that it can save Pak briefly” Aswin directly toggle mobile phone Hasna.

When Aswin takes care of Hasna's phone, Reza grabs Mitha's phone and sees that she is alive after being charged. With Mitha's cell phone in his heart he remembered that he had never known much about his wife's mobile phone, Mitha rarely moved out so he did not really want to know what his wife's activities were. After getting married to Hasna now she wants to know what Mitha did at the last moment, why she did not remember this phone when Mitha died.

Reza opened the messaging app and his forehead was wrinkled, all messages were open when his wife had died. Apparently Hasna has opened all the messages in it, why she dared to open Mitha's phone and not tell him, four years back there is where this phone is until he never saw it.

Reza saw a message from an unnamed number, immediately attracted his attention because this meant that there was an unknown person Mitha sent a message and Reza was immediately stunned. He immediately sat down on the chair to see the photo in the message. Aswin immediately turned to look at Reza who looked shocked.

“What's up Sir.”

What kobaaa? Kageeet right.