Charm Babysitter

Traumatizing

POV

Vano

I am a weak man with an orgasm.

My dishes are delicious, forks and spoons are also available.

So what other favors of God can I deny.

Tempting delicacy Wants it to devour.

I've been trying to hoard this orgasm by tasting it

But the taste was more tempting for me to greedily run out

Is there still my ability to refuse this delicious dish.

Allin. May I change my mind, I wish to devour you, leaving behind a beautiful trail that will carve out our future

You present it nicely full of charm and full of color.

You guard it with purity of heart, and with the pledge that you promise your god, not to offend others.

I know there's a speck of stain between us, but let that stain be the past, for you and I to learn to be better.

By calling your name God, allow me to devour my dishes, release my thirst and hunger, enjoy them with earnestness.

First night's pledge.

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POV

Allin

The smell of medicine was so clear in my smell, my eyes were so heavy but I realized that someone was holding my hand so warmly rubbing the back of my hand as if giving strength.

"Dear you're awake?" He asked so softly, maybe now I'm dreaming.

Deg ... , dear?

I saw her figure smiling, then I returned that smile with her warm eyes.

It's just Allin's dream, no. No, it's not a dream he's real in front of me maybe my hearing is wrong.

"Darling, is anyone sick? Your head feels dizzy or your lower body feels sore." ask a little doubt.

I'm shaking.

Allin your hearing is not wrong, everything you hear is right, that word is clearly coming out of his mouth. Butwhy? The more curious I was, the more thirsty my throat became, dry and painful.

I need a drink.

"Well" I said weakly quickly he turned to the table not far from the entrance.

This wasn't our room last night

What's the matter? Why am I here? What happened last night? Suddenly my head aches my hands move massaging to relieve his pain

"Darling, does your head hurt?" He asked in a hurry towards me. "Drink first!" The ink while bringing the glass closer to my lips. And his other hand gently massaged my temple.

I was still confused by this situation, could not stand my curiosity I finally forced to ask him, even though my tongue felt heavy.

"Why are we here?" I asked in a weak tone, which I remembered I was in his arms, but there was nothing wrong.

Did I have another nightmare that made my growth collapse.

"Yes......!!" my head was pulsing again. He panicked and repeatedly pressed the small button beside my bed

Somehow my feelings began to calm down her soft voice mixed with worry, sounding heavy but soothing to me.

I stared at him intently watching his face clearly, his thick, slightly puffy eye bags, his disheveled but still handsome hair, and the sleeping pajamas whose buttons were out of place, he said, especially the footwear that he used to use to go to the bathroom.

Does he not realize how messed up he is? He's not the kind of Mr. Vano I know.

Suddenly a wave of haru taste filled my chest, I showed a soothing smile to him when our eyeballs met, he replied with a big smile and glazed eyes. Showing sadness and joy at the same time.

The sound of the rotating door handle turned our eyes to the door, and the door was opened, Aunt Mia and the doctor who had been treating me were also here. I am more and more convinced that my illness is coming back.

"How are you doing, baby?" ask Auntie with worry.

I just smiled weakly. Aunty approached me, gave a warm hug and apologized to me repeatedly. I who do not know only respond with a smile.

The doctor began to examine me with mild, hypnotic questions and shortly after I was tired, there was an invisible burden in my body.

POV

Vano

"What happened to Alin?" I asked the figure of two women in front of me. Aunty Mia looked down, and the doctor just took a breath.

"I'm sorry Aunt Vano, it should be before you get married that Aunt has told you everything. Aunty thought Allin had fully recovered since Tegar was present, because he looked calmer, so Aunt kept this news to you."

"Then?" I was getting caught off guard, he was too long-winded, I wanted the point to be about Allin's condition, not about his feelings, why and why.

"Sorry Vano Aunt can not be long, Rigid need Aunt. And the doctor will explain, he's the doctor who's been taking care of Allin and knows better what and how Allin's disease is." He begged a little and left me with the doctor.

The doctor began to explain what happened to Allin

"Alin was subjected to physical violence that left her traumatized physically and mentally. He has been fighting well all along. His mother's departure added to the wound again, I initially thought Allin would get depressed, but the boy was able to cope. I was amazed, since then he has recovered faster. I asked him what encouragement made him rise when he lost his foundation (Mother Allin). He just smiled, then rubbed his already enlarged stomach."

"Mother spent her time just for my life, so that I might live well and be happy, but what I gave, was sadness. When I was destroyed it turned out that without me realizing I was tearing him apart from the inside, he was bleeding, Mother. Now it's just regret that I have, and there's only hope Mom has for me. Live well and be happy, hope for me. Whatever I may be I must live well and be happy, I will seek and find that way"

"That's what Allin told me." said the doctor with tears flowing.

I fell down to hear it, my chest felt in the slips, my tears more rushing than the doctor's mother.

"At that moment I was so gasp and proud of him, not the medicine that treated him, but his own soul that healed."

"Until now, me and the Allin family have not known who took the honor."

"I'm just suggesting to Allin, to avoid the things that could trigger him to remember the bad events"

"Can't you try to figure out who he is with your treatment method?" ask me with curiosity.

Allin why are you so closed.

"Allin felt she was able to cope with it, and she refused to continue her therapy"

"It's best that you try to figure out who that guy is. Avoiding is a good path but trying to make peace with the past is what is right. Moreover, we do not know who and where he is? As the closest person you have to find out about it. If you don't know who or what triggered the illness, how you protected it" he said, suggesting you find out who made the wound.

"Doc, what each trigger will react differently to Allin's body, this is the third incident I know of, and this is the most severe event"

"Actually the reaction remains the same. Different triggers will exert different pressures depending on how much the trigger reminds and injures it and how capable Allin can cope with"

"Then how do I handle all this"

"Communicate, try to make Allin comfortable so he can open himself up."

"And for the cause this time, I can't blame you. It's your right as a husband and the Allin family should tell you first about the trauma Allin experienced"

"Yes, you guys made me look like a rapist, my wife was so scared, her face was white when I came to my senses. And stupidly I enjoyed it too much without realizing there was something wrong with my wife. You know, doc, how he reacted when I patted him in the face, his eyes bulged with fear, he tried to shake off all the touches, he didn't seem to know me, he said, he screamed hysterically in fear and ended up with severe shortness of breath."

"I understand to your disappointment. Excessive fear makes him protect himself not to remember bad events, but there is a part of him to deny all that, it should be when you touch him, his trauma will be present instantly, he said, but he tries to fight his own fear, naturally you do not realize, if he is still frozen because it holds fear"

Aaa .., so stupid I was, enjoying it while she was fighting against her fear, I should have been conscious and more sensitive to her reaction. But I was too lulled down to devour without rest.