Married to My Own Gus

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A few hours in the bathroom, I'm cold but calm I won't collapse, I don't want to faint, I'm still strong, even if you know what it's like in my stomach, everyone was already cheering to get out, and dizzy, my head seemed to be spinning nonstop, feeling the smell of the bathroom, and of course I was cold.

"I've wanted to get out" said Bu Aini, yes not the voice of Kak Sari, bu Aini is a beautiful ustadzah who is always friendly with anyone.

"thank you it's not Sari's sister anymore" I'm grateful in my heart.

"Yes ustadzah, I'm going out, I'm going to faint" I'm weak - my voice, even though it's actually weak, but I'm making it weaker so that he's a little bit sorry for me. I'm really not strong here, I really can't take it anymore

In my brain it is imagined, if I faint everyone will humiliate me, maybe they will not insult, just a smile spoiled. But if I don't faint, then there will be many punishments ready to embrace me tightly, and I'm sure if all those punishments seem to have cheered me on, what else should I use? If you can be free from here easily, without drama, without having to make a rowdy whole Pondok pesantren. The noise I made myself and I also ended. I started it and then finally I myself got hit by his shit. I felt the impact myself.

"Alright, please come out, beautiful Princess, this is Neng Nanda" Aini's ustadzah speech in welcome cheers from all santri wati.

Neng Nanda's? I just heard it ticklish, what's it called? I don't want to be locked up in this boarding school, all the rules make me can't, and what do you call it? I really don't want to be called that.

Maybe many people aspire to be neng in his cottage. The son of ordinary people ascended the throne if they can marry a handsome prince without any gap, marry him and be happy forever, with the name Neng for them special.

But for me no, my song soul does not accept that I have to be here for as long as I have an honorary title called Neng Nanda, I do not want and do not want to at all.

Haduw GR really me, surely the name Neng Nanda is just figurative know satire to me, pretentious'an I do not want, when who I am, song girl, song girl, who always makes rowdy The cottage area will be part of the Ndalem family?? it really won't be possible.

The bathroom door opened slowly. I felt an immeasurable happiness.

Inside the bathroom I heard all quiet, even as I and Aini's corpse spoke, as if we were just the two of us, not in the pain and I did not think everyone was standing outside the bathroom door I was wearing earlier, there was a lot of feeling I felt when I came out of the bathroom, there was a sense of relief, there was a sense of relief, plong but there's a real sense of shame.

"Enak over there?!" ustadzah Aini smiled at me, but that smile held a lot of meaning to me. He seems very disappointed in me.

"Okey, but I'm fine" I'm still trying to be 'cool' but you know the pounding in my heart is becoming more and more so, as if there are hundreds of thousands of cannons ready to explode in there, wanting to faint is certainly not the right choice, but honestly I want to faint but still I hold it, want to run away from here certainly I can oh, many times I have felt there is no capok for me to repeat constantly.

Really what I was thinking, right? everything comes true, they will not and pass Me out, what is in their brains is, when there is santri wati to do troublemaking, what is appropriate for them is PUNISHMENT.

I would love to protest, yes I have been stuck for hours in the bathroom, with a very sharp smell, with millions of fears. I can't take it if I'm still in the law, too? but..this is all whose fault? my own fault, troublemaking. Bath time does not queue, even nerobos queue the santri, plus deliberately linger in the bathroom.ya this is my own fault.

All day I was in the bathroom, there was a feeling of regret that I felt. If I hadn't done that noise, I wouldn't have had such an exhausting day. Really I want to vomit and faint, but I'm really embarrassed, yes tengil girls like me lose to the bathroom, I clean all areas of the bathroom of the cottage, with nausea and nose cover, I'm sure, I do it all today, because if I don't do it and finish it today, then tomorrow it'll be doubled, that means I have to clean not only this bathroom, but also the second and third floors.

Imagine having to clean up all that seoranv myself I talk to myself "Let's get excited, finish this fast, today, enough today, just this part don't add more enough.ayo spirit"

Seeing me so eager to do the punishment. Ustadzah Aini came to me.

"You must begin to change, all this reprimand from Allah SWT, because whatever you want to do will again attack you. We all love you, we already consider you part of the family. Allah SWT wants you to change, this is for yourself, not for others" Ustadzah Aini gave me advice, as he spoke I always looked at Almh. My mother was full of calmness on her face, the words a came out of her mouth were always polite and pleasant to hear, advising but I did not feel at all in a gurui.

"Well, I'll try" in a tone of voice that I kind of made as cool as possible, but actually those words have been stuck in my heart and mind.

"Think.then you will never regret. I'm sure if you want to think, you'll feel calm, and everything can go more pleasantly" He spoke at length and left me alone in the bathroom.

What did Ustadzah say if I thought it was true, all my actions never once allowed God to happen, did Allah SWT love me so much? if honey why are you here?

But it is said that Allah SWT is always dear to all of His advantages, always remind them to always worship and praise His asthma but unfortunately His servants are often lulled with the world, and forget the true obligation he is in the World for worship.

The opportunity to do good is always there, but we ourselves sometimes miss it.

Sometimes I feel lost in the face of the people here, when I'm being tight with them, they'll still be nice to me, when I'm silent not saying hello they'll even greet me first, all of that gradually made me a little embarrassed by myself.

Hidayah often comes in human life, but only lucky people who want to take it, do not waste the opportunity is still given a breath. Always try to do your best.