Married to My Own Gus

Conscious

If the world were only filled with pleasure, there would be no tears and pain, but if the world were only filled with misery, then there would never be smiles and happiness, in the world of sorrow and happiness come in turn, when God makes the night pitch-black, but God also creates a bright day, all in line, rotating in the direction that has been determined.

I will not let my heart be hurt by anyone, nor 'perfect', for me no one has the right to hurt my heart.

Take care of your heart, be selfish about guarding your heart, don't let anyone in, if he just wants to hurt and hurt.

I know if I'm in love, I feel happy thinking about her, I smile at myself imagining my meeting with her, but I realize, if she's too perfect for me, I'm sure, I'll close my heart to her, because I know loving her will only hurt me.

I've been hurt enough, the life I've lived is not easy, my problems seem to be gone, I want to be happy, My first love I have to bury deep before he gives more wounds. To me she was perfect, and I realized I wouldn't let my heart hurt for loving her.

The love just came, he came unplanned, he came unexpectedly, he could be felt but invisible to the naked eye.

I know that I'm only up to Abu who misses the handsome prince who loves him, but I'm Nanda Princess, a woman from the common circle to be her own Gus? that's really crazy.

"Well Gus...!" I just answered with no spirit, just a normal tone when, you know, really my heart is pounding, then I decided to forget my first love 'Si perfect' creature that is now in front of me, instead she came with her beautiful smile, making my heart melt. Should I surrender before the war? but I'm afraid of heartache, I'm so afraid of being disappointed with my destiny.

When we were with Almh. Mother. I thought, I'll always be with him. I'm happy to have a family to talk to, there's a Dad and there's a Mom, I'm forever like that, happy with them, until I get married, Have a Son, take care of Mom and Dad until they're old, but my thoughts and fantasies are not always, Mother is taken first, since that time, I just resigned to my destiny, I do not really bother.

Now that I'm falling in love, I'm afraid of being disappointed again with my expectations, I'm afraid of getting hurt again.

"Cock still" his voice was melodious, gentle, completely inversely proportional to me, He was a very good man in speech, manners in attitude, so showed who he really was.

"C.ehe...eo..i. .Enggeh gus!." I can't say anything, I want to smile happily because I can walk with him, but I also have to take care of my heart. I don't want to fantasize too high, I'm afraid of falling, I'll get hurt myself

"Later all these books pyn down into my room Nggeh mbak.., Ma'af earlier I actually invited kang Ahmad, but he's in timbali Abah, he went to meet Abah, Abah, I can't bring all these books myself, no one I can ask for help with, is There's the Mama, the Ma'am doesn't mind, do I ask for help?" What did he say to the room ?! not wrong, to your heart just gus, I'm ready, heheehe ..