Married to My Own Gus
Pov Gus Baha's'
Everything did not go according to plan, I from childhood was far away with parents, I was in the cottage in the boarding school owned by acquaintance Abi. Pondok pesantren Nurul jannah, although Abi is a kyai and has its own Pondok pesantren, but I remain in 'exhaust' to another kyai place.
But I never regretted, even now I'm grateful, because Abi was well-intentioned, So that I'm independent, not dependent on others.
If I had stayed in Abi's boarding school, I would never have been independent, could not have been alone and would have always depended on others.
"If the hyacinth man in his own boarding house, he will not be independent, all there is to serve, there is a loyal and ready khodam anytime, anywhere to serve, there is a faithful khodam, if you go to another boarding school, you get more knowledge, you have more knowledge, your insights are more open, your experience is more" Abi's words give me motivation.
"Enggeh Abi, Baha' nurot mawon"
I actually want to go to Makkah, I want to go to college in Egypt, but Umi always forbid, he said I'm the only child, not willing if far away, the cry of Umi abort my desire.
"Searching for knowledge doesn't have to go abroad, does it?!" Abi insinuates me subtly.
"But that's the ideal Baha' wants to achieve...Bi!" I spoke with my face down. Even with my own brother, I have great respect for him.
"Yes Abi knows, but if it should make the fret and worry Umi and Abi. Is that not the same as you hurting us?!" Abi spoke in a very subtle tone but the meaning of his words touched my heart.
I wouldn't have the heart to hurt a woman who gave me all her time, gave me love, which I didn't know, gave me everything I needed, love me with sincerity and care.
"Umi loves you so much, son!" Umi spoke no less softly, even I saw her eyes looked watery.
I honestly don't know. What really happened? until I was not allowed to go to school or college, continue my education abroad. If I often know. Not only Gus-gus or Neng-neng, the children of Pak yai who went to school abroad, even many of the children of ordinary people who continued their education to the Middle East, but why I can not.
I gave up on Umi. Although I mondok on earth earth alone, but I mondok moved from one pesanten to another pesantren, not because I do not feel at home, but, all for the sake of getting knowledge and knowledge is broad, not because I do not feel at home, I went to bed in Langitan, goiter in Gontor, goiter in kediri, all Barokah masayayikh want me to reach.
Umi told me to go home, Abi was often sickly, the cottage had to have a successor so that this religious shiar was extinguished, Umin was worried about anything happening with Abi, my age who had stepped on twenty-four years, he said, make Umi a little wanti-wanti so I immediately choose a mate.
There are a lot of Neng-neng that I know. There is Neng Aishh from the great kyai of ponorogo origin, Ada Neng Nafish Anak from kyai Zuhdi, from the famous Anak kyai to the mediocre kyai.
actually I do not care the Origin of my future wife later, for me I can love her sincerely, give a sense of comfort, can make my partner better, can invite her to live a happy Household.The world to the Hereafter.
"The son of a kyai, it is good to have the son of a kyai as well, that is his name the corresponding maqom" Abi closed the Qur'an while kissing it.
"But takdri lives who knows, Bi" I dare to answer because my heart also deserves to be happy.
Everyone thinks I'm perfect, I'm handsome, white, I'm a little bit of a sideburn, since I was a kid, everybody's been fascinated by me, the religious science I have, the famous kyai, but I feel so ordinary, I'm just plain, I'm like everyone in general, sometimes I feel uncomfortable being treated differently
When I go to another boarding school, I'm so happy I can feel like an ordinary person, with no honor, no speciality.
"Lately the Princess' cottage is always rame, there is a new Santri wati who always troublemakers"
"That's a natural thing, indeed the famous boarding school in the field Mi" Abi spoke in his interpretation but without explanation, Umi was confused as it seemed.
"Many want their children to be good, but ornag know always lose with the heart and feelings, let the school will be taught about the science of religion at home, but when the child dablek, let the school will be taught about the science of religion at home, the main choice was directly the destination boarding school" I explained to Umi about what I knew, whether Umi understood or not with my explanation..
Mondok is printing the Islamic generation, not just a prestige fight, must be based on pure intention, if mondok is not in good naiti really, the person loses very much.
