I Found Love At the End of the Dusk

Strengthen Yourself

I step foot out of the room and gather the strength to live a life that feels so difficult.

"Breakfast at dusk!" mother's voice sounded so overtime that it calmed the heart.

"I'm still full, ma'am," I said as I continued to walk carrying shoes and a sling bag that I deliberately carried with my hands.

"Life is a test and a test, if you don't eat how can you get through everything?" said Mother.

For a moment I was silent thinking about what Mom had just said, even though I understood and knew for sure if what Mom said was true, but still, still, it feels so lazy to fill the afternoon that actually already feels hungry.

"Let me eat, now the food I just pack for provisions," I said.

I won't let you go without eating or carrying food if I don't want to eat, it has happened a long time ago and I who have memorized choose to bring provisions rather than forcing myself to eat and in the end I will not be able to spend the food that Mother provides.

Without much to say or ask, Mother walked eagerly into the kitchen to fetch the food that would be brought to me.

"Don't forget to eat! late eating or even not eating at all will harm my body, as difficult as any life you are living, eating is an important thing that you should not miss, he said, because if you don't eat and get sick from it, it's not happiness you'll get but pain and trouble that will never end" Mother said, holding out the lunch box in my hand.

"Thank you Mom, sorry I let you down, sorry also because I still can't make you happy" I said as I grabbed Mom's hand and started kissing her back.

"Have, don't think too much! seeing you healthy and smiling is enough for you, so don't be sad!" mother said with a smile then kissed slowly on my forehead, trying to channel all the affection I felt.

"Then, Dusk said goodbye to Mother," said my father who immediately walked out of the house to look for the bus at a fast pace.

"Alley!" a voice I did not expect was heard greeting my ears, if I could just disappear at this moment and leave, I would definitely do it, she said, ahhh it feels like I want to have the power of teleportation leaving Sam who is actually currently slowing down the speed of his motorbike to match his faster pace.

"Stop Twilight!" tell Sam, my mind tells me to keep walking away from Sam and ignore him, but my heart can't keep up, which sucks.

"Say! what's up?" I asked with a cynical tone mixed with a sharp gaze drawing out the heart.

"I can explain everything Twilight, give me time and a chance to say it all" Sam asked with a clear expression.

"I don't have time right now Sam, I have to go to work immediately, I beg you to go!" I felt that if I gave him the opportunity and time to explain everything, I would be late for work.

"If you don't have time right now, can we meet at the cafe right in front of the office where I work?" Sam looked so confused and sincere, to be honest, I still had a speck of love in my heart, which is why I couldn't resist Sam despite the demanding logic.

"Well, I'll come to the cafe after work, now can you go and let me go alone," I who was desperate chose to obey Sam's request rather than keep quiet and let Sam continue to force me to give it time.

"I'll be waiting for you at the cafe later in the afternoon, I hope you keep your promise" Sam said.

"I will definitely keep my promise, Sam, now that I ask you, go!" my door with a heartfelt expression hoped Sam would obey and not bother you anymore.

"Allow me to take you to Dusk" said Sam, which was enough to irritate me.

"I've been kind enough to give you time to explain everything Sam, so don't ask for more than you asked for!" my sahut who immediately stepped back to leave Sam who looks pecked in his place.

With wide strides I stepped away from Sam, although to be honest in my heart there was still love that was able to make the pain I felt even worse, but I had to stay strong at all costs, I live not only for me, if I give up and choose a shortcut then my mother will suffer.

"Bismillah," I said.

I set my heart with the intention of continuing to live my life without looking back or caring about what is behind me.

"Hay Rey!" this time it was me who said hello, after the incident a few days ago where Reyhan willingly did my job, I feel like Reyhan's not as bad as I thought and I'll start being nice to him from today.

"Hay is also Dusk," said Reyhan with a typical smile play boy yanh always adorned his face.

"Tumben early in the morning already hit first?" said Reyhan who is now walking beside me.

"Thank you," I said.

"I am what? what do you answer? ishhh basic girl no one can understand," Reyhan's great-granddaughter while shaking her head felt strange with my answer that did not connect.

I smiled sweetly at Reyhan then again said, "Thank you for the help yesterday, and from today on I will not be cynical about you anymore,"

"Wahhh, about yesterday, you take it easy, I will definitely help you and find me if you need help," Reyhan said with such a pedant.

"Surely, but you have to guarantee that if I ask for help and you help me Siska will not be angry with me" said I who did not want to be exposed to Siska spray.

"Siska won't be mad at you, I've explained if I'm just good friends with you and I've also explained that you already have a lover, and the good news is again, I had already proposed to Siska and asked her officially to both her parents as proof that I was serious with her," Reyhan explained so many things that I was shocked and gaping in shock.

"Hey, Twilight!" Reyhan came back to call me who did not respond to his words instead silently stared fixedly at him.

"Ah, yes," spontaneously surprised by the call of Dusk.

"You're listening to me, aren't you?" reyhan asked when he saw me just silence without reaction.

"Of course, congratulations, I pray that your relationship will last and be happy until the end" I said with a smile that I made as sweet as possible.

"Amin," he said.

"This morning you want to make a drink or I'll let it go?" tawar Reyhan's.

"Not to help! let me do the work I should have done myself, you better do it" I subtly declined Reyhan's offer.

"All right, then I'll go first. His work spirit," said Reyhan who immediately left me who was now standing looking at his departure.

"Rey!!" call me when Reyhan steps away a little.

"Yes" said Reyhan who immediately stopped his steps when he heard my call.

"His work spirit! remember that! marriage is a lot! so that's the spirit!" I said with a big smile and hoped Reyhan would smile too.

"Relax, if the cost is less there will be you, you can invest in your wedding capital after my wedding party," Reyhan replied while winking one eye teasing me as usual.

"Ishhh, Reyhan made my heart even more broken" I wailed as I rubbed my chest remembering that my wedding with Sam was never going to happen.

Luckily, Reyhan and I were in the lobby for the Pante, where not many people were passing by, so my conversation with Reyhan was safe no one heard.

I stepped back into the pantry doing my job as usual, trying to get rid of all the pain and start doing my usual activities was not easy, but I had to keep doing it, because my life has to go on with or without Sam by my side again.