Love in the Heart

Session 2 Chapter 35 Curhatan Akel

What a wonderful happiness cannot be expressed in words. When we got back together in a true story. In a story that is not just a dream. He can hold his hand for real. The fact that right now Yukita is a precious beautiful creature, which I will keep forever.

Only, her heart was too pretty to keep walking. I must also be able to improve myself so that our common goal is true into a reality in a sacred bond later. A while ago, my heart was still too dirty. So much prejudice against others. I want to be like Remon who is always positive for everything. Aahh, it's beautiful if I can be like that too.

The days passed were so beautiful, sometimes he did seem saturated when I pasted it. Hence, I always try to make room when in college hours. However, when college hours were up, I had no friends to talk to but him. I have always been lonely. Is this the result of me being too arrogant? Think they are smaller, so reluctant to be invited to chat a long time ago? Sometimes I envy Anggi, and other friends who freely chat with anyone. I actually want to be like them. But... how?

Usually, in the past, if there was no work activity I read the legal books that are reliable while glancing at the lyrics of what Yukita does. Even though it was so upset with him, still paying attention to his activities was a job that calmed the brain. Now, everything about him is within my grasp. But I don't want to hold it too tightly, afraid that a tight grip will make him claustrophobic and run away.

I knew she loved me so much, but somehow her heart kept getting hot when she got too close to another man. When he found out, he was so close to Anggi, my heart felt so burning. Plus when he was dating Aldi, it felt like giving up waving to the camera.

After knowing in his heart there was only one name, which was me, I was like soaring to the seventh heaven, even though what the seventh heaven was like, I myself did not know.

I wonder why he's been chasing Anggi lately. He once told me, when I was in Bandung, Anggi asked him to be a girlfriend, but he had been rejected. Since then Anggi stayed away, and he was very sad because of it. He said he wanted Anggi to be like him again.

Actually I was happy, if Anggi was away from him. But this chest ached every time he saw her continue to chase and chase Anggi. It hurts even more to see him fall because he continues to chase.

Am I not enough to be her lover and best friend? Though I spoke everything only to him, there was no place to share other than him and Dirga.

Oh yes, Dirga. whatever it is I always share with Dirga. So did he, whatever he likes until his love story with the Princess until now still shared. He was the first person I told, finally me and Yukita united, yes it was only on him that I told him. He was the first and only one to congratulate me. For all the efforts we made to be together.

Oh, or maybe for him Anggi is like Dirga in my life? But does he not already have Mili, Feli, or Chesi as a placeholder for the story? Plus I'm ready to hold the story up to twenty-four hours. Is it still not enough if there is still no Anggi? I really don't know what his way of thinking is. It's just, I'm always grateful to have that sweet girl's heart.

The new thing I know about him is that he always tries to give up. Choose to be quiet for a moment, rather than fighting. Choose to divert the conversation rather than fight. If she is a woman, why can't I be a man? I can even try to be better than him. However, one thing I didn't like, when he chose to leave instead of talking about the problem properly. If this continues, every problem will never be solved. Hah, women are hard to understand what he wants.

How do I tell you that I was the one who was attacked? Well, what kind of man is this? Can't repay a man who's been gnawing at me like that. My self-esteem would fall if I said that to her.

I'm afraid that if I give up all my energy, Anggi and his friends will go to the hospital. I learned taekwondo a long time ago, but I didn't. Already up to the red belt, a little more towards the black belt but chose to stop because it was no longer curious. But facing those kids, it's just a matter of ringing for me. However, he was the one whom Yukita considered valuable. If I had hurt her, Yukita would have been hurt more.

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Is he still worried about his friend being okay? Complaining me with pain all over the body? The flames of jealousy were burning all over the body, making me lazy to follow him, who met Anggi.

I don't know what Anggi would tell Yukita. Telling me every detail of his punch landing on my face? The kick that landed on my chest? Imagining it all made my pride suddenly fall, go into the well.

“Sister, Brother Akel? Don't wander off first! It is obviously not healed yet!” welcome Vina back to the boarding house.

“Assalamualaikum,” Remon also welcomed me with a hand department every first meet every day. “Boy, why his face?”

“Oh, this... fell!”

“Boy don't lie to me! I'm also a man, a fall wound is not like this?”

“Hmmm, yes. But I don't want to talk about it anymore.”

“Oooh, so,” he nodded. “Have been taken for treatment? Do I need a doctor's appointment?”

“Aaah, no need. This in brought rest can also be cured.”

“Don't underestimate that. If there is an internal wound it is dangerous?”

“No need Bro, brought this break will also be healed really. I went in first. Makasi is worried.”

Oh yes, Vina is still tailing beside me. “Vina, I'm fine. You can learn more with Bang Remonnya!”

“Which brother was yesterday Where's Kak?”

“Oh we met on campus. Learn more!” I went into the room. What are they talking about, huh? My heart was shaking, and on the screen Dirga called me. “Iya, hello..”

“Hary....” sounds heavy voice not as usual.

“Why Bro?”

“Bokap I just died,” it turns out his voice heavy withstanding crying.

“Innalillahi wa innailahi rajiun. Why Ga?”

“Suddenly this morning bokap shortness of breath. He was rushed to the doctor, the heart attack doctor said. And, just died,” from behind Dirga's voice heard the cries of several people.

“Bro! I'm so sorry. Lu as a male, currently replacing the deceased, you must be strong! I'll try to find a ticket there.”

“Neither do Bro! Too far if you follow here.”

“Now you where's Ga?”

“We're all still in the hospital. We are taking care of the administration of bringing the deceased home.”

“Lu must be strong! Remember that! Currently you are the only man in the family!”

“Iya I understand.”

The phone was closed, I immediately searched for an online flight ticket to Bandung. If you could fly today. Once I get it, I send Yukita a message.

[I'm going to Bandung first!

Be careful here!]

The message has not been read, and I am packing soon, not much has been brought. Maybe just a little while there. Then I called Mama, told her that I was coming home to sleep at Dirga's house, and she let me.

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