Love in the Heart

Chapter 47 do not ask

“KAMU.. YOU'RE JAHAAATT.. YOU JAHAAATTT...

I WANT TO GO HOME.. DON'T WANT TO BE HERE ANYMORE

WHY ARE YOU SO???

I'M READY WHEN YOU HAVE ANOTHER

BUT TALK TO ME FOR ONE MINUTE YOU DON'T WANT TO

I WANT PULAAAANG!!”

Finally broke all my tears, the tightness continued to lurk until all felt reduced. Akel led me to a beautiful place, everywhere green, a hill country, on the edge of the abyss I was free to shout and the sound bounced back to me. “Why? Why am I so crazy? I'm ashamed of myself, to this extent to find a Hary that I don't know what it's like. But, this is all I got. I shouldn't have expected more, and I don't have to go here. Where far from my dear parents and family.”

I saw Akel, far enough away from me, hiding a face in his lap. Maybe he's holding back a laugh because I'm like a crazy person, maybe he's sorry he brought me here because it's better he's spending the time he should be with his girlfriend, or other possibilities.

While I was screaming alone, screaming at what I was thinking or yelling at anything, not verbal language. The important thing is that this explosive feeling must be released immediately until my esophagus hurts. Then I sat quietly looking at this beautiful creation of God. Long enough indeed, until my energy was gathered again after the craze earlier.

Looking at the green scenery around this place is a bit of a treat for my heart, because I like green. This is the first time I cried like this, even when I broke up with Hary I didn't cry. I looked at all the green, the valley looked green, green as long as the eye could see.

after my strength was enough to make me stand up, suddenly my sanity reappeared. I can't cry anymore. Make what??? You idiot! I'm so stupid I can be like crazy, and so embarrassing because there's Akel. Then walk me towards Akel.

“Already satisfied crying?” I silently turned her back down, a little embarrassed “your eyes are swollen”

“We go home yuk?”

“Where?”

“I want to sleep, let's just go back to the dorm.”

“Why are you like this?" I took his hand off at the end of my finger. "You see for yourself? I was not ready to talk. Maybe rest is what I need right now!"

“But... Yukita. I want to explain something important to you. You should know the truth.that...”.

“Iya I know.. I know, you want to entertain me. But, right now I want to rest first.. I hope my feelings are back tomorrow.”.

“Alright..” he said resignedly..

Arriving at the asram, I went in without talking anything, I immediately laid my body, without bathing..

“Yuki, you why?” tanya Mili sat on the edge of the bed where I slept. I haven't been able to tell Mili.

"You're fighting with Akel?"

I sat in the position next to Mili, I shook my head and forced my lips to smile.

"Hary's problem?"

I nodded slowly, and again it felt like a dam was created in the eye peluk.

"Why this? have you met him? have you talked to him? does she really have a boyfriend?"

Ahhh... Mili. "Sorry Mili, I can't talk about this right now..."

Then Mili seemed to realize that she had a wrong attitude, "Sorry Yuki, I was only worried about you. When you had no news, how worried we all were. And earlier Akel was like a madman trying to contact you." Mili said grudgingly, like saving something.. "Then you rest first... I won't bother you first..."

"I'm sorry Mili, it worries you,..." Mili just patted me gently on the shoulder a few times and then returned me to my sleeping position. Keep thinking about everything I've been through until I get here...